It's has been a long time since I attend a wedding dinner. Why do I love to attend wedding dinner? Well, because I can get to enjoy a 8 - 9 course meal for free! Its always paid by my parents. Haha.. Fabulous food like shark fin, abalone, Pi Pa Duck, etc. Just to name a few. =)
My cousin wedding dinner was held at M Hotel, somewhere near to Tanjong Pagar MRT station. The wedding hall is not that big, but service is still not that bad. Food was fantastic, and I was slowly eating my bowl of shark fin, enjoy every moment of giving my tongue a good reward, and my taste bud a "bath". Haha..
Looking at how my cousin are getting married one by one, I find myself that I am not that young anymore. My age is eligible to get attached, but I have not find any right partner yet. I have a hidden secret admire, but I will think I shall keep this secret with me till I meet Jesus in heaven. Some of my friends knew who is this person, but I will not say out here. I will not develop anymore feelings with this person. It's hard, but I know that this relationship will not bring me to anywhere. What's more, that person may not have that feeling for me, so there's no point for me to keep thinking about. I choose to surrender this relationship to God, in exchange of a better and a genuine relationship with Him. =)
If you are reading this and you can sense that God is speaking to you that I am your future boyfriend, your future husband, your future eternity lover, feel free to tag me, and I will gladly reply. Let's develop this relationship that God gave to us. Hahaha.. =D Just kidding! =P
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
:: Service, Fellowship ::
It was a great Service yesterday with Rev. Dr. A. R. Bernard. Although there were times I didn't catch what he were saying, but I still manage to catch hold some of the main points that he share. =)
Went over to Changi Airport for fellowshipping after Service. Had MacDonald's for dinner. Hahaa.. The Mc' Spicy Chicken burger had a large piece of chicken. It's simply so delicious! Although there are hidden health hazards in it, but who cares? Haha..
The girls were sharing their secondary school days. It's seems so fun to study at a Christian secondary school, where you get to have a chance to go to Chapel. Haha.. They were sharing how certain teachers are so "evil", how some of their friends were like, etc. Louisa were also being mistaken as a smoker and a lesbian. Hahaha.. It's so cool to study at a all girls school too! How I wish I can have a chance. Hahaa.. Oh wait, don't be mistaken. I mean studying at a all boy's school. Hahaa.. (Yes, in army, we have the chance to work together with guys. However, studying at a school will be very much different.)
My secondary days are quite interesting too. The ELDDS days, the St. John days.. The days were by my class were being detained after school just because the class beside make fun during the flag-lowing ceremony and our class were being sabo. How we cannot play the harmonica and were being asked to play for our music teacher to see. How I used to buy packets of straw to fold a heart shape. How I used to order milo without ice and the uncle did not charge me extra money. How I used to join Wushu and quit halfway because I find that its rather silly and boring. How I used to hang out at D&T room to do my artifact for my 'N' and 'O' levels project. How I used to stay back for detention and clean the tables and chairs. How I used to kick football at the neighbouring estate and there was once my "brother" was being hit when it re bounce. LOL.. Those were the days. . .
If I can have a chance, I don't mind going through the Sec 1 - Sec 5 life again. To be naughty sometimes. Yes, naughty. I want to play punk with teachers, just like how Louisa did to her teachers too. Hahaha.. Students cannot be too obedient like a nerd, sometimes they have to play some stuns too. Hahaha.. Well, of course, have to be a certain limit, not too over rebel like gangsters, Ah Beng or Ah Lians. 10 years ago at this time... I am just a Sec 1 blur kid. How time flies..
Went over to Changi Airport for fellowshipping after Service. Had MacDonald's for dinner. Hahaa.. The Mc' Spicy Chicken burger had a large piece of chicken. It's simply so delicious! Although there are hidden health hazards in it, but who cares? Haha..
The girls were sharing their secondary school days. It's seems so fun to study at a Christian secondary school, where you get to have a chance to go to Chapel. Haha.. They were sharing how certain teachers are so "evil", how some of their friends were like, etc. Louisa were also being mistaken as a smoker and a lesbian. Hahaha.. It's so cool to study at a all girls school too! How I wish I can have a chance. Hahaa.. Oh wait, don't be mistaken. I mean studying at a all boy's school. Hahaa.. (Yes, in army, we have the chance to work together with guys. However, studying at a school will be very much different.)
My secondary days are quite interesting too. The ELDDS days, the St. John days.. The days were by my class were being detained after school just because the class beside make fun during the flag-lowing ceremony and our class were being sabo. How we cannot play the harmonica and were being asked to play for our music teacher to see. How I used to buy packets of straw to fold a heart shape. How I used to order milo without ice and the uncle did not charge me extra money. How I used to join Wushu and quit halfway because I find that its rather silly and boring. How I used to hang out at D&T room to do my artifact for my 'N' and 'O' levels project. How I used to stay back for detention and clean the tables and chairs. How I used to kick football at the neighbouring estate and there was once my "brother" was being hit when it re bounce. LOL.. Those were the days. . .
If I can have a chance, I don't mind going through the Sec 1 - Sec 5 life again. To be naughty sometimes. Yes, naughty. I want to play punk with teachers, just like how Louisa did to her teachers too. Hahaha.. Students cannot be too obedient like a nerd, sometimes they have to play some stuns too. Hahaha.. Well, of course, have to be a certain limit, not too over rebel like gangsters, Ah Beng or Ah Lians. 10 years ago at this time... I am just a Sec 1 blur kid. How time flies..
Saturday, January 26, 2008
:: Reflection ::
At some point of our life, we have to stop and reflect on what we did for the past few days, weeks, months or even years. If we did not stop and have some "self-reflection", we will not be progressing very well. Self-reflection is not necessary for a sinner, but however, its for everyone of us. Reflection, to look back to see where you have done wrong and correct it, to see how well you have done, and to improve on it. In life, we should be moving on glory to glory, and not just sitting down there, day dreaming for the previous mins and secs to pass you by. Of course, I don't mean that we have to 24 hours a day, 60 mins a hour, and 60 seconds a minute to think and reflection until we did not sleep or rest. The keyword in life is "Balance".
I had a short argument with one of my friend today. We was quarreling about some day off awards on CNY. He asked me to stop thinking about the good awards and I was arguing how we can ask for it. Time for self-reflection, was I right or wrong to say that? Am I wrong to think too much? Seriously, I have no idea. I don't mean to argue with him, but he keep on insisting that I should not "dream" too much, which irritates me. Haiz... Can't I just say something? Am I a stubborn person to think too much?
I don't dare to say that I am not in any fault at all. Just that maybe next time I should deal with how would I react. Pastor Tan once say this, "Life is 10% what happen and 90% how would you react to it". One situation can have many solutions to it, it is up to you how you want to deal with it. Maybe, I should have just talk to him like, "Ok, Yah.. I think too much le. Come, let's go change our clothes and go home." See, the outcome will be very much different.
Nevertheless, people will always like to comment/criticise you wherever you go. It can be good or bad. However, just leave to whatever people say, we can't control their mouth. (Unless we asked then to shut up?) We can chose to accept or reject their comments. We have our own life to live, and we have the right to make the choice that we want, to follow or not to what they say or suggest.
"Ignore the critics, and attempt the impossible!"
I had a short argument with one of my friend today. We was quarreling about some day off awards on CNY. He asked me to stop thinking about the good awards and I was arguing how we can ask for it. Time for self-reflection, was I right or wrong to say that? Am I wrong to think too much? Seriously, I have no idea. I don't mean to argue with him, but he keep on insisting that I should not "dream" too much, which irritates me. Haiz... Can't I just say something? Am I a stubborn person to think too much?
I don't dare to say that I am not in any fault at all. Just that maybe next time I should deal with how would I react. Pastor Tan once say this, "Life is 10% what happen and 90% how would you react to it". One situation can have many solutions to it, it is up to you how you want to deal with it. Maybe, I should have just talk to him like, "Ok, Yah.. I think too much le. Come, let's go change our clothes and go home." See, the outcome will be very much different.
Nevertheless, people will always like to comment/criticise you wherever you go. It can be good or bad. However, just leave to whatever people say, we can't control their mouth. (Unless we asked then to shut up?) We can chose to accept or reject their comments. We have our own life to live, and we have the right to make the choice that we want, to follow or not to what they say or suggest.
"Ignore the critics, and attempt the impossible!"
Friday, January 25, 2008
:: Random ::
Recently, I have been reading up the Basic Driving Theory Book and few weeks ago, I feel like giving up and want to postpone the test date at a later part of this year. However, due to a simple encouragement from my friend, Melvin, I decided to move on to take. The reason I gave up because I feel that its impossible for me to study at a short span of time and I am lazy to go all the way down to BBDC on Chinese New Year Eve. Well, I guess I should be more wise to choose a better date in future.
Now, I am still searching around for schools that you bring me to the next phase of life. I want to do something which I like, and earning money at a same time. Not doing something I detest, especially in the engineering field, and making my life miserable and taking home abt $1.8k - $2 k per month. I want to do something which I really like. Two areas specially, Design Line or F&B Line. Recently, I discover that I love to share my ears with other people. (Not taking out my ears and passing around). Hahaa.. =P So, should I be a Counsellor? Or should I be a social worker? Hope to receive a rhema from God above to direct my path... =)
Now, I am still searching around for schools that you bring me to the next phase of life. I want to do something which I like, and earning money at a same time. Not doing something I detest, especially in the engineering field, and making my life miserable and taking home abt $1.8k - $2 k per month. I want to do something which I really like. Two areas specially, Design Line or F&B Line. Recently, I discover that I love to share my ears with other people. (Not taking out my ears and passing around). Hahaa.. =P So, should I be a Counsellor? Or should I be a social worker? Hope to receive a rhema from God above to direct my path... =)
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
:: Thanks All ::
Thanks everyone for your concern. I am much better now. Pearly, thanks for tagging, really appreciate it. I suddenly remember what Pascale used to write in her MSN. "Ignore the critics, and attempt the impossible!" I think I shall live by that statement from day to day. =) Well, of course, I will used it for a good cause. I will still want people to help me, to correct me, so that I can change to be a better me. If not, I will remain stagnant and I will not move on in life.
Went for makeup BS at RiverWalk today. Was 15-20 mins late. =P.. Class was quite fully pack surprisingly, compare to weekend BS which is only about 10 - 15 people. I guess most people would prefer to go for weekdays BS as they want to fellowship with their members after Service. Thank God that there will be no BS this weekend! (I was rejoicing because I can go fellowshipping with members straight away and not that I can "escape" from Ming Jing.) Haha.. The lesson was given by another Zone Supervisor, Edmund Tay. His lessons are quite interesting too, and he will explain it very clearly and giving examples. =)
Chinese New Year is coming soon, and I haven really help to clean up my house yet. Shall begin cleaning real soon, starting on this Sunday. My room more or less has tidy up, just need to do some "maintenance" only.
Shall end my entry with one of my favourite song, Sanctuary.
(And) I worship You Lord,
My life in You restore.
Here is my heart,
Make it Your Sanctuary,
For nobody else,
But Jesus only You.
Went for makeup BS at RiverWalk today. Was 15-20 mins late. =P.. Class was quite fully pack surprisingly, compare to weekend BS which is only about 10 - 15 people. I guess most people would prefer to go for weekdays BS as they want to fellowship with their members after Service. Thank God that there will be no BS this weekend! (I was rejoicing because I can go fellowshipping with members straight away and not that I can "escape" from Ming Jing.) Haha.. The lesson was given by another Zone Supervisor, Edmund Tay. His lessons are quite interesting too, and he will explain it very clearly and giving examples. =)
Chinese New Year is coming soon, and I haven really help to clean up my house yet. Shall begin cleaning real soon, starting on this Sunday. My room more or less has tidy up, just need to do some "maintenance" only.
Shall end my entry with one of my favourite song, Sanctuary.
(And) I worship You Lord,
My life in You restore.
Here is my heart,
Make it Your Sanctuary,
For nobody else,
But Jesus only You.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
:: Hurts ::
It happened today again. Was very disappointed with him. Seriously, with this kind of friends around, I don't need to have enemies. I think, my heart is quite thin, and I will get hurt very easily. God, will You cover more layers of skins around my heart?
I mean, I do accept critics from people around me. However, the kind of comment that he always gave is super hurting and irritating to me. I feel being look down upon, being condemned, and I think that out of 10 times, there will be at least 2-3 unhappiness conversation that I had with him.
The comments that a leader or a friend gave, the stern disciplining should be edifying, encouraging, and not destroying a person's heart, or tear the person down. He/She should built the person up by giving positive comments. But what this particular person did was whipping my heart away, and he doesn't think how I would feel if he talk to me like that. Well, I guess, he is not a christian, so he don't know about such things. BUT.. Some things are rather common sense right?
This affect me, and I think, it had slowly "spread" to other area of my life. Talking with my friends, my members, and I don't really want to open up to them. I mean, I need help, but I think, I need some time to settle down first. Right now, I am building walls instead of doors to let people entering into my heart. I am feeling numb in my heart now. My heart desperately needs a healing to be take place.
Have a good chat with one of my camp mate, who is a regular. Quite surprise that he used to be in St. John too, just that we are from different secondary school and zone. He is also the only guy in his batch, which is quite similar to me too. Hahaa.. I think people have the mentality that guys who join this CCA are sissy. Well, but I beg to differ. His achievement is much better than me, he got a Cadet Leader at the end of his secondary school days at Sec 5, while I only got a Staff Sergeant. Hahaa..
Oh yeah... Just being random. I also wanna thank Si Hui, Kelvyn and Si Min for trusting me to do all the Service songs yesterday. I mean, this is the first time that I "pack" everything. Haha.. Really thank God that everything went well, and for the trust and faith that they have in me. Looking forward to do more challenging songs, especially "Rain Down", which I think its quite a killer song as it got quite alot of pages and switching to the next line must be super fast. Hahaa.. Looking forward...
God.. I come before You right now. I pray for healing to be take place in my heart, and let it filled with peace. Expand for greater capacity to hold the hurts that attack me, from the north to the south, from the east to the west. Help me to become a better person through the battles of the life daily. Let me be decrease, so that You can increase. Give me also the strength, and the energy, to move on in life. Thank You God. Amen.
I mean, I do accept critics from people around me. However, the kind of comment that he always gave is super hurting and irritating to me. I feel being look down upon, being condemned, and I think that out of 10 times, there will be at least 2-3 unhappiness conversation that I had with him.
The comments that a leader or a friend gave, the stern disciplining should be edifying, encouraging, and not destroying a person's heart, or tear the person down. He/She should built the person up by giving positive comments. But what this particular person did was whipping my heart away, and he doesn't think how I would feel if he talk to me like that. Well, I guess, he is not a christian, so he don't know about such things. BUT.. Some things are rather common sense right?
This affect me, and I think, it had slowly "spread" to other area of my life. Talking with my friends, my members, and I don't really want to open up to them. I mean, I need help, but I think, I need some time to settle down first. Right now, I am building walls instead of doors to let people entering into my heart. I am feeling numb in my heart now. My heart desperately needs a healing to be take place.
Have a good chat with one of my camp mate, who is a regular. Quite surprise that he used to be in St. John too, just that we are from different secondary school and zone. He is also the only guy in his batch, which is quite similar to me too. Hahaa.. I think people have the mentality that guys who join this CCA are sissy. Well, but I beg to differ. His achievement is much better than me, he got a Cadet Leader at the end of his secondary school days at Sec 5, while I only got a Staff Sergeant. Hahaa..
Oh yeah... Just being random. I also wanna thank Si Hui, Kelvyn and Si Min for trusting me to do all the Service songs yesterday. I mean, this is the first time that I "pack" everything. Haha.. Really thank God that everything went well, and for the trust and faith that they have in me. Looking forward to do more challenging songs, especially "Rain Down", which I think its quite a killer song as it got quite alot of pages and switching to the next line must be super fast. Hahaa.. Looking forward...
God.. I come before You right now. I pray for healing to be take place in my heart, and let it filled with peace. Expand for greater capacity to hold the hurts that attack me, from the north to the south, from the east to the west. Help me to become a better person through the battles of the life daily. Let me be decrease, so that You can increase. Give me also the strength, and the energy, to move on in life. Thank You God. Amen.
:: Happenings ::
Had a great CG meeting on Friday. Sharon talks about "Building Up Your Self-Esteem". Although this message is not new, however, we will always get new revelation whenever we heard the message again. =)
Bought donuts for the CG as refreshment. Hope that they like it. Haha.. Only Derek commented that the donuts was good. Thanks bro! Haha.. Oh yeah.. I wanna share an interesting story happen before CG.
I was SMS-ing Sharon and asked how many people will be attending CG so I can buy the right amount of donuts for the CG. I recieve a SMS from an unknown number saying, "Well, that depends, if you include me, that will be one more. *wink*". I thought that Sharon have a new handphone number and she used that number to reply me. Sometimes, Sharon don't take refreshments one, so that SMS didn't really puzzle me. So I begin to reply and ask her if she did change her number. And the reply came to realise that the person was not Sharon, but was someone else! He introduced himself as Simon, and I though he is the Simon from my workplace. So it go on and on. Realising that we don't know each other at all. However, what amazes us were we were from the same flight but different base! Hahaa.. What an amazing way to know each other in this manner. I guess, I should meet up with this guy some day for coffee.
(Oh yeah. I only realise something the following day, I had the wrong number in my hp when Sharon msg me... -.-)
Serve in Chorus Board today. I was given a opportunity to do all the songs! Praise & Worship!! First time ever that I am being asked to do. I do songs like, "Breakaway", "Everybody Praise The Lord", "God of Ages", "I Wanna Stay" and "Here In My Life". My legs was trembling when I do the Praise Songs! Hahaa.. Thank God that everything went on smoothly and I didn't really make any mistakes. Thank God for the strength to do this. =) The goals that I set had come to past for this area! Haha.. I think I want to move on to do the BVs, and slowly to the Main LED by March 2009!
City Harvest is starting a brand new Service in Jurong West! Service 3 on Sunday is so pack that people are sitting on the steps already. So in 2 -3 February in 2 weeks time, the Service 1 will officially be starting, at 3.30p.m. As such, Sat service at Expo will change to 5.30p.m. =) How I wish that I can be part of the Jurong West revival. I wanna go back to Jurong West again. The good old days. . . So Lord, I pray that You will decided which area You want our CG to go to. Hear the cries of the westerners in W421. Let a revival broke forth in the west in W421. Thank You Jesus. Amen. =) (Just being random, let the east say I stay in the west. And let the west confess that they stay in the west!) Hahaha.. :D
Went for BS after ministry. It was good. I love Ming Jing alot, the way that he teaches is never boring. Hahahaa.. And the way he giggle, is just so cute I tell you! Hahaha.. Well, so bless to have him as my Zone Supervisor. His lessons are quite "challenging" in a way. Will not say out here, or else you may not dare to attend his lesson. Hahaha.. But, it was really fun. So don't be scare huh? Have faith to attend the most exciting BS lesson with this fun guy. =)
Fellowship was good at Bugis Junction Food Junction. Had a Black Pepper Chicken Steak with fries. Price are quite abit above average, cost about $6.50. Still ok bah. The food was quite good, just that I am not really full. Haha.. Btw, our CG has two more new members! Kelvin and Aaron! Hahaa.. Glad to have them joining our CG. =) Went over to Esplanade to walk walk. The sea view was really beautiful. How I wish that I could just stay there for a long time to watch the sky, but I have to reach camp early the following day. Had a good chat with Derek and the members. Last train was 11.49p.m at City Hall to Boon Lay, and I leave around 11.44p.m. Rush like mad for the MRT station, and thank God I manage to board the train! The distance wasn't near and my legs were like very tired already and no more strength to go on. Haha.. Thank You Lord! I meet my BMT Platoon Sergeant while I was on the train. Hahaa.. Well, isn't it a happening journey for me this week? =) What an adventurous week!
When I got into the train, I wasn't feeling that well as I just drank a bottle of coke earlier on. So it was like the coke was "shaking" in my stomach. Haha.. I didn't really know what I am feeling. But my stomach isn't pain at all. Maybe, I am just tired physically afterall. Buy some cup noodles before going home. Gonna to eat them at camp tml.
*E430 peeps. I will miss you guys! Hope to see you around in Expo or Jurong West!*
God... I am so disappointed with people recently. Especially some of my camp mates and the friends that I trusted so much. I feel like giving up sometimes. I feel like showing attitude and just shout at their faces. I did not really express fully how I feel to the one who "hurt" me. Just drop them hints only. Just happen recently on Friday morning, I got very irritated by my camp mate, cuz all they do is to push the shitty job to me. I got really upset with them, and I just don't wish to talk, and I just want to be alone. God, help me to expand the capacity in my heart. To do things which people are not willing to do. To walk the narrow way, not to get easily hurt whenever peole critise me. Help me to stay more positive as a person, and to love others even more. Thank You Jesus, Amen...
Bought donuts for the CG as refreshment. Hope that they like it. Haha.. Only Derek commented that the donuts was good. Thanks bro! Haha.. Oh yeah.. I wanna share an interesting story happen before CG.
I was SMS-ing Sharon and asked how many people will be attending CG so I can buy the right amount of donuts for the CG. I recieve a SMS from an unknown number saying, "Well, that depends, if you include me, that will be one more. *wink*". I thought that Sharon have a new handphone number and she used that number to reply me. Sometimes, Sharon don't take refreshments one, so that SMS didn't really puzzle me. So I begin to reply and ask her if she did change her number. And the reply came to realise that the person was not Sharon, but was someone else! He introduced himself as Simon, and I though he is the Simon from my workplace. So it go on and on. Realising that we don't know each other at all. However, what amazes us were we were from the same flight but different base! Hahaa.. What an amazing way to know each other in this manner. I guess, I should meet up with this guy some day for coffee.
(Oh yeah. I only realise something the following day, I had the wrong number in my hp when Sharon msg me... -.-)
Serve in Chorus Board today. I was given a opportunity to do all the songs! Praise & Worship!! First time ever that I am being asked to do. I do songs like, "Breakaway", "Everybody Praise The Lord", "God of Ages", "I Wanna Stay" and "Here In My Life". My legs was trembling when I do the Praise Songs! Hahaa.. Thank God that everything went on smoothly and I didn't really make any mistakes. Thank God for the strength to do this. =) The goals that I set had come to past for this area! Haha.. I think I want to move on to do the BVs, and slowly to the Main LED by March 2009!
City Harvest is starting a brand new Service in Jurong West! Service 3 on Sunday is so pack that people are sitting on the steps already. So in 2 -3 February in 2 weeks time, the Service 1 will officially be starting, at 3.30p.m. As such, Sat service at Expo will change to 5.30p.m. =) How I wish that I can be part of the Jurong West revival. I wanna go back to Jurong West again. The good old days. . . So Lord, I pray that You will decided which area You want our CG to go to. Hear the cries of the westerners in W421. Let a revival broke forth in the west in W421. Thank You Jesus. Amen. =) (Just being random, let the east say I stay in the west. And let the west confess that they stay in the west!) Hahaha.. :D
Went for BS after ministry. It was good. I love Ming Jing alot, the way that he teaches is never boring. Hahahaa.. And the way he giggle, is just so cute I tell you! Hahaha.. Well, so bless to have him as my Zone Supervisor. His lessons are quite "challenging" in a way. Will not say out here, or else you may not dare to attend his lesson. Hahaha.. But, it was really fun. So don't be scare huh? Have faith to attend the most exciting BS lesson with this fun guy. =)
Fellowship was good at Bugis Junction Food Junction. Had a Black Pepper Chicken Steak with fries. Price are quite abit above average, cost about $6.50. Still ok bah. The food was quite good, just that I am not really full. Haha.. Btw, our CG has two more new members! Kelvin and Aaron! Hahaa.. Glad to have them joining our CG. =) Went over to Esplanade to walk walk. The sea view was really beautiful. How I wish that I could just stay there for a long time to watch the sky, but I have to reach camp early the following day. Had a good chat with Derek and the members. Last train was 11.49p.m at City Hall to Boon Lay, and I leave around 11.44p.m. Rush like mad for the MRT station, and thank God I manage to board the train! The distance wasn't near and my legs were like very tired already and no more strength to go on. Haha.. Thank You Lord! I meet my BMT Platoon Sergeant while I was on the train. Hahaa.. Well, isn't it a happening journey for me this week? =) What an adventurous week!
When I got into the train, I wasn't feeling that well as I just drank a bottle of coke earlier on. So it was like the coke was "shaking" in my stomach. Haha.. I didn't really know what I am feeling. But my stomach isn't pain at all. Maybe, I am just tired physically afterall. Buy some cup noodles before going home. Gonna to eat them at camp tml.
*E430 peeps. I will miss you guys! Hope to see you around in Expo or Jurong West!*
God... I am so disappointed with people recently. Especially some of my camp mates and the friends that I trusted so much. I feel like giving up sometimes. I feel like showing attitude and just shout at their faces. I did not really express fully how I feel to the one who "hurt" me. Just drop them hints only. Just happen recently on Friday morning, I got very irritated by my camp mate, cuz all they do is to push the shitty job to me. I got really upset with them, and I just don't wish to talk, and I just want to be alone. God, help me to expand the capacity in my heart. To do things which people are not willing to do. To walk the narrow way, not to get easily hurt whenever peole critise me. Help me to stay more positive as a person, and to love others even more. Thank You Jesus, Amen...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
:: Specially For Shan ::
Hui Shan, this song is specially dedicated for you. I am sure you will love this song too. Hope you will love it. May this beautiful piece of music helps to calm you down. EnJoy! =)
:: 143 Days To ORD! ::
Yeah! I did a small calculation.. Will be ORD in 143 days! That includes weekends, public holidays, leave and dayoff! Hahaa.. Wow.. Nothing beats better to have the freedom that I have been desire for. =)
I am planning to go for LASELLE to further my studies. I love to design, and I like to be creative. (Though my creative cells isn't that good enough). But God can gave me creative ideas! Hahaa.. Actually, my passion is not only lies in design line, but I love to cook too. However, thinking of sacrifising my previous weekends for my career. To me, weekends are meant to reserve for my church and my family.
I have no idea where should I go in future if I can't get into that school. I guess, I should start planning for my future now. Maybe I will enroll myself into SOT first, then I will decide where I want to go.
Lord, the visiblity of the path ahead of me is not clear. I need Your guidance O' Lord. For I don't know where I should go. I am worried about my future. You are my guide, the compass of my life. I need You. Show me the way, the path which You want me to go, that will lead me into my future, my destiny. Thank You Jesus. Amen... =)
I am planning to go for LASELLE to further my studies. I love to design, and I like to be creative. (Though my creative cells isn't that good enough). But God can gave me creative ideas! Hahaa.. Actually, my passion is not only lies in design line, but I love to cook too. However, thinking of sacrifising my previous weekends for my career. To me, weekends are meant to reserve for my church and my family.
I have no idea where should I go in future if I can't get into that school. I guess, I should start planning for my future now. Maybe I will enroll myself into SOT first, then I will decide where I want to go.
Lord, the visiblity of the path ahead of me is not clear. I need Your guidance O' Lord. For I don't know where I should go. I am worried about my future. You are my guide, the compass of my life. I need You. Show me the way, the path which You want me to go, that will lead me into my future, my destiny. Thank You Jesus. Amen... =)
Sunday, January 13, 2008
:: My "Glory" is gone! ::
Had a hair cut today. Wanted to cut desperately cuz I don't like how my hair looks by my side. Instead of the usual home cut which cost only $5, I decided not to go cuz its not that convienient and I don't wish to trouble the guy. It's a weekend and I should let them happily enjoying themself. Hahaa..
So I went over to Pionner Mall to have a haircut. Accompany my mum as she want to buy Roasted Duck from Giant. When I was in the Giant Supermarket, I saw a group of youngsters. One look I know and I suspect that they are from CHC. Hahaa.. Well, I guess CHC peeps are easily being distinguish. Hahaa.. I double confirm when I saw one familiar face which I saw before at Expo. Hahaa.. They were playing Amazing Race. Looks quite fun, and I overheard one of them saying. "Which shop doesn't move?" Hahaa.. The answer is Stationary Shop I think..
Well, anyway... I went over to cut my hair. Actually I want my side to be cut short, and the top to be trim, so that I can style. However, as the aunty was busying engrossing herself cutting away, she say that I will look nicer if my hair is shorter. I agree to it. (Was sort of regretful after I cut) Hahaa.. At least she commented that it will be nicer when my hair grows longer. Hmm... I wonder should I water my hair everyday just like anyone will water its plants everyday to grow?
Take One...
Take Two...
Hahaa.. I love to take photos.. Shall end this entry with a emo photo.. :P
This is how I feel for this type of haircut.. -.-
Hope to have a great week ahead! =)
So I went over to Pionner Mall to have a haircut. Accompany my mum as she want to buy Roasted Duck from Giant. When I was in the Giant Supermarket, I saw a group of youngsters. One look I know and I suspect that they are from CHC. Hahaa.. Well, I guess CHC peeps are easily being distinguish. Hahaa.. I double confirm when I saw one familiar face which I saw before at Expo. Hahaa.. They were playing Amazing Race. Looks quite fun, and I overheard one of them saying. "Which shop doesn't move?" Hahaa.. The answer is Stationary Shop I think..
Well, anyway... I went over to cut my hair. Actually I want my side to be cut short, and the top to be trim, so that I can style. However, as the aunty was busying engrossing herself cutting away, she say that I will look nicer if my hair is shorter. I agree to it. (Was sort of regretful after I cut) Hahaa.. At least she commented that it will be nicer when my hair grows longer. Hmm... I wonder should I water my hair everyday just like anyone will water its plants everyday to grow?
Take One...
Take Two...
Hahaa.. I love to take photos.. Shall end this entry with a emo photo.. :P
This is how I feel for this type of haircut.. -.-
Hope to have a great week ahead! =)
:: Updates ::
I was on day off on Friday. Thank God that manpower can be cut down on that day, so that I can go for CG in the evening, as I was on night shift. Well, I was at home and I recieve a phone call from camp. I was still on my bed at that time and was quite reluntant to pick up the call, expecting the worst situation that could happen to me, being recalled back to camp due to someone reported sick. I picked up my courage to listen to the call. To my pleasant surprise, it was a good news! I was officially being promoted to CPL! Hahaa.. Praise The Lord! =) Later part in the afternoon, around 1 plus, I recieve a second call from the camp again, this time round, I start to wonder is it someone really report sick? Haha.. Thank God that it was another one who call and tell me that I am promoted and ask me to draw rank from the e-Mart later. Hahaa.. =)
CG was good. First CG of the year, and I thank God that I can go for it. I was quite worried when Sharon said that there will be more CG meetings in 2008. Well, of course I love to attend CG. However, I cannot go for it especially when I am on night shift, and I can't possiblily take day off or change shift with my friend every time. Some of my camp mates may be quite unhappy about this, just that they don't want to say out only. Friday is the favourite day for the youngsters, as the following day is a weekend and they love to go "chiong". I love to "chiong" too, to meet my wonderful CG members. Hahaha.. So, I pray that I can go for CG meetings at least 3 times a month bah. =)
Service was good too. Pastor Tan talks about "Forgiveness". Was very blessed by the message and it bring me to a deeper understanding about the topic. Forgiveness is not to be taken for granted, and we should treat it as we really mean it from our heart. Not saying things like, "Joke Joke only lah, don't cry lar. Sorry loh..". "Bible say we must forgive, so you must forgive me!". Surprise? Yepx.. Sadly but true. Most people do not understanding the meaning of forgiveness.
Here are some things which Pastor Tan shares about.
#1) Real forgiveness is unconditional
- We should forgive those who hurt us whether they asked for it anot. It should always be my iniative.
#2) Forgiveness does not minimize the seriousness of the offence.
- Learn to treat forgiveness with Respect!
Like a madman who throws firebrands, arrows, and death, Is the man who deceives his neighbor, And says, “I was only joking!”
- Pro 26:18 - 19
#3) Forgiveness isn't resuming a relationship without change.
- 3 things which we ought to do...
--> Repentance: We should know that we are in the wrong and we are willing to change.
--> Restitution: Restoring the pain, and the damage that you have done.
--> Rebuilding Trust: Trust can be destroy overnight, and it takes a long time to be rebuild. We don't have to trust a person immediately even we have forgiven the person.
#4) Forgiveness isn't forgetting what's happening.
- Yes, we should forgive and forget. However, it's most unlikely to forget what hurt you especially if that hurt is a huge blow to you. We can instead surrender our thoughts, our pains to God if it reoccur in our mind. We can chose to refocus on something else instead.
#5) Forgiveness isn't my right when I wasn't the one hurt.
- We should not represent anyone to forgive.
(This shock me because I often though that there is nothing wrong in this. This message was really an eye opener for me!)
* Life is 10% "what happened" & 90% how we react to it. *
What for chose to habour resentment and the bitterness in our heart? We have far more important things to do! If you don't forgive, the one that is hurting in the end is often we ourselves. So, why should we tortue ourself even more after we get hurt? Learn to forgive. =)
After service, we went over to Bugis Long John Silver to fellowship. Food was good, but the serving was quite small. I love the rice that has the black pepper sauce over it, and I remember the past Jurong West cafe Black Pepper Chicken Rice. Hahaa.. Now when I blog this, memories of how I used to serve in this ministry and it doesn't exist anymore. I really love this ministry alot as I love to serve people, and see their cheerful faces when they recieve the food from me. Serving in church is much more easier compare to the outside restaruant. You get to see their happy faces, and I get to see the familiar faces of my church mates too. Haha.. Anyway, in the midst of fellowshipping, I show my invisible "Golden Big Chain". Hahaa.. Yeah, I was a loan shark and go after members to collect CG funds. It was quite fruitful as alot of them gave faithfully, and some recieve their long awaiting claims too. Hahaa.. Well, I told Pascale that I wish to step down this position as a treasurer. Reason being I want to move on to new things. Hahaa.. Well, kind of being asked not to. Come to think it, I haven been doing much in this area in W421, so I guess that I will carry on with the task till CG mulitply in June.
Went over to Bugis Junction to walk walk. Was feeling abit emo as there are many thoughts in my mind. Especially in the area of finances. This month allowance isn't enough for me to last till my next allowance. Pray for a miracle and that I can have financial blessings or open doors. God, I pray that I will have more than enough, to bless and to save for my jobless days in June.
Next week is going to be a horrible week as I need to go to camp very early, almost everyday! Need to wake up very early which I don't really love to do it. May not able to go for Service too. Pray that my I/C Alvin can spare me off for one weekend duty. I want to hear the message and fellowship with my members! And of course, to meet God in the House.
CG was good. First CG of the year, and I thank God that I can go for it. I was quite worried when Sharon said that there will be more CG meetings in 2008. Well, of course I love to attend CG. However, I cannot go for it especially when I am on night shift, and I can't possiblily take day off or change shift with my friend every time. Some of my camp mates may be quite unhappy about this, just that they don't want to say out only. Friday is the favourite day for the youngsters, as the following day is a weekend and they love to go "chiong". I love to "chiong" too, to meet my wonderful CG members. Hahaha.. So, I pray that I can go for CG meetings at least 3 times a month bah. =)
Service was good too. Pastor Tan talks about "Forgiveness". Was very blessed by the message and it bring me to a deeper understanding about the topic. Forgiveness is not to be taken for granted, and we should treat it as we really mean it from our heart. Not saying things like, "Joke Joke only lah, don't cry lar. Sorry loh..". "Bible say we must forgive, so you must forgive me!". Surprise? Yepx.. Sadly but true. Most people do not understanding the meaning of forgiveness.
Here are some things which Pastor Tan shares about.
#1) Real forgiveness is unconditional
- We should forgive those who hurt us whether they asked for it anot. It should always be my iniative.
#2) Forgiveness does not minimize the seriousness of the offence.
- Learn to treat forgiveness with Respect!
Like a madman who throws firebrands, arrows, and death, Is the man who deceives his neighbor, And says, “I was only joking!”
- Pro 26:18 - 19
#3) Forgiveness isn't resuming a relationship without change.
- 3 things which we ought to do...
--> Repentance: We should know that we are in the wrong and we are willing to change.
--> Restitution: Restoring the pain, and the damage that you have done.
--> Rebuilding Trust: Trust can be destroy overnight, and it takes a long time to be rebuild. We don't have to trust a person immediately even we have forgiven the person.
#4) Forgiveness isn't forgetting what's happening.
- Yes, we should forgive and forget. However, it's most unlikely to forget what hurt you especially if that hurt is a huge blow to you. We can instead surrender our thoughts, our pains to God if it reoccur in our mind. We can chose to refocus on something else instead.
#5) Forgiveness isn't my right when I wasn't the one hurt.
- We should not represent anyone to forgive.
(This shock me because I often though that there is nothing wrong in this. This message was really an eye opener for me!)
* Life is 10% "what happened" & 90% how we react to it. *
What for chose to habour resentment and the bitterness in our heart? We have far more important things to do! If you don't forgive, the one that is hurting in the end is often we ourselves. So, why should we tortue ourself even more after we get hurt? Learn to forgive. =)
After service, we went over to Bugis Long John Silver to fellowship. Food was good, but the serving was quite small. I love the rice that has the black pepper sauce over it, and I remember the past Jurong West cafe Black Pepper Chicken Rice. Hahaa.. Now when I blog this, memories of how I used to serve in this ministry and it doesn't exist anymore. I really love this ministry alot as I love to serve people, and see their cheerful faces when they recieve the food from me. Serving in church is much more easier compare to the outside restaruant. You get to see their happy faces, and I get to see the familiar faces of my church mates too. Haha.. Anyway, in the midst of fellowshipping, I show my invisible "Golden Big Chain". Hahaa.. Yeah, I was a loan shark and go after members to collect CG funds. It was quite fruitful as alot of them gave faithfully, and some recieve their long awaiting claims too. Hahaa.. Well, I told Pascale that I wish to step down this position as a treasurer. Reason being I want to move on to new things. Hahaa.. Well, kind of being asked not to. Come to think it, I haven been doing much in this area in W421, so I guess that I will carry on with the task till CG mulitply in June.
Went over to Bugis Junction to walk walk. Was feeling abit emo as there are many thoughts in my mind. Especially in the area of finances. This month allowance isn't enough for me to last till my next allowance. Pray for a miracle and that I can have financial blessings or open doors. God, I pray that I will have more than enough, to bless and to save for my jobless days in June.
Next week is going to be a horrible week as I need to go to camp very early, almost everyday! Need to wake up very early which I don't really love to do it. May not able to go for Service too. Pray that my I/C Alvin can spare me off for one weekend duty. I want to hear the message and fellowship with my members! And of course, to meet God in the House.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
:: First Service in 2008! ::
Had a great service today, and I was serving Side Board. I wasn't doing well as I did for the previous time that I serve. Well, people do made mistakes and I should give myself room for that. I am not perfect, but I am moving on to perfection. =)
Goals Setting in 2008. Really love Pastor Kong teachings. Haha.. It's the beginning of the year, and we should start setting goals in our life, so that we can have progress in our life, and will not stay stagnant, just letting a year pass by us, and before we know it, 2009 is here. The cycle will then go on and on. As what Pastor says, "Blessed is the one who aims for nothing, for he/she will not be disappointed!" Quite true isn't? Haha..
So how do you start setting your goals? Well, its not by working harder in life, but rather, its by working SMARTER! Haha.. Here it goes. =)
Specifically
Measurable
Action Plan
Realistic
Time Frame
Expection Management
Revalation
If you fail to plan, you plan to fail! That's why goals settings are important and Pastors will always encourage us to plan at the beginning of the year, because it will determine how will we be by Dec. =)
Chorus Board Amazing Race in less than 13 hours time. Looking forward to it. This will be the first time I attend my ministry outing, cuz I have never attend before. Dinner at Fish & Co. after the games. Haha.. I have never eaten at this restaruant before, but I heard that the food is nice. Hope to have some photos taken and I will upload here.
Going off to sleep le. Have a good rest guys! Take care and have a great week ahead. =)
Goals Setting in 2008. Really love Pastor Kong teachings. Haha.. It's the beginning of the year, and we should start setting goals in our life, so that we can have progress in our life, and will not stay stagnant, just letting a year pass by us, and before we know it, 2009 is here. The cycle will then go on and on. As what Pastor says, "Blessed is the one who aims for nothing, for he/she will not be disappointed!" Quite true isn't? Haha..
So how do you start setting your goals? Well, its not by working harder in life, but rather, its by working SMARTER! Haha.. Here it goes. =)
Specifically
Measurable
Action Plan
Realistic
Time Frame
Expection Management
Revalation
If you fail to plan, you plan to fail! That's why goals settings are important and Pastors will always encourage us to plan at the beginning of the year, because it will determine how will we be by Dec. =)
Chorus Board Amazing Race in less than 13 hours time. Looking forward to it. This will be the first time I attend my ministry outing, cuz I have never attend before. Dinner at Fish & Co. after the games. Haha.. I have never eaten at this restaruant before, but I heard that the food is nice. Hope to have some photos taken and I will upload here.
Going off to sleep le. Have a good rest guys! Take care and have a great week ahead. =)
Friday, January 4, 2008
:: It's Friday! ::
I love Fridays the most during weekdays! Hahaa.. That tell me that the next day is a weekend, and I can go out with my church friends for Service and fellowshipping. Hahaa.. It also tell me that CG is here, although we don't have Cell Group Meetings for the first two weeks of the new calender year. =)
Celebrate my mum's birthday yesterday, and I specially cook her some special dishes, like Fried Chicken Wings(Haven been having home-fried one for a long time due to the soaring price of the frozen chicken wings), Mee Sua Soup and Vegetable with Tofu and Roasted Pork Stew. Haha.. Well, it doesn't taste really as good as what I have expected but I hope she will like it. Mum say that she don't want to have any cake so we didn't bought any. I think, what my mum hope for her birthday is to have peace and harmony in this family, where everyone of us will be closely connected, and I pray that this will come to past one day.. =)
If you ever watch the show, "The Golden Path" on Channel 8, I am sure you will most likely agree with me that the show have one of the best plot in history of TV industry. I really love the show alot. Haha.. However, I dun like Kai Jie who made Jin Feng pregnant and who don't want to bear this responsiblity! Causing Jin Feng to be in coma and eventually die in the end, together with the baby. The eldest brother even help Kai Jie to get away with it! Argh! Can't stand such a evil guy. Hahaa.. But of course, in real life, I believe that Tay Ping Hui is a nice guy lah. Haha.. I love Felicia's acting as crazy woman. She look so cure sometimes.. Hahaa..
Anyway, I have took the first step to start reading the bible! So proud of myself. =P Hahaa.. No lah, I just want to hope that I can be able to complete reading by this year. I don't want to be in the middle of the year then start to rush, this have no motivation at all. At least, I can be motivated to read at the starting of the year..
Going to serve tml, may do all the 3 Praise Songs during service. Hope that I can be able to flow with the musicians, singers and Pastor. Haha.. God, anoint my team, so that we can do a great job tml in making the Service a great one! =)
Celebrate my mum's birthday yesterday, and I specially cook her some special dishes, like Fried Chicken Wings(Haven been having home-fried one for a long time due to the soaring price of the frozen chicken wings), Mee Sua Soup and Vegetable with Tofu and Roasted Pork Stew. Haha.. Well, it doesn't taste really as good as what I have expected but I hope she will like it. Mum say that she don't want to have any cake so we didn't bought any. I think, what my mum hope for her birthday is to have peace and harmony in this family, where everyone of us will be closely connected, and I pray that this will come to past one day.. =)
If you ever watch the show, "The Golden Path" on Channel 8, I am sure you will most likely agree with me that the show have one of the best plot in history of TV industry. I really love the show alot. Haha.. However, I dun like Kai Jie who made Jin Feng pregnant and who don't want to bear this responsiblity! Causing Jin Feng to be in coma and eventually die in the end, together with the baby. The eldest brother even help Kai Jie to get away with it! Argh! Can't stand such a evil guy. Hahaa.. But of course, in real life, I believe that Tay Ping Hui is a nice guy lah. Haha.. I love Felicia's acting as crazy woman. She look so cure sometimes.. Hahaa..
Anyway, I have took the first step to start reading the bible! So proud of myself. =P Hahaa.. No lah, I just want to hope that I can be able to complete reading by this year. I don't want to be in the middle of the year then start to rush, this have no motivation at all. At least, I can be motivated to read at the starting of the year..
Going to serve tml, may do all the 3 Praise Songs during service. Hope that I can be able to flow with the musicians, singers and Pastor. Haha.. God, anoint my team, so that we can do a great job tml in making the Service a great one! =)
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
:: Day Off ::
Today had a great day resting at home. Need not go to camp as manpower can be cut down. Haha.. Had always been wanting a good rest. Today is both my sisters first day at school, one in Primary 1 and another in K1. Hahaha.. They look so cute in their uniform. Shall post up their photos someday. =)
Initially my plan for today was to go for a swim at my house nearby, however, the weather isn't very good as I intend to get some tan. Haha.. Anyway, I hope to go for a swim sometime next week.
Cheng Xi just send me this photo, which I think its quite cool. Hahaa.. It's taken after the Christmas Service at Hall 7.
Don't you think I look quite smart in this pic? LoLx.. =P
Initially my plan for today was to go for a swim at my house nearby, however, the weather isn't very good as I intend to get some tan. Haha.. Anyway, I hope to go for a swim sometime next week.
Cheng Xi just send me this photo, which I think its quite cool. Hahaa.. It's taken after the Christmas Service at Hall 7.
Don't you think I look quite smart in this pic? LoLx.. =P
Shall blog more again. Take care guys! =)
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
:: Entering Into A Brand New Year ::
Happy New Year to all!
2008 - What is in store for me? Well, I believe that I just don't want a year to pass by me like this again, without any things happening, without any breakthroughs or without any achievement. I want to make full use of 2008 that I have never done so in my last 22 years of my life. 2008, you will be my best friend for the next 365 days!
I have set down 5 Main Areas that I want to achieve this year, and I believe that if I can see it, I can have it!
#1) Spiritually
- Complete reading the whole bible for both OT & NT.
- Committed to daily quiet time & prayer time.
- Encounters with God.
- Complete my Bible Studies Level till Five-Fold Ministry 2.
- Reading more Christian Books. (Planning to get a new book every 2 - 3 months)
- Fulfilling of my Building Fund.
- Give a Word to edify others.
- Win a soul for Christ.
- To raise up to be a CG Helper.
#2) Ministry (Chorus Board)
- Doing Praise Songs during Service.
- Lead the new ministry members in doing Worship Songs.
#3) Physically
- To train my body to be fitter.
- Go for jogging at least once every one or two weeks.
- Improving my Pull Up standard.
#4) Handling of Emotions
- Talk to my siblings in a friendlier manner.
- Control my anger problem and I will not hurt others.
- Cope with my emotions in a more effective way.
#5) Other Areas
- Be more punctual in meetings. (Service, CG, Ministry, Work)
- Be more decisive in decision making.
- Be more confidence in the task that I am assigned.
- Achieve at least a Driving Advanced Theory.
- Learn to be more effective in cash savings.
- Help out more in my family.
I know that this areas that I want to achieve is not easy. However, I am gonna try my best to achieve it. =)
Presenting to you the coolest CG in CHC, W421!
(L-R) Wei Ming, Cheng Xi, Terence, Wei Jian, Glenn, Hui Shan, Pascale, Louisa, Sharon
I love W421!
2008 - What is in store for me? Well, I believe that I just don't want a year to pass by me like this again, without any things happening, without any breakthroughs or without any achievement. I want to make full use of 2008 that I have never done so in my last 22 years of my life. 2008, you will be my best friend for the next 365 days!
I have set down 5 Main Areas that I want to achieve this year, and I believe that if I can see it, I can have it!
#1) Spiritually
- Complete reading the whole bible for both OT & NT.
- Committed to daily quiet time & prayer time.
- Encounters with God.
- Complete my Bible Studies Level till Five-Fold Ministry 2.
- Reading more Christian Books. (Planning to get a new book every 2 - 3 months)
- Fulfilling of my Building Fund.
- Give a Word to edify others.
- Win a soul for Christ.
- To raise up to be a CG Helper.
#2) Ministry (Chorus Board)
- Doing Praise Songs during Service.
- Lead the new ministry members in doing Worship Songs.
#3) Physically
- To train my body to be fitter.
- Go for jogging at least once every one or two weeks.
- Improving my Pull Up standard.
#4) Handling of Emotions
- Talk to my siblings in a friendlier manner.
- Control my anger problem and I will not hurt others.
- Cope with my emotions in a more effective way.
#5) Other Areas
- Be more punctual in meetings. (Service, CG, Ministry, Work)
- Be more decisive in decision making.
- Be more confidence in the task that I am assigned.
- Achieve at least a Driving Advanced Theory.
- Learn to be more effective in cash savings.
- Help out more in my family.
I know that this areas that I want to achieve is not easy. However, I am gonna try my best to achieve it. =)
Presenting to you the coolest CG in CHC, W421!
(L-R) Wei Ming, Cheng Xi, Terence, Wei Jian, Glenn, Hui Shan, Pascale, Louisa, Sharon
I love W421!
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