Wednesday, November 26, 2008

:: Re-Calling Back The Past ::

I saw Joseph at the first night of Asia Conference. The Joseph I am talking about is not the one from W372, but he is my secondary school friend. We catch up abit and he was in a hurry back home with his friend, so we didn't really talk much.

Actually, few weeks back, I have notice him in Service 2, but I am not sure if its really him because we have not been seeing each other since 2002 after we graduated from secondary school. I was in a hurry to the toilet that time and I though I may say "Hi" after I come back, but he's not at his seat already, so I didn't really think too much about it anymore.

We have been in the same class since Sec 2. Back then, I have a classmate - Dwight, and he share about Christ with me. Every time during recess, Dwight will approached me and he will shared the gospel with me, giving me bible studies, etc. However, I didn't go to his church as my mum is strongly against it. Soon, when my other classmate knew that I am a christian, I was being "laugh" by some of my classmates, and I remember Joseph saying, "Why you become a christian? You see all christian white white one". Haha.. Well, I was quite tanned that time because I was in a uniform group - SJAB while my christian classmate is really fair skin one. Haha. . . Dwight decided to give me a christain name - Daniel. When I used it, I was being "scolded" by the girls. =.= Reason being "Daniel" is used by handsome guys, and their idol is Daniel Chen Xiao Dong. Haha.. Well I guess we were all kids back at those days.

Now, he has been attending church, I am not sure if he has been integrated to his friend's CG. Besides, he is not fair and he's quite tanned too. Haha.. Indeed, salvation is here. Hope to catch up with Joseph Tan more. =)

Monday, November 24, 2008

:: Asia Conference 2008 ::

This is the most exciting conference that I have ever attended! The 5 intensive days is just jam packed with people from 72 countries and a total of more than 20,000 delegates, plus our church membership of 24,000 ppl. It's really amazing.

I did a very "bad" thing during the first night of the conference. Hmm. . . Not really a bad thing, but I was just not tactful with my words, and it happened during the 5 minute conversation with our neighbours. My neighbour is a local delegate from a church in Singapore, but she will attend Service 2 every Saturday in Expo, (I am in serious trouble), and she will attend her own church Service on Sunday.

Our conversation goes on, until it came to this part, which I say something wrong.

Me: "So how long have you been a christian?"
Her: "Oh. . . For a very long time already"

Me: "Oic.. Since you were a youth?"
Her: "Ya.. My frenz brought me to church back then"

Me: "Wow.. That's so long ago"

She was silence when I say that. My mind was in a blank too. Then I realised that what I just say is trying to say that she is very old. =.= (Most woman are very sensitive about age)

God, I pray and I pray and I pray that I won't bump into her in Service 2. God, I pray that You will speak into her heart and move her to go over to Service 1 in Jurong West! I pray this in Jesus most precious name, Amen!!

I was sharing this "humour" with Samuel the following night, and he was half smiling, and I guess half surprise. Haha.. We were at Hall 10 when I share this to him, just then, the LED screen show the video of Tips and Stuff and the title was "How to have a good conversation", and it was just about 1-2 minutes after I shared with him! Both Samuel and I was just laughing away. LOL. . . And Samuel to me, "This is for you." LOL.. And I think I say "Amen". =.= (I think the video crew of Tips & Stuff can consider my example to produce it. Hahahaha)

God, forgive me, for I don't know what I say.

I love the new song "Elevate", "The God I Know", "Heaven", etc alot. I wanted to get hold of the CD!! However, it stopped me because my savings are really depleting and I don't think it can last me till December. I am still jobless and I wonder should I go to Changi Village to earn a living. Haha.. No lah, I was just kidding and I won't do such things. I believe that God will provide for me. =)

Among all the night sessions that I have attended, I enjoyed the last session the most. Not really because it is a beautiful night with a grand closing, but its because what Dr A.R Bernard preach and I can catch the most among the rest of the preachers. Haha. . . I'm not saying the rest of the preachers don't know how to preach, its I don't receive it well. Thankfully, I received the Word the most at the last session, although it might not directly apply for me for now. =)

Some things happened and it set me into thinking. Something is pulling me away, something is drawing me back. What will happen to me in the end? I don't know. I guess I shall soon find out an answer. Something is happening. . .

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

:: Updates ::

Had an interview with Keppel Shipyard this morning. Haha.. This is the first time I had a proper interview. The other time I had interview with Singapore Power was a very simple one, I was just being inform of my job scope and I was being hired the next day. (They need people urgently cuz of the system upgrading) Haha..

I could say that I did my best ba. Well, I am not a man of many words. :'( So, when the lady interview me, I didn't express myself very well. Never mind. Whether I am hired anot, its another thing. =) At least, I gained an experience of having interview. Haha..

The environment is not those very high class working environment. Alot of workers with helmet can be seen walking around, with super huge ships, etc. The environment is just like the Channel 8 drama few years ago, "最高点" by Christopher Lee and Dawn. Haha.. It will be quite a good experience if I work there. So in my life, I would say that I have deal with F16 and ships before. Haha.. =D

I was just browsing through the hardware zone about MLM . Well, I am NOT surprised by alot of negative comments about them. Well, it may seem suitable for some people, but definitely not for me. In my past experience working with a company somewhere in Shenton Way in 2004, I had a super bad experience with them. I was quite excited about this company when I initially joined. Haha.. Soon, I realised that its not what I really want. My upline will always say why I have no friends and will force me to bring friends. (Of course lah, if I bring friend, they earn money mah) I remember there are about 2 guys who share "testimony" of how this company has change them. The tone that they use has betray them. They change because they want to prove to others of what they can achieved in life, but their character seems to be the same anyway. It's the character that will bring you far in life, not by the achievements in life. Your attitude determines your altitude. They will always asked me to go down to to learn new things. Haha.. Do I apply them in life now? I have already long forgotten what I learn. Most of my uplines has already quit for good. (About more than 5 ba, but that's 4 years ago. Could be more than this figure by now) I really thank God that I am no longer dealing with such "business". =)

I would still prefer to earn money by the skills that I have contributed to the company, not by calling people down to the company to listen to some crap. Call me old fashion or what, I don't care. =)

P.S: Hey my friends, I am not targeting anyone when I am blogging this. :) If you are in MLM line, you are still my friend. Just don't keep bugging me to listen to your company's stories. :)

I am trusting God for His provision. =)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

:: Back from BS ::

God grant my desire today. I have always been complaining how bored I am at home. (I did search for jobs, but the doors seems to be shut.) By faith, I believe that I should be receiving good news this 2 weeks! Anyway, because of the desire for the borness to be filled, there are activities that kept me occupied from Wed to Sun. Haha.. I request Jian for me to be excuse on Thursday as I don't want to go out everyday as my mum won't like it, but I will still be going to Jurong Point to buy Printer from Harvy Norman tml as my mum needs it. =.=

Learn about "Discerning Balance" today. The bible says that we should walk the narrow way, and at the same time, we have to be beware of Antinomianism and Legalism. We cannot always think that God's grace are cheap and keep sinning and keep thinking that God will keep forgiving us. Yes, God will forgive us for our sins, but we cannot take it for granded. God has emotions too. =) It's quite fearing when Jeremy talks deep about this lesson. No saying that Jeremy cook up story to scare his students, but its from the bible.

“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’
- Matt 7:21-23

Bringing it on to the other end, we should not be like the Pharisees. They like to major on the minor and minor on the major and come out with man-made laws. Haha. . . When Jesus performed healing on the Sabbath Day, the Pharisees make noise. (Imagine like the typical Ah Bengs and Ah Lians in a typical neighbourhood school disturbing the class) Haha.. No lah, just kidding. The Pharisees asked why Jesus was working on the Sabbath Day, but was being shoot back. (Serve them right. Haha.. =P) Imagine a man who is going to die and you say, "Oh... I cannot save you today. Because today is the Sabbath Day", and you watch the man die painfully and slowly? So the Pharisees have miss out the whole point over here. The people will worship God on that day, so is there anything wrong with the man who receive healing from God? God is omnipresent. He did not just appear on weekdays and disappear on weekends. Our God is a true and a living God who is 24/7 available. How great is our God! =)

Meet Derek after BS at Central. After that, we go walk walk around the shops along Singapore River. It's really a beautiful sight with different colours of lights reflecting on the water, the beautiful lights along the street. Haha.. See, light attracts people. Therefore, Christians have to be the light of the world. Haha.. It is really a romantic sight. . . (Wei Ming is dreaming of falling in love) Haha.. Don't get the wrong idea. We are not gay couple. Nothing wrong with two guys walking down a beautiful street together. LOL.. =P

That's all for today. Going to sleep and off to Jurong West for Prayer Meeting. =)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

:: Morning Prayer Meeting @ JW ::

A good morning to start with to pray. =) Really wanna thank the church for having such prayer meetings. Haha... The auditorium was filled with people and the atmosphere was good.

God answer one of my prayers! Haha.. An unusual thing happened when I pray for this particular thing regarding about my family on Monday, and I was abit surprised when the "someone" in my family actually talked to me, although it's just one sentence. - "If you want to eat, you can take it." Haha.. That "someone" has actually declare a cold war to almost all of my family members, and will only talked to us when required any help. Sometimes when I talk to that "someone", is as if I am talking to a wall. Although the situation did not turn out to be completely good, but at least God is doing something in my family. =)

When I prayed last time, my mouth will just say and my mind will not focus on what I am praying. After Pastor Kong share about the fourth dimension and Sharon talk about prayers, my thinking about prayer change. The new revelation of prayer comes when Sharon asked us to pray for those members who are not here in CG, and to focus on them. I believe that its really powerful.

"For as he thinks in his heart, so is he."
- Pro 23:7

As we begin to think while we pray, God say "so is he". Therefore, when the words that proceed from our mouth plus the thoughts from our heart, I believe the prayer that you just pray is very powerful. Haha.. So, I am gonna to focus what I prayed now, focusing on the outcome of what God will do, and not just the problems itself. Very often, if you focus on the problem, most of the time, it will still be a problem, because that is what you focus when you pray. So, let's just focus on the victory, the breakthrough, and VISUALISE that God has already did it for us! Haha.. Haha.. My favorite vocabulary is "VISUALISE" for now. =)

I just realised that it's my blog birthday today! Pls send it your wishes for him! =D Happy Birthday buddy! Do you know where your name came from? It's blog is actually named after an inspirational worship song "God of My Forever". Haha.. Nice blog name right? =P

Monday, November 3, 2008

:: A Touch From God ::

As the previous blog that I have mentioned, some things happened during the end of the fellowship yesterday and I was grieved. Well, McFlurry doesn't help me for long, because I am just like numbing my feelings for a short while. It came back to me again. So I decided to go to the House of God - City Harvest Church @ Jurong West, Service 4 to experience something, a healing of my heart.

I was late for Service. By that time, the congregation were already in the midst of worship, singing "Worshiping You". Still, I managed to get a good seat and I worshiped God. Tears begin to flow down as two unhappy incident kept coming into my mind. I kept pouring out my emotions, as I want God to heal my hurts, my doubts and a certain relationship. Beside coming to God in church, I have no other way of expressing my hurts to God during that time. I want to ran to a place to hide, and that's church. If I continued to stay at home that time, I don't know what will happen to me.

Whenever I go for double service - Sat Expo and Sunday JW for serving, I will had a clearer message about what Pastor preached. Yes, I will do the unusual so that I can see my life being manifested! Haha. . .

Hmm.. Although I feel the touch of God during that Service, but my feelings are still much affected, but not as much. =) Back home, I couldn't take it again. I ran to my room to cry. I asked God to show me, asked God for an answer. I just kept crying and crying.

I saw Kelvin online, and I had a chat with him. Man, he was really a good listener and very sincere. Thinking back, I have rarely share with him much about my life. After sharing with him, he ask if I have any other prayer request, and I just share with him. And blam! I really feel very very much better. - I think he had just prayed for me! Hahaa.. And I have "No More Tears". (Johnson & Johnson Baby Shampoo) Haha.. Things started to change when I asked him if its okay if I SMS the members to join in to pray for him. (Louisa knows the outcome. . .) Haha.. This whole afternoon, I really see how God heal my heart. The healing may not be instant, but it will come for sure. =)

I also shared with him alot of my stories. How my English names - Simon, Daniel came about, how I used to have alot of other English names, and some other stuff. I never knew Kelvin is someone who will "bother" to care one. Haha.. Really, I feel so bless this afternoon. =)

Of course, love is not just about receiving, its about giving too. Even though I may not be loved back, I will still want to try to love others, because that is the DNA of my Father in heaven. =)

I also had a good chat with Louisa just now. Haha.. Louisa, don't worry about me k? I will learn to guard my heart, protect my spirit and don't let other people problems affected it. ^^ Thanks so much. Lastly, thank You God, for placing me in such a wonderful family in CHC, and in W421. =)

Sunday, November 2, 2008

:: Arise & Build ::

Great service! This year Arise & Build is very very different from the previous campaign. The atmosphere is very different and the way Pastor flow with the Service also change. Haha.. Well, it was really good. =)

Fellowship was very good with W421 at T3, and we bump into Ruyi! Haha.. So "qiao" right? She didn't join us for fellowship as she was with her study friends. Hmm.. Looking forward for you to join us wor.. ^^

Went over to viewing gallery to fellowship and we saw a big CG there. Haha.. Our secret spot is not longer secret anymore. =.= Still, it was good and it was a good time chatting, and with Louisa's greatest tutor - Samuel that joined us. Haha.. So "qiao" his brother is a CGL in MJ Zone. Haha. . . So many "qiao".. Is God showing us that our CG will have a new member call Qiao Qiao? =P

Anyway. . . Something happen towards the end of the fellowship while we are leaving the airport and I was quite grieved. :'( Haiz. . . Hopefully all things will turn out well in the end. I pray that I will be more tactful in my words in future. Or maybe, I will just keep my mouth shut and be as quiet as a mouse.

There are so many things that I want to write here, but I can't as it's rather sensitive. Anyway, all things will turn out good for those who love Him. =) Get myself a Mcflurry ice-cream to numb myself, and it helps. =)

NS guys, do Jia You wor.. =) Aaron, Yan Qiu, Kelvin, Terence & Derek. - You guys will be always in our prayers! A song dedicated for you...

"Everyday I live I know You're my God,
I lift my face and look to You my God.
Even when I am being screamed and pumped for no reasons,
I'll stand with You, my Jesus take my all."

Joseph, you are not forgotten too. ^^ I pray for your 10 days adventure in Tekong shall be a great one.

"My God reigns,
His love will never me.
My God reigns,

He's ruling over all.
All my life,
In every situation I know.

My God is greater,
My God is over all"

I pray that in every situations that you go through in Tekong, you will face it strongly and confidently. God is always greater than all the situation that we go through. =) Keep trusting. . .