:: Visit from Germany ::

Lunch was provided by the company today as my CEO's boss from Germany came to our office today. It was quite high class, not like the normal buffet that was served in the occasional function. I mean, I love normal buffet food too, but today's one I would rate 4 stars out of 5. =)

I helped myself with the desert - Cheng Teng quite a lot of times. Haha.. It was very nice and sweet. =) Hmm.. However, I can't really find anyone to talk to. Haha.. So I was like walking here and there. Haha.. I did talk to a few people, but was not engaging into it. There are only 3 guys in my department. One is the CEO, another is his chauffeur, and the other one is me. Haha.. So, it could be bored sometimes. Haha.. But I am still going on fine in this company. =) Sometimes I wish that there will be more young guys to talk to in the organization. Haha.. The rest of the departments guys are mostly not young adults like me.. So, we didn't have much to talk to. Haha..

Talking to girls can be quite challenging. Erhem... Is like how? Can I say, "Angela, your bag is so nice, where did it you from?" or  "Karen, your top is nice, how much you buy arh?" Haha.. That will be strange right? Talking about company during break? Hmm.. Okay loh.. But I guess some people might want to focus on more relax stuff than work instead. Haha.. Relationship issues? Quite a touchy topic. So what else can talk about? I really don't know leh. Hahaha.. 

Sometimes, it could be an advantage to be a "flowery prince", so that talking to girls is not a problem. =) Haha.. May the rest of my one year in this company be a smooth sailing and more young guys to join this company. 

:: Being an "eunuch" in the marketplace ::

I got to admit that the entry title is over exaggerated. Haha.. Why do I say myself as an eunuch? Well, because I am serving my boss in my department, just like how the ancient eunuch serve their queen in the China history. Haha.. Well, but I am happily serving her because I like her as my boss. Buying food for her, helping her in some admin stuff, etc. BUT, I am still a 100% man with no defects in my body structure, just except that my height is shorter than average guys by a few cm. LOL.. I may look like 100% man, but deep inside me I got to say that there's a large percentage of childishness inside. 

I am not under her direct supervision, she is my boss's boss. Maybe, it will be too quick for me to conclude that the queen is a nice person, because I just joined this company not for long and there may be some things that I have not discovered. So.. While I find her still nice, I will continue to serve her as I can. Moreover, she's the one who gave me the job, and I should "serve" her while I can. Even if I were to discover the ugly side of her one day, I will still(try) to work with her. Where can I find such a good paying job in the midst of economic crisis? For now, I can say that I am not working for the sake of money, although I need it, because I like to do the boring mundane office job. Haha..

One thing I like most about my workplace is that I can see the ongoing construction of IR, along with Singapore Flyer and the sea. I do not have the privilege to sit beside that view, but I will go inside the meeting room and enjoy the scenery when its empty. 

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I just wanna to thank passerby and Pascale for encouraging me. Both of you have encourage me to go on, and not to stop. Really appreciated! Thanks.. =) Gonna study soon.. :-)

:: God is good ::

God has been indeed very good to me. I have been searching for job for a very long time. All this while, I have been taking short part time jobs and the income isn't very much for me. Sometimes, I have to borrow money from my family members because I do not have enough finances. 

I am working as a QC somewhere at Jurong East area. The pay isn't very attractive but yet I still want to go to work. I am quite tight at the time because the basic needs of my life are not meet. And yepx, so I decided to work. However, I told my supervisor that I wanted to leave earlier, because I want to focus on my studies more. (I was so stress that I don't know how to start and where to start my studies) I planned to work till Thursday(the day before Good Friday) because that amount I would have enough to fulfill at least 70 - 80% of my building fund. However, she didn't give me a second chance, and she say I might as well just leave. I dismiss the thoughts, but I received the call from the boss - I am fired!

When God close a door, He will opened up another day. The very same say itself, I received a phone call from my ex-supervisor, and she offered me a job! I was so happy that I couldn't believe it in my ears. I shared with Samuel, because the day before, he pray for me. He is one of the guys beside Kelvin and Derek that really care for me. Haha.. And... I was rejoicing! 

When God bless people, He doesn't just bless you with a small amount, but a BIG amount! I calculated and I found out that my income has increase by at least 70%! What's more, the pay that I received is much higher than diploma holders and I do not have any experience at all! In this economic crisis, I am still able to find one! My company is also expanding! Haha.. They offered me a one year contract and what's more it comes with a 14 days of leave and 14 days of MCs! God is indeed good.. =)

My supervisor is also willing to let me go and study for my exams. Haha.. So nice right? What's more the things that I do is also somehow related to what I study in school.. =) I was indeed happy and proud to say that God is a really wonderful God. The God I know, is faithful and true!

During this period of my financial crisis, I would like to thank a few people who have help me through. 

Sharon - Thanks for offering me a job in church office and praying for me. Really appreciated! =)

Louisa - Thanks for blessing me a Ez-link card! Really appreciated! =)

Derek - Thanks for blessing me food at times. =)

Samuel - Thanks for praying for my finances. You are such a nice person. =)

Kelvin - Thanks for always showing concern and praying for my work and studies. I love you! =)

Si Hui - Thanks for sharing and caring for me. =)

Pascale - Thanks for your encouragement. =)

CHCCB - Thanks everyone, especially Si Hui, Jacelyn and Meng Wei. =)

Others who have pray for me in one way or another. Thank you so much. =)

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After what you told me after Service today.. I do agree with what you say. However, I don't know how should I explain to you. I can still do when I have the time. I am not(maybe) giving up the ministry that I am called to do. However.. When things are no longer the same as the past, things will turn out to be very different. I would love to use my talents that God has given me to make others happy(hopefully for the past one year when I first started for the cycle). It would mean a sacrifice to me - my work, my studies and even my family. However, there are other areas that I can help up too. Maybe, the weakness is that the perfectness of a certain task that I will put totally into it that cause me to take up a lot of time? Just doing a simple SS, it would take me an hour to do it, believe it or not? Maybe, I am stupid? Maybe, I am not as fast as others? Maybe, because I just want to be different every week? Maybe, the 'ministry buster' is I want to be totally perfect in what I want to do? You may not understand of what I am going through. Do you know that I have a breakdown few months back? Because I have no work and money. My studies is in a mess and I don't know how and where to start. I am stress. I feel like giving up. I am not saying that I should push God aside just because I am busy. But how about those Zone Supervisors like Joanne who has step down and go into the marketplace? Surely she would still have the time for the zone? Well.. I don't know. Maybe I am just like her? I am very tired when I reached home after school. Sometimes, I would dozed off in class. Sometimes, it come to a point that it doesn't matter if I pass the exams anymore, because, I have given up. 

Friends, if you were me, what will you do? I do agree that we should not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap, but if you were in my position, what will you do? I can still help out for the next event, because I guess.. I would be free by that period.. But, can I take a break for now? I don't know. 

:: I fired my boss ::

I fired my boss! Haha.. Hmm.. Or rather, they fired me. Haha.. Initially, I wanted to work till 30th April, but I decided to brought forward my contract till next week(the day before Good Friday). As my company is shifting to another building, they are close from Wed - Fri. Therefore, it means that I am working for four more days only. So, they decided to have a golden handshake with me. Hmm.. Abit sad lor.. Cuz I though with this job, I would be able to fulfill about 80% of my BF. Now, I can only fulfilled about 65% of my BF. Haiz.. 

However, I received a call from my previous company and they want to hire me. The pay is much more better than the current one. =) The good thing is a contract basis and the monthly pay is higher than the diploma graduates. Haha.. Praise God for that. But... The thing is I want to concentrate on my papers in June. Soo.. I intended to work after that. But... I am having my reservist on June 22, right after my exams. Sooo.. Which means I can only be working properly in mid-July. So should I sacrifice my studies to fulfill my BF? I don't think that is very wise. Yes.. Although I should fulfill my vow to God, but if I fail my exams, it will be very much wasted. I don't think God will want me to flung my studies just because I want to fulfill my BF. Obedience is better than sacrifice. However, building God's kingdom is also very important. Sigh.. =(

If only I am Bill Gate's son.. Haha.. Sooo... Is it also a wise decision that I break my promise to leave early? Anyway, I am also late for school because it is so hard to get a bus. So I don't think I am making a wrong decision. God O God.. What should I do?