:: hAvinG thE attiTudE foR gROwth ::

It was a great CG today. Sharon share the message about "Having the attitude of growth". I may not be the one who sows, but I may be the one who reaps. Well, that of course doesn't makes the end of sowing, but things really boils down to our heart for growth. I guess, I need to reflect ba. . . . Someone pass me a mirror please. Maria, where are you?

This week of work hasn't been really smooth, and I have to admit that there are times I talk to people rather unfriendly. =( Thinking back, I think I should have remain my cool ba, even though they might be nasty, but I must not be too naive too. Well, the art of customer service is not very easy to master. Haha. . . I gonna learn, standing in the prospect of their view and my view, to have a win-win situation, so that I can be a good worker for God. I like what one of my church leader say, "God is my boss".

As I was going home after CG, I bump into my ex-ZS, Ming Jing! Haha. . . Well, at first I wasn't really dare to approach him, but I did. I wave to him.

MJ: "You are from Sharon Ruth CG right? W421. ."
Me: "Yepx"
MJ give me a pad on my back and say
"Different zone liao hor".
Me: "Yeah"

We say goodbye to each other as he headed for another direction and I headed home.

Haha. . . Well, I kind of miss him already. Although we didn't really interact much while I am still in his zone, but he leaves a great impression for me as a ZS. I love his BS lessons and during the Prayer Meetings occasionally. I guess, he also leave behind a deep impression to alot of my cell group members. It won't be so easy to bump into him as he belongs to JW Service 1. Haha. . . Anyway, I am now serving in JW on Sundays, so I may have the opportunity to bump into him also, but so far haven yet. Haha. . .

Next week will be my last week with SP. Thinking back, I kind of starting to miss working there already. The staff lounge that I usually relax, the food that I use to eat, the fellowship of my colleagues, supervisor and customers. . . Haha. . . Well, but I have decided to leave. However, I thank God for placing me there, because this is a good training ground for me to start a new journey in my life.

:: Looking Forward For That Day ::

Which day? It's the day where every single member of W421 can gather together in Cell Group or in Service. It will be a day where the cell group photo will be the most precious because it is just so hard to capture everyone together in a picture.

Kelvin will be confine for 3 weeks in OCS. By the time he is release, Pascale will be in India, and she will take about 3 weeks to come back. When she come back, Aaron and Yan Qiu could be involve in field camps, or SIT test. Terence will also be involve in his overseas "mission trip". Hopefully, we can really gather together to take just one photo before we multiply or we enter into 2009. =) Will it be Christmas or before that? Well, I believe that it will be the day where every member will be looking forward to.

Not forgetting all the wonderful old members of W421, you know who you are. =) How I wish that we can really gather back again. . .

I believe that photos are precious as it paints a beautiful memory in our mind when we see them. The laughter, the voices of the members will soon start to fade when we grow older, but the photos remains forever. . .

This will be one of my Christmas wishes for this year, and I hope that it will come to past. . . =)

:: Updates ::

It's a Monday morning and here again I am thinking of how am I going to go through another week again. Am I really liking what I am doing? Or do I just work for the sake of money? Haha. .

Well, when times are good, I will want to look forward to work and stay on. When times are bad, I will want to think of quitting right away. What do you call this kind of working attitude? I would say that I am someone who is afraid of challenges. Just because I face something difficult, I will want to quit right away. Haha. . . Well, I need to face up to the reality that not all things are so easy to work with, and I must really face the challenges.

I can't do it by my own strength, nor I can't convince myself that it's gonna be easy. I have to depend on God, and live on by people's encouragement. However, there's a point I have to understand, which is people can't be always by your side encouraging you, because they do not belong to you 100% totally or they are sold to you as encourager slaves. Haha. . . So, that's the part where God will come in to minister to us whenever we need the strength to draw upon, which is by reading the word of God and having a quiet time with Him.

Sometimes I wonder, am I really loving God? Or am I just someone who is religiously doing something just because it's a duty? Am I following the heart beat of Jesus? Someone once say this, "Check your heart once in a while".

Meet up with Joseph from W372 at Pioneer Mall just now. It was a good time chatting with him. Haha.. Not forgetting Louisa who play a part in the telephone conversation. Haha.. Somehow, it really brightens our night! Hahaa.. "I am going to become a XXX. I have XXXX into a XXX XXXXXX before." Don't worry Louisa, this will be a secret between 3 of us. Haha. . . So, you dun bully me hor, or else I will tell Sharon. Hahaha...

Best wishes for your exciting 9 months in OCS Kelvin and Joseph. Looking forward to see your fullness of glory shine forth in June!

:: Changes ::

Sharon just announced during Cell Group last Friday that we'll be moving out of MJ Zone and going into JS Zone. Well, to me, I wasn't really excited or very sad about the changes. Maybe, I still have not yet develop a close relationship with the zone people yet, that's why I didn't really feel anything for the changes. I like my ex-ZS, Ming Jing alot, he's really a good leader over the zone and I love the style when he share the word and often challenge his students to use the gifts of the Holy Spirit.

Had a outing with Zes's CG at Sentosa today. It was fun, but yet flesh crucifying. :'( Had to wake up early on a Sunday morning to make my way down. Haha. . . Well, the outing was good and I had fun. Great to interact with the new friends, especially Du Liang, Clarance and Jian Ping. Pascale was quite funny when she describe Du Liang's name. "Du Du Du Du Du Du Du Du Du Du".. Haha..

Recently, things have not been going well in my family. I feel so burden. I don't wish to see my mum cry. I don't wish to see quarrels going on. All because of one person, and it spark so many unhappiness in the family. May God bless that person who's creating such a harvo in my family indirectly, maybe it wasn't entirely that person's fault, but I can say that "he/she" does play a part too. Blood is always thicker than water, and I believe in that. Who feed you when you were hungry? Who gave you clothes to wear when you were naked? Who gave you a shelter to live in? Who bless you the money and all the things which is not earn by you? I won't dare to say that all of us should share the same values as I did as some of us may come from different family backgrounds. Unless or otherwise, you will still want to be with your family one day.

Please pray for my family. . .

:: Monday ::

Work was quite okay today. Thank God for Aldrich who help to ease my workload. =) Hopefully I can really buck up in my work, to do something for what I have been lagging behind others.

I am starting to like my supervisor more and more. She's kind of cute and the way she talk to people on the phone really make me laugh sometimes. I can't help myself but giggle or laughing to myself for no reasons. I think if my colleague were to see this they will think I am crazy. Hahaha..

Don't get it wrong, Wei Ming hasn't fall in love with any girls, so don't even talk about ladies. Hahaha... So far I still haven develop any feelings for girls yet, nor any girls have develop feelings for me. So I will just walk alone from earth into eternity for now.

"Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like
You have love me.
Break my heart for what break Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom cause
As I walk from earth into eternity"

This is one of my most favourite song "Hosanna" bridge. One of the line, "Open up my eyes to the things unseen" - I will ask God to open up my eyes to see who should I choose. So when you see me start singing this song for no reason, you should know why. =P Or maybe I will just confess the last line. "As I walk from earth into eternity". . .

:: Sunday ::

It's been months since I have been tagged. Thanks Xuan and Fel. I really appreciate your thoughts. =) Although the hits grew little by little, no one has tagged it for nearly 3 months. Haha. . .

As I have mention earlier in my previous post, this week has really been terrible because I had make a very grave mistake in work. Thankfully, my supervisor was very supportive and she didn't scold me. However, she have to write a report to the boss. I was in a loss, I couldn't believe that I could have make such a silly mistake. My supervisor says that I might be ask to leave before my contract ends. Although I long to leave, but I don't want to chose this path of leaving.

That's the reason why I didn't share my testimony when Sharon asks us to share. Hurt and confuse on the inside, I don't know how to express myself out. I couldn't tell my CG that I praise God that he have bought me to this path right? Although I remember one good incident that happen, but my chance is gone. :'(

When I was calling one of the customers, after finishing getting details from him. He ask for my name. Then he said to me, "Wei Ming? Nice name". When he say that, I was flying. I have never thought that my name was nice before, or no one has ever say to me before. I was very happy when he say that to me. I wrote on the rough paper and say, "God, thank You so much for making my name wonderful".

Alot of thoughts run through my mind, thoughts of leaving, thoughts of failure, thoughts of lousiness, thoughts of unworthiness, thoughts of giving up. However, the message came at the right time from Pastor Tan. Amazing man, and I really love him. Haha.. Thank God for placing such wonderful pastors in City Harvest Church.

Have you ever wonder what is the purpose of copying notes in church, but after Service, you will not look through them again? I have been thinking about that for sometime. We may receive so many revelations from pastors, CGL, but we just copy and forget. Maybe, one day I should dig out my old notebook again. . . . . . Hopefully the revelations won't end up in the stomach of termites. =P

Sometime you do not realise that your silence is killing me in a slow and painful way.

:: Mountain Trembling Week ::

This week has been terrible. It's one of the worst week that I have ever experience when I started work. One case after another, 2 setback with 2 days! What worse can it get? God, I really can't take it anymore. I wish that I could just leave everything behind and take a break. I am tired. I am just so tired. . .

It's indeed been a mountain trembling week, and its seems to be a thousand fall.