:: Updates ::

I am still alive and kicking, just very tired and lazy to update my blog. I hope that I will carry on my desire of blogging, and not giving up halfway just as my previous blog that went dead.

Well, life has been pretty good recently. I have "buck up" in my spiritual walk with God as compare to the past where my prayer life is consider as zero. I have started to pray daily, although its not every night, but I did try and make an effort to pray. I don't want to do this as a religious duty, but I want to spent time with God, builting up a relationship with Him. Really thank Ming Jing for the touch during Prayer Meeting, it really changes part of my life. =)

Last Saturday, I had an bad experience during my Ministry. I was doing the last praise song(Run To You) and I did some mistakes. Thank God that Kang Wei, who was leading the congregation to sing at the time did not sing wrongly. I was suppose to flash Verse 2 but I flash Verse 1. I pray that I will not make this same mistakes for Easter next week. Really need alertness and more songs to capture in my mind.

Ps Phil. service was pretty good too, and I had a few revelations in his service. He talks about Holy Spirit, and it really bless me alot. We have to depend on Holy Spirit in our lives, and even Jesus depend on Holy Spirit too. It's a channel that connect us to God. In work, ministry, every part of our life, Holy Spirit cannot be missing in it. He talk abit about hunger too. Who should we hunger for? For food, for God, for who?

Hui Shan. . . I am so glad that you are discharged. I pray that you will have a speedy recovery and that you will be able to catch up with your studies. Pray for complete healing upon you and that you will have the joy of the Lord everyday. =)

Easter is here, and this year, we have a total of 11 services! As a whole church, we will have 17 services all in all. Amazing! However, this is a good opportunity to reach out to the lost, and I pray for my camp mate Darren, will go for the Easter drama and he will get touch by it. =)

:: Great Service ::

Service today was never the same before. It was so wonderful and great to have F.I.R with City Harvest. Yes, you didn't see wrongly. It's F.I.R! We have Fei Er & Ah Qing singing to us, and their new album total rocks my world! Hahaha.. Oh ya, they propose to each other too. Not in church, but sometime ago.. Haha.. Yeah.. I am slow.. =P

They also share their testimony with us, and how God has change them, and how different they were before and after they become Christians. It greatly impacted me and its so touching to see how Fei Er was desperately in love with God. They are also making a huge difference in Taiwan Media Industry too.. Wow.. God is indeed amazing!

After Service, I joined W421 for fellowship after Chorus Boarding, and it was quite surprising to see how Pascale's connect group have so much frenzs! I had a shock when I bump into them. I never imagine so much frenzs in a normal service before. Well, today's service is not really normal, but as in big days like Easter or Christmas. Hahaa.. Well done Kelvin and Aaron. Great job you have done. I believe this CG5 is going to grow, and I believe my CG2 is going to be the same too!

I have to confess that I have not been a good Connect Group leader, and I want to bring revival in this small group. It's not by my own will and might, but by the power of the Holy Spirit. Let it start with me first! =)

I also thank God that my parents have reconcile again! I was sharing this testimony during Cell Group yesterday.. Only to realise that I have wrote something on the offering envelope during last Saturday's Service, and that is, to hope that my parents will found their first love for each other again. Few days ago, they started chatting and they even sit together to have dinner, to watch TV. It's amazing, cuz just a week before, they have been having cold wars since 2 weeks before CNY. It was the longest battle ever declare in my family, and I am glad that God did something in this family.

Just an issue that I want to ask you all. If you are sleeping halfway and you were awaken by a call for some urgent and serious issue, only to found out that the other party was just joking, will you be angry? Well, this thing happened to me last Friday morning. I was sleeping halfway and I received a call at 8 plus, and my frenz say that my Sir is angry and ask me where I am. I was quite puzzle because I am suppose to attend a function at Sentosa on that day, so I can be excuse and I need not go camp. I keep saying that I have been told to go and my Shift I/C has know about this matter. After some talking, he then start to joke that he was just lying. What the crap right? His intention for calling me was to ask if I want to go for day off because I can be excuse and need not to attend the function anymore. After some thoughts, I say that I will want to go for day off instead.

Later on, I SMS my frenz, and tell him that this thing is not funny, and I told them that if they want to play, go play among themselves. Another guy call me, instead of apologising, he blame me instead. Say that I cannot take jokes. Bla Bla Bla.. Pushing all the blames to me instead. -.- I SMS him later, apologising for spoiling his mood early in the morning, explaining things that it was not a right timing, and that I can take jokes too, and can be quite crappy sometimes. He didn't reply.

I admit that my action could be too rash. However, not everyone will have the same character right? He may be able to take such craps, but definitely not for me, especially when we are being disturb by sleep and you received such jokes at a very wrong hour. If people were to do this to you, will you be happy?

Anyway, I can say that I have let go of this issue le, just pray that I will not received anymore such pranks again. Well I guess in life, pranks will be play on you once in awhile, but there have to be a limit yeah?

Bringing you a song item by F.I.R.. It's one of my favourite.. =)

:: Love ::

What is love?

- Love is desire to give, without expecting the other person to give back.
- Love is accepting people for who they are.
- Love is a wonderful feeling.
- Love is selfless.
- Love is forever.

Why do I talk about love in this entry? Well, basically I find myself that I have not been having the spirit of loving recently. Due to a particular incident happen in my camp last Friday, I have been quite angry with that guy. On Saturday after Service, I share with Wei Jian about this. Initially, I don't really want to open up, but still, I share with him. I told him that I don't hate that guy, but I dislike him. What confuse me was, he said that isn't the same? Can I love a person but dislike him/her at the same time? Someone please counsel me. . .

I still did not let go completely, letting go bit by bit, until today, I feel better when I bump into that guy in camp. We still got laugh abit during our conversation. Strange huh? Just a few 48 hours ago I treat him like a enemy but today was quite different. Maybe, I have choose to let go of this incident. Firstly, he does not know God, that's why he don't know where to seek for comfort when he's hurt, where to seek for "attention", to get people to know him. Everybody needs attention, just that he choose the wrong way to get.

All changes my mind because of this verse...

This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another.
- 1 John 3:11

Well, it doesn't really helps when people talk to me how we should love everyone, especially when you are seriously hurt. We should care for the person first, and not just preach how we should do this and that, how we should not do this or that. Well, every Christians know that they have to love, because that is what the bible says and that is what God expect us Christians to do so. However, as what the Pastor always say, "People don't care how much you know, until they know how much you care!".

Not trying to pin point anyone out there. It's just that I feel that we should learn to care for people in a right manner. Maybe in a right place, right timing, and of course, the right words! Hahaa..

Thanks Pearly for what you wrote on your blog too. It help me to open up my mind more to God's love... =)

On another side... I bump into Q on Sunday evening.. Q was my secret lover.. Hahaa.. I was shy and I look down.. Well, that was not a real genuine love.. But, my heart and mind just keep on thinking about Q, I think God is jealous.. Well.. Hahaa.. I should really let go of some "love" too, not just letting go of pains.. Hehee.. =P

:: Thoughts ::

I wonder if I should include how hurt or how angry I feel in my blog. Firstly, its not really a nice thing to remember. By writing down in my blog will let me remember the pain again when I read them in future. Sounds reasonable? I guess so. Therefore, whatever hurts I have in future, I will not write the exact details of what happen. It's all for a good cause. Anyway, I should learn to forgive and forget. However, such things especially that hurts you alot is impossible to forget. So, this is one of the way to prevent me from getting hurt in future.

Well, of course, I do not live a perfect life. By not writing all this down, it doesn't reflect that I am showing others I have a perfect life, and everyday that I pass by is happy. Especially during this period, when I am still in NS.. Some things are rather sensitive and I cannot just anyhow say out. No matter how angry I feel towards some of the people in my camp, I will just remain silence. This is one of the way to respect them, by not saying things about them, especially since technology are so advance and anyone could be reading your blog.

Anyway, I am pretty excited looking forward to my ORD date. The people in camp should be rejoicing too. Why do I say that? Cuz they are always complaining how badly we perform, how we shouldn't do this and that. When we are officially ORD, they will not longer have such problems. Get the idea over here? It's indeed a win win situation. Nothing to talk about. =)

My plans for now is to probably to take a break after I ORD. I might enrolled in the second batch of the year in the private university. Since I can't really decide where I want to go, and I don't want to make a quick decision. It's better for me.. Since I regret choosing DECC when I was in poly when I dislike engineering at all. I don't want the same thing to happen again. . .

Service tml.. Pastor Ulf Ekman.. Loving his teaching!! Hahaa.. =D

:: Back! ::

Been quite busy and tired for the past few days. Stay in camp till midnight yesterday and I clock the latest hour stay in camp ever, 2-3 plus in the morning. Never in my life I have stay till so late before. The only time I stay that late was probably when I was still in Tekong ba. Hahaa..

How am I doing? Well, I could say that my emotions are not doing so good. I didn't really enjoy this year Chinese New Year as my parents have some cold war between them, and it affected me quite a bit as I was looking forward in celebrating together happily as a family. However, it did not happen as I wanted it to be. Till now, they still have not been talking to each other. This could be the longest war ever declare in the family.

All I hope for was love to be restored in this family, especially between my parents... God, I pray that my parents will fell in love with each other again. Let nothing divide this family.

I have also not been doing good in my spiritual walk with God too. Lazy, Distraction, Battles in my mind are the reasons. Just getting better this few days, and it could be better. I hope that I can really do what I have set in the beginning of the year, and I don't want to make empty promises, especially to God. If I can't do a simple thing for God, how can I do it for others?

I will update more in future & I hope that I can really make it happen. Going off to sleep soon. Tomorrow is going to be a long day, and I am looking forward to the Overnight Prayer Meeting!

:: Will Be Back! ::

Been a long time since I blog. Will update soon! =) Meanwhile, do enjoy this song. I find that its a very nice song although the language is foreign! Hahaa.

:: Wedding Dinner ::

It's has been a long time since I attend a wedding dinner. Why do I love to attend wedding dinner? Well, because I can get to enjoy a 8 - 9 course meal for free! Its always paid by my parents. Haha.. Fabulous food like shark fin, abalone, Pi Pa Duck, etc. Just to name a few. =)

My cousin wedding dinner was held at M Hotel, somewhere near to Tanjong Pagar MRT station. The wedding hall is not that big, but service is still not that bad. Food was fantastic, and I was slowly eating my bowl of shark fin, enjoy every moment of giving my tongue a good reward, and my taste bud a "bath". Haha..

Looking at how my cousin are getting married one by one, I find myself that I am not that young anymore. My age is eligible to get attached, but I have not find any right partner yet. I have a hidden secret admire, but I will think I shall keep this secret with me till I meet Jesus in heaven. Some of my friends knew who is this person, but I will not say out here. I will not develop anymore feelings with this person. It's hard, but I know that this relationship will not bring me to anywhere. What's more, that person may not have that feeling for me, so there's no point for me to keep thinking about. I choose to surrender this relationship to God, in exchange of a better and a genuine relationship with Him. =)

If you are reading this and you can sense that God is speaking to you that I am your future boyfriend, your future husband, your future eternity lover, feel free to tag me, and I will gladly reply. Let's develop this relationship that God gave to us. Hahaha.. =D Just kidding! =P

:: Service, Fellowship ::

It was a great Service yesterday with Rev. Dr. A. R. Bernard. Although there were times I didn't catch what he were saying, but I still manage to catch hold some of the main points that he share. =)

Went over to Changi Airport for fellowshipping after Service. Had MacDonald's for dinner. Hahaa.. The Mc' Spicy Chicken burger had a large piece of chicken. It's simply so delicious! Although there are hidden health hazards in it, but who cares? Haha..

The girls were sharing their secondary school days. It's seems so fun to study at a Christian secondary school, where you get to have a chance to go to Chapel. Haha.. They were sharing how certain teachers are so "evil", how some of their friends were like, etc. Louisa were also being mistaken as a smoker and a lesbian. Hahaha.. It's so cool to study at a all girls school too! How I wish I can have a chance. Hahaa.. Oh wait, don't be mistaken. I mean studying at a all boy's school. Hahaa.. (Yes, in army, we have the chance to work together with guys. However, studying at a school will be very much different.)

My secondary days are quite interesting too. The ELDDS days, the St. John days.. The days were by my class were being detained after school just because the class beside make fun during the flag-lowing ceremony and our class were being sabo. How we cannot play the harmonica and were being asked to play for our music teacher to see. How I used to buy packets of straw to fold a heart shape. How I used to order milo without ice and the uncle did not charge me extra money. How I used to join Wushu and quit halfway because I find that its rather silly and boring. How I used to hang out at D&T room to do my artifact for my 'N' and 'O' levels project. How I used to stay back for detention and clean the tables and chairs. How I used to kick football at the neighbouring estate and there was once my "brother" was being hit when it re bounce. LOL.. Those were the days. . .

If I can have a chance, I don't mind going through the Sec 1 - Sec 5 life again. To be naughty sometimes. Yes, naughty. I want to play punk with teachers, just like how Louisa did to her teachers too. Hahaha.. Students cannot be too obedient like a nerd, sometimes they have to play some stuns too. Hahaha.. Well, of course, have to be a certain limit, not too over rebel like gangsters, Ah Beng or Ah Lians. 10 years ago at this time... I am just a Sec 1 blur kid. How time flies..

:: Reflection ::

At some point of our life, we have to stop and reflect on what we did for the past few days, weeks, months or even years. If we did not stop and have some "self-reflection", we will not be progressing very well. Self-reflection is not necessary for a sinner, but however, its for everyone of us. Reflection, to look back to see where you have done wrong and correct it, to see how well you have done, and to improve on it. In life, we should be moving on glory to glory, and not just sitting down there, day dreaming for the previous mins and secs to pass you by. Of course, I don't mean that we have to 24 hours a day, 60 mins a hour, and 60 seconds a minute to think and reflection until we did not sleep or rest. The keyword in life is "Balance".

I had a short argument with one of my friend today. We was quarreling about some day off awards on CNY. He asked me to stop thinking about the good awards and I was arguing how we can ask for it. Time for self-reflection, was I right or wrong to say that? Am I wrong to think too much? Seriously, I have no idea. I don't mean to argue with him, but he keep on insisting that I should not "dream" too much, which irritates me. Haiz... Can't I just say something? Am I a stubborn person to think too much?

I don't dare to say that I am not in any fault at all. Just that maybe next time I should deal with how would I react. Pastor Tan once say this, "Life is 10% what happen and 90% how would you react to it". One situation can have many solutions to it, it is up to you how you want to deal with it. Maybe, I should have just talk to him like, "Ok, Yah.. I think too much le. Come, let's go change our clothes and go home." See, the outcome will be very much different.

Nevertheless, people will always like to comment/criticise you wherever you go. It can be good or bad. However, just leave to whatever people say, we can't control their mouth. (Unless we asked then to shut up?) We can chose to accept or reject their comments. We have our own life to live, and we have the right to make the choice that we want, to follow or not to what they say or suggest.

"Ignore the critics, and attempt the impossible!"

:: Random ::

Recently, I have been reading up the Basic Driving Theory Book and few weeks ago, I feel like giving up and want to postpone the test date at a later part of this year. However, due to a simple encouragement from my friend, Melvin, I decided to move on to take. The reason I gave up because I feel that its impossible for me to study at a short span of time and I am lazy to go all the way down to BBDC on Chinese New Year Eve. Well, I guess I should be more wise to choose a better date in future.

Now, I am still searching around for schools that you bring me to the next phase of life. I want to do something which I like, and earning money at a same time. Not doing something I detest, especially in the engineering field, and making my life miserable and taking home abt $1.8k - $2 k per month. I want to do something which I really like. Two areas specially, Design Line or F&B Line. Recently, I discover that I love to share my ears with other people. (Not taking out my ears and passing around). Hahaa.. =P So, should I be a Counsellor? Or should I be a social worker? Hope to receive a rhema from God above to direct my path... =)

:: Thanks All ::

Thanks everyone for your concern. I am much better now. Pearly, thanks for tagging, really appreciate it. I suddenly remember what Pascale used to write in her MSN. "Ignore the critics, and attempt the impossible!" I think I shall live by that statement from day to day. =) Well, of course, I will used it for a good cause. I will still want people to help me, to correct me, so that I can change to be a better me. If not, I will remain stagnant and I will not move on in life.

Went for makeup BS at RiverWalk today. Was 15-20 mins late. =P.. Class was quite fully pack surprisingly, compare to weekend BS which is only about 10 - 15 people. I guess most people would prefer to go for weekdays BS as they want to fellowship with their members after Service. Thank God that there will be no BS this weekend! (I was rejoicing because I can go fellowshipping with members straight away and not that I can "escape" from Ming Jing.) Haha.. The lesson was given by another Zone Supervisor, Edmund Tay. His lessons are quite interesting too, and he will explain it very clearly and giving examples. =)

Chinese New Year is coming soon, and I haven really help to clean up my house yet. Shall begin cleaning real soon, starting on this Sunday. My room more or less has tidy up, just need to do some "maintenance" only.

Shall end my entry with one of my favourite song, Sanctuary.

(And) I worship You Lord,
My life in You restore.
Here is my heart,
Make it Your Sanctuary,
For nobody else,
But Jesus only You.

:: Hurts ::

It happened today again. Was very disappointed with him. Seriously, with this kind of friends around, I don't need to have enemies. I think, my heart is quite thin, and I will get hurt very easily. God, will You cover more layers of skins around my heart?

I mean, I do accept critics from people around me. However, the kind of comment that he always gave is super hurting and irritating to me. I feel being look down upon, being condemned, and I think that out of 10 times, there will be at least 2-3 unhappiness conversation that I had with him.

The comments that a leader or a friend gave, the stern disciplining should be edifying, encouraging, and not destroying a person's heart, or tear the person down. He/She should built the person up by giving positive comments. But what this particular person did was whipping my heart away, and he doesn't think how I would feel if he talk to me like that. Well, I guess, he is not a christian, so he don't know about such things. BUT.. Some things are rather common sense right?

This affect me, and I think, it had slowly "spread" to other area of my life. Talking with my friends, my members, and I don't really want to open up to them. I mean, I need help, but I think, I need some time to settle down first. Right now, I am building walls instead of doors to let people entering into my heart. I am feeling numb in my heart now. My heart desperately needs a healing to be take place.

Have a good chat with one of my camp mate, who is a regular. Quite surprise that he used to be in St. John too, just that we are from different secondary school and zone. He is also the only guy in his batch, which is quite similar to me too. Hahaa.. I think people have the mentality that guys who join this CCA are sissy. Well, but I beg to differ. His achievement is much better than me, he got a Cadet Leader at the end of his secondary school days at Sec 5, while I only got a Staff Sergeant. Hahaa..

Oh yeah... Just being random. I also wanna thank Si Hui, Kelvyn and Si Min for trusting me to do all the Service songs yesterday. I mean, this is the first time that I "pack" everything. Haha.. Really thank God that everything went well, and for the trust and faith that they have in me. Looking forward to do more challenging songs, especially "Rain Down", which I think its quite a killer song as it got quite alot of pages and switching to the next line must be super fast. Hahaa.. Looking forward...

God.. I come before You right now. I pray for healing to be take place in my heart, and let it filled with peace. Expand for greater capacity to hold the hurts that attack me, from the north to the south, from the east to the west. Help me to become a better person through the battles of the life daily. Let me be decrease, so that You can increase. Give me also the strength, and the energy, to move on in life. Thank You God. Amen.

:: Happenings ::

Had a great CG meeting on Friday. Sharon talks about "Building Up Your Self-Esteem". Although this message is not new, however, we will always get new revelation whenever we heard the message again. =)

Bought donuts for the CG as refreshment. Hope that they like it. Haha.. Only Derek commented that the donuts was good. Thanks bro! Haha.. Oh yeah.. I wanna share an interesting story happen before CG.

I was SMS-ing Sharon and asked how many people will be attending CG so I can buy the right amount of donuts for the CG. I recieve a SMS from an unknown number saying, "Well, that depends, if you include me, that will be one more. *wink*". I thought that Sharon have a new handphone number and she used that number to reply me. Sometimes, Sharon don't take refreshments one, so that SMS didn't really puzzle me. So I begin to reply and ask her if she did change her number. And the reply came to realise that the person was not Sharon, but was someone else! He introduced himself as Simon, and I though he is the Simon from my workplace. So it go on and on. Realising that we don't know each other at all. However, what amazes us were we were from the same flight but different base! Hahaa.. What an amazing way to know each other in this manner. I guess, I should meet up with this guy some day for coffee.
(Oh yeah. I only realise something the following day, I had the wrong number in my hp when Sharon msg me... -.-)

Serve in Chorus Board today. I was given a opportunity to do all the songs! Praise & Worship!! First time ever that I am being asked to do. I do songs like, "Breakaway", "Everybody Praise The Lord", "God of Ages", "I Wanna Stay" and "Here In My Life". My legs was trembling when I do the Praise Songs! Hahaa.. Thank God that everything went on smoothly and I didn't really make any mistakes. Thank God for the strength to do this. =) The goals that I set had come to past for this area! Haha.. I think I want to move on to do the BVs, and slowly to the Main LED by March 2009!

City Harvest is starting a brand new Service in Jurong West! Service 3 on Sunday is so pack that people are sitting on the steps already. So in 2 -3 February in 2 weeks time, the Service 1 will officially be starting, at 3.30p.m. As such, Sat service at Expo will change to 5.30p.m. =) How I wish that I can be part of the Jurong West revival. I wanna go back to Jurong West again. The good old days. . . So Lord, I pray that You will decided which area You want our CG to go to. Hear the cries of the westerners in W421. Let a revival broke forth in the west in W421. Thank You Jesus. Amen. =) (Just being random, let the east say I stay in the west. And let the west confess that they stay in the west!) Hahaha.. :D

Went for BS after ministry. It was good. I love Ming Jing alot, the way that he teaches is never boring. Hahahaa.. And the way he giggle, is just so cute I tell you! Hahaha.. Well, so bless to have him as my Zone Supervisor. His lessons are quite "challenging" in a way. Will not say out here, or else you may not dare to attend his lesson. Hahaha.. But, it was really fun. So don't be scare huh? Have faith to attend the most exciting BS lesson with this fun guy. =)

Fellowship was good at Bugis Junction Food Junction. Had a Black Pepper Chicken Steak with fries. Price are quite abit above average, cost about $6.50. Still ok bah. The food was quite good, just that I am not really full. Haha.. Btw, our CG has two more new members! Kelvin and Aaron! Hahaa.. Glad to have them joining our CG. =) Went over to Esplanade to walk walk. The sea view was really beautiful. How I wish that I could just stay there for a long time to watch the sky, but I have to reach camp early the following day. Had a good chat with Derek and the members. Last train was 11.49p.m at City Hall to Boon Lay, and I leave around 11.44p.m. Rush like mad for the MRT station, and thank God I manage to board the train! The distance wasn't near and my legs were like very tired already and no more strength to go on. Haha.. Thank You Lord! I meet my BMT Platoon Sergeant while I was on the train. Hahaa.. Well, isn't it a happening journey for me this week? =) What an adventurous week!

When I got into the train, I wasn't feeling that well as I just drank a bottle of coke earlier on. So it was like the coke was "shaking" in my stomach. Haha.. I didn't really know what I am feeling. But my stomach isn't pain at all. Maybe, I am just tired physically afterall. Buy some cup noodles before going home. Gonna to eat them at camp tml.

*E430 peeps. I will miss you guys! Hope to see you around in Expo or Jurong West!*


God... I am so disappointed with people recently. Especially some of my camp mates and the friends that I trusted so much. I feel like giving up sometimes. I feel like showing attitude and just shout at their faces. I did not really express fully how I feel to the one who "hurt" me. Just drop them hints only. Just happen recently on Friday morning, I got very irritated by my camp mate, cuz all they do is to push the shitty job to me. I got really upset with them, and I just don't wish to talk, and I just want to be alone. God, help me to expand the capacity in my heart. To do things which people are not willing to do. To walk the narrow way, not to get easily hurt whenever peole critise me. Help me to stay more positive as a person, and to love others even more. Thank You Jesus, Amen...

:: Specially For Shan ::

Hui Shan, this song is specially dedicated for you. I am sure you will love this song too. Hope you will love it. May this beautiful piece of music helps to calm you down. EnJoy! =)

:: 143 Days To ORD! ::

Yeah! I did a small calculation.. Will be ORD in 143 days! That includes weekends, public holidays, leave and dayoff! Hahaa.. Wow.. Nothing beats better to have the freedom that I have been desire for. =)

I am planning to go for LASELLE to further my studies. I love to design, and I like to be creative. (Though my creative cells isn't that good enough). But God can gave me creative ideas! Hahaa.. Actually, my passion is not only lies in design line, but I love to cook too. However, thinking of sacrifising my previous weekends for my career. To me, weekends are meant to reserve for my church and my family.

I have no idea where should I go in future if I can't get into that school. I guess, I should start planning for my future now. Maybe I will enroll myself into SOT first, then I will decide where I want to go.

Lord, the visiblity of the path ahead of me is not clear. I need Your guidance O' Lord. For I don't know where I should go. I am worried about my future. You are my guide, the compass of my life. I need You. Show me the way, the path which You want me to go, that will lead me into my future, my destiny. Thank You Jesus. Amen... =)