:: Update ::

Sometimes, things are just too much for me to bear that I wish that I can sleep peacefully six feet underground. God, strengthen me, mould me and I believe that one day I can tell you with joy, "God, I have overcome it. Thank You"

The God I know, 

Strengthens the weak.

HaPpy ChiNeSe NeW yEaR to aLL my frienDs!

:: Ministered ::

When I read Andrew's blog on "Random", I was being ministered by what he said. The way that he blogged never fail to surprise me sometimes. There's just something special about this guy. 

Whenever he blogged, he did not showed off how great he know about God and the Word. Whenever I read his entries, I will feel ministered, I will feel that I am "eating and drinking" spiritually. His entries are simple and yet it carries an anointing to bless others, to build up other believers in the Kingdom Of God. Sometimes the entries that he wrote may provoked you, but yet he does not tear your spirit apart. He may be harsh, but yet he can managed to minister to a stubborn person like me.

His relationship with God are not just merely God as his Lord and Saviour, not only a Father, not only a friend, but a very close friend, like an intimate couple. =)

I am really glad and bless to have a frenz, a brother in Christ like him. =) May God use this strong man to continue to be a blessings to others in the Kingdom of God. 

http://androne.blogspot.com

:: Wish to be alone ::

Sometimes. . . I feel that I am a strange guy. When I wish to be alone, I would wish people to talk to me. When people talk to me, I will not want to talk to them. Now, I am going through this stage. . . Weird me. . .  

Chinese New Year is just ard the corner, however, I do not really look forward to it. The only thing I look forward to CNY is to get Ang Baos. Haha.. I love the season more during the Pre-CNY where I get to clean the house, getting excited with the shopping of goods and during the eve Reunion Dinner. As soon as the clock hits the CNY Day 1, I will look forward for the next year Pre-CNY again. Another weird point of me. =.=

2009 is the year of cow, and its "my year", and which means I am 24 this year. 12 years ago(The year of cow), I am taking PSLE! Haha.. If I can and if there's a chance, I will wish to go back to retake my PSLE, studying harder, going to Express stream and going into JC. 

If another 12 years were to pass by again, I will be in my mid-thirties le. Gosh.. So old, where will I be I wonder? What house will I get to stay in? Will I be married? How many kids will I have? 

Thanks for your SMS Pascale. =) Really appreciate that you are not just a listener who listen and forget, but a listener who listen and encourage. ^^ 

:: Nothing ::

I wish that . . . . . . . . 

:: Lost ::

:: First CG of 2009 ::

The first CG of the year. One word to describe - Awesome! I believed that great things are going to happened this year for W421 as we began to tithe the first 15 minutes to God by praying in the spirit. Sharon begin to speak, and asked us to visualize the areas of our life that we want to see a breakthrough in. I see my family staying happily together. I see good results that I will get in my school. 

The sermon was very good. I felt that it was for me. Before I came to CG, my mind was wondering elsewhere, I feel lost, I feel like straying away from God, I feel like doing some things that God will not be pleased of, I feel that I feel unloved by people.

To me, love is like an oxygen to me. However, I have always get the wrong source of oxygen. I did not think of the main source of oxygen - Love from God. When I feel unloved by my friends, to me, it's like the world coming to an end, and I have been trapping in the world, because I have been blinded and I have failed to see God's love.

Open up my eyes to the things unseen, 

Show me how to love, like you have love me.

Praying by the ten commandments is really powerful. =) The message not only talks about teaching us the right way to pray, but the hidden message behind it, the little details reveal to me that I have been wrong all the while. The little details reveal to me that God wants me to put Him as my main source. =)

Well, I can easily talk about this. However, its another thing to live it, and another thing to last it, not just for a few days or weeks, but being a footprint in our heart. I may talked about this, but few months down the road, the same thing might happen again. 

However, thinking of that issue again. I will think, "What route should I choose?" 

:: I Wish I Wish I Wish ::

I NEED FINANCIAL BREAKTHROUGH!

(If only heaven could rain down money on earth, how great will it be, but I know, this is just my dreams.) 

Dreams are my reality.

The only kind of reality.

I dream of loving in the night.

And loving seems alright.

Although it's only fantasy.

If only such dreams can be a reality. . . Now, open up your mind and imagine. . .

- Millions of $1000 notes falling down in the CBD area.

- People snatching and catching the fallen notes.

- People who have caught a great harvest of notes return to the office and start firing their bossy boss.

- The bosses are speechless.

- Second day, the same thing happen again.

- This time round, the boss start to catch the fallen notes.

- However, will their harvest be as great as their previous workers?

- NO! It's because the workers are always working hard and the bosses are always ordering the workers around.

- Therefore, the bosses can only suck their thumb and return to their office with a few notes.

- All the workers decided to left because they have a great catch.

- The workers leave the office and they live happily ever after.

- The poor bosses live sadly ever after.

THE END

Haha.. I wonder if I can be a script writer? Maybe I can write dramas as great as "The Little Nonya" and movies as great as "Titanic"? Haha.. So thick-skinned me. =P

In heaven one day. . . 

God: "SW Tan, so where's the 2000 dramas and 500 movies that you have written?"

Me: "God, this are the accounts that I have audit on earth. Would you show the heaven's balance sheet? So that I can help out in the accounts as well."

God: ". . . "

Haha.. I was just wondering, God is a God of infinity. His riches are uncountable. I wonder the accountants in heaven need many digit of calculator. Hahaha.. A huge calculator in the middle of heaven. Maybe just by pressing one amount will take 5 years. Hahaa.. Well, I hope that one day I can find out what's my calling that God has written for me. ^^ 

As you can see, I am getting abit crazy here and there. Hopefully, I won't end up like Yu Zhu being tied up in the hospital. . . 

:: School Life ::

I have not been studying since March 2006, except for Bible Studies. So how's school life to me? First day was good. Second day was okay. Third day was below average. :'( I don't understand what cher talking. (Can't use singlish? Okay.. Let me rephrase) I don't understand what the lecturer is teaching. :'( I think I will need a interpretation headset. Wonder if my school provides it?

The lecturers also asked us to read newspaper, to read about the happenings around the world. Hmm.. Too bad, I only have the habit of reading chinese newspaper, and the teacher today asked us not to read them. This wife of mine very picky. Ms Accounting, I never knew that you are such a complicated person! Are you a "les"?? If you are, den I am a "more"! Hahaha.. No lah, just kidding with you. Ms Accounting, since I choose you, I will follow you, because I believe in my vision. Haha.. Ms Accounting, I think your name very long leh.. I think I give you a new name. Hmm.. Take after my surname ba, Mrs Tan. ^^

Mrs Tan, I wonder if I have enough time for you in the future. I have to work, perhaps you will not feel the love from me. How can I show my love to you? By hugging you to bed every night? By having quality time with you? What's your love language so that I can show my love to  you better? =) Mrs Tan, would you please lend me your ears by coming closer to me? Mr Tan just whispered into Mrs Tan ears: "Nothing in this world can take me away from you, our love goes on and on" (HUgx) ^^

:: Eve Before My Marriage ::

Surprise? Yeah.. I am getting married tml! WOoHOo!! Been waiting for this day for so long. I have not tell anyone about who am I getting married to, only some know. Shhh!! Dun tell them, wait they will give me a face if I never invite them to my wedding. No choice, times are bad. I can't afford to hold many tables in the hotel and I can't possibly hold it in a coffee shop.

I first knew the person in August. When this person caught my attention, it just drew all my spirit away from me. I was totally captivated by this gorgeous person. Man. . . I am the luckiest guy on Earth. Though I may be poor, but Pastor Kong says "You may be poor today, but if you follow God, you will not be poor all your life" Haha. . . Yeah, and I believe that it will come to pass. =)

During the first night of Asia Conference, I slipped away after my afternoon elective to meet this person without my members knowing. I went to Somerset and meet my love. I knee down my knees in front of CentrePoint. I ignore the stares from the passer-bys, as if I owned the whole street without any fear. I gave the person my heart and I propose to her, and the reply was "Yes!"

A week later, we went down to ROM to register our marriage. I was late to meet and I even cabbed down! Cost me $20. =( However, to meet my love, I won't mind even sacrificing my life. Haha. . .

Tml is my big night, 06/01/09. Go and buy 4D! 0601! Haha.. No lah. Dun ok? =) Anyway, it will be a night that will marked down inside my heart for the next 50 years on Earth with my lovely wife. She promised me that she will give me half dozen of children. Just like my family, 3 boys and 3 girls. Hopefully, I have twins. =) 

Now, I shall introduce formally my wife for all of you, and her name is .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .ACCOUNTING!

Hahaha. . . Dun throw things at me! Ouch... Ouch!! Stopped pls! Opss!! Ouch!! :'( Okok.. Dun crap le.. =P 

Haha.. Why do I say marriage? It's because I will be spending my life with accounting for the next phase of my life. I have no knowledge about accounting at all, and once I start to let it flow inside my life tml night, it will become part of my life. No matter I hate it or love it in the end, it will still be inside my memory. =) So, I will want to love accounting with all of my heart, I don't know if I can, but I promise that I will try. 

Why do I say some of the events above? Let me explain. =)

- August is the period where I get to know ACCA.

- First night of Asia Conference is where I attend the talk, and I like it. 

- A week later is when I went down to register, and YES, I took a cab to Orchard!

Hopefully I can do well in school. Last chance for me, because I fail to do so in my primary all the way till poly. Last chance to study, last chance in school, last chance in my life. ^^ Jia You Wei Ming!! 

Sometimes, I am really glad that there's an angel in my CG, and yes, that's non-other than Louisa. I am really glad to receive encouragement from her, and I believe that the other members will feel the same way too. Really thank God for such a wonderful person in my life. =) Jia You Louisa! I believe that God has see what you have sown and I believe that you will reap with joy! ^^

:: The Journey To 2009 ::

31/12/2008, Wednesday

After my work end, I took a walk ard Raffles Place for a sight-seeing, before I say goodbye to my workplace. It was really a beautiful sight. =) However, I was quite tired physically and I dun know where can I sleep, and I was wondering if I could just hide inside the toilet cubicle for a short nap. LOL.. I didn't of course. Haha.. After which, I meet up with Samuel, Terence, Derek at Junction 8 for a walk and to buy some snacks. Pascale joined us after that and we have some dessert. It was really delicious! Haha.. Thanks Terence and Derek. =)

After which, we walk to Tong's house. She stays in a really beautiful house and I had fun with the Ex-Zone members playing ard. We played Werewolf and it was really fun! Haha.. Had a great time talking to Aaron and Kelvin, and both of them are just so funny.

Wei Ming: So when will you be going to Taiwan?

Kelvin: Should be ard 10th April.

Wei Ming: Wah.. I think tat's very near Easter.

Kelvin: Ya.. I think so too.. How ah? I am gonna to miss the drama.

Aaron: Haha.. Den you just remember Easter and your days in Taiwan will be shorten.

Kelvin: Haha.. Yeah. I just imagine myself as Jesus carrying the Cross(Kelvin's fieldpack) and walk the 72km. Looks very alike hor? Haha.. 

(Aaron pretend to hold a whip and he began to whip Kelvin and he started singing the Easter song where Jesus get whip. "They shouted crucify. . . ." Kelvin was pretending to ouch here and there)

What a funny combo of brothers. LOL..

Soon.. We all gather for a countdown and we hold the sparkles! Thanks to Kelvin and Catherine for the contribution. Haha.. A joy to spent time with them in the very first moment of 2009!

01/01/09, Thursday

I spent most of the time fellowshiping with my bed. My best buddy of 2009! Cuz I'm really sleepy as I have lack of sleep. Called Kelvin and SMS Joseph before they flew off. Haha.. Look forward for both of you to come back. 

02/01/09, Friday

Last day of work in Munich Re. Really miss working with them. They took care of me very much. Some treated me like a son, and some joked that I can be their son-in-law. Haha.. I think I am not really to be any relationship with in-laws, cuz I never take law as a degree. Haha.. Miss you guys!

Chorus Board dinner at CHIJMES. It was fun. Haha.. I didn't talk much as it was quite a big gathering from both JW and Expo, and there were alot of unfamiliar faces. Really hope to know all more. =) 

03/01/09, Saturday

Serve at JW Service 1. This Service rocks man. Haha.. I couldn't go for Expo Service cuz I wanna cook for my mum as it's her birthday today. Happy Birthday Ma Ma! All dish that I cook are okok, except for the chicken wings, it's not cook properly. Haha.. I also realised that I use the wrong flour to fry. Haha.. No wonder it's not crispy enough. =P

Starting school soon! Really hope that I can do well in this school. =)

:: Goodbye 2008 ::

Goodbye 2008! When will I ever see you again? I shall miss you! :'(

This year, I am quite happy of what I have become in 2008. I have achieved certain things which I have never dream of in the beginning of this year. Have I fulfill the goals that I have set this year? I would say only 20% are fulfilled. Haha. . . However, what's the point of crying and regreting not able to achieve it? It's time to move on . . .

However, 2008 has left somethings that I wanna thank God for. . . ^^

#1) God: You see me through all the obstacles that I went through. You lift me up when I fall down. You showed me that You are the only source where I can turn to. You are my hero. You gave me the talents in giving me ideas to do birthday cards in 2008. I have never imagine that I can do the cards that some might have touch the member's hearts. Although I very much wanted to give up and not doing anymore cards in 2009 because of some issues, You spoke to me through the testimony of Sun and LiLian during Christmas. I will used what You have given to me and to bless the members. Although there are obstacles that came along the way, I will surely find ways to do it. =)

#2) W421: Thank you guys so much for being a wonderful group of friends! I would like to thank specially Sharon, Wei Jian, Pascale, Louisa, Si Hui, Kelvin and Derek. Thank you so much for helping me in my walk with God. The rest of the W421, I love you all too. It's really a joy to fellowship with you guys! This CG is really different and it's full of talents in each individual members! May our friendship grew up into another level in 2009!

"May we grow old together in church." - Louisa Althea

#3) Chorus Board: Thank you Kelvyn and May, my Expo team leader. Thank you for giving me a chance to go over to Jurong West to serve. It has given me much opportunity to do more in this ministry. =) Si Hui, thank you so much for being such a wonderful sister in Chorus Board. I really love talking with you as you will always pump faith into our spirit. Jacelyn, Meng Wei, Laura, Rosa, Su Ping, thank you so much for guiding me when I came over to Jurong West, to learn from the beginning before the Side Board is set up. You guys are truely a blessings in my life. =)

#4) Andrew, Shing: My fellow church mates cum faith inspiring bloggers! It's really amazing and a blessing to read your blogs. Have I ever mentioned that what you guys have blog actually touches my heart sometimes? And it is like a word for me when I need it. I pray that God will continue to use both of you in 2009 to have a greater anointing over your blogs and that it will touches the hearts of your hungry readers! May our friendships will also go up to another level as we discover each other more.

#5) MJ Zone: This is one of the best zones that I have ever been to! Although I am in JS Zone now, but I still love this ex-zone of mine very much. Sorry Jimmy, maybe JS Zone will be my best zone in 2009, but for 2008, its non-other than MJ Zone. Not purposely say because you don't let me in during the Christmas Eve Service. LOL. It's because I have only been in the new zone for 4 months, and W421 has only been with one of your zone CG for one outing, so I can't give any comments. Ming Jing, you are truely the best ZS in CHC. I love the BS lessons that you taught and I am going to miss the days of your zone camp. Although the zone activities may be too youthful, full of excitement to attend, BUT, it's the atmosphere that your zone creates really make me fall in love with the zone. There's something special about your zone in spiritual realm, and I really hope that one day I attend one of your zone activities. ^^

#6) Joseph Lim: My MJ Boon Lay friend! What an awesome opportunity to know you bro. I pray that the coming year in 2009 we will know each other better and I pray that our friendship will grow! Continue to run after the dreams of OCS that God has call you to be an officer to impact the army camps! =)

#7) AeMF/DART: My fellow Airforce buddies. Although I have disappoint you guys time and again and vice versa, but I really enjoy spending time with you all in the hangar. I miss those times when we carry out "missions" together. =) I would also like to thank my Shift I/C, SSG Koh Chuan Quan and SSG Tan Poh Kok, for sending me home when we work together in the same shift. Although you guys may be of a higher rank, but you guys never look down on the "small flies" like us. =) You guys has also help me save quite a few hundred dollars just because of the transportation fees! =)

#8) Family: How can I forget about them? My dad and my mum. I love you guys so much. Although there may be times I will argue, quarrel and lazy to do the things you guys ask me to do, but I really love you all. Thank you so much for lending me/blessing me money when I need it urgently. I know that it's quite shameful to ask/borrow money at this age, but you guys still willing to give. My siblings! Thank you so much for bringing joy into my life. Hopefully in 2009 we will understand each other better! =)

#9) Singapore Power, Munich Re: Thank you so much! Especially my new found sweet Jie Jie June(MR). I really thank God for giving me an opportunity to know you. You stay at Jurong too, hopefully one day we can meet up for coffee. Thank you Angela(MR), you are one of the nicest supervisor that I have ever meet. Thank you Grace(SP), you are such a cute aunty. Haha. . . Thanks for showing your love over me and give me a crystal, for some alert purpose. I don't know where it is now, and I don't believe in it, but I really wanna thank you for loving me. =) 

#10) Wei Ming: Haha.. Of course, of all the people in the world, I should never forget about myself. =P Although sometimes I will hate you, but sometimes I will find you cute. Wei Ming, I know that it's hard for you sometimes, to go through the torment no one will understand, but let's really go through this together alright? You are not alone. I love you always and you are my best friend! 

Farewell 2008 & Happy Birthday Si Hui(W421)!

:: Operation Save The World ::

Chorus Boarders, TV Crew with Operation Save The World! Can you spot me?

The lovely angels of Chorus Board!

Look at my wings! Am I praying or am I flying? Haha. . 

:: Christmas! ::

Happy Birthday to Jesus and my sister Mei Hui! Jesus, thank You so much for being with me all this while, and seeing me through all the ups and downs I go through. Although I have let You down alot of times, but yet You stood by my side, giving chances to get up again. I love You. Happy Birthday! 

Angels say: Jesus, speech! Ok??

Jesus: OKkkkk. . . 

LOL.. I love "Operation Save The World". Every part of the drama, I do enjoy myself very much at Jurong West Service 6. Although I serve on Christmas Eve at Jurong, I miss most of the drama as I was checking songs with Annalbel and Kelvin, to prepare for the songs for the second Service, how the songs flow especially it was a bilingual Service. We have to know when will they be singing in Chinese and English. I though that it could watch the drama at Expo, but I was wrong, very wrong. . . .:'(

The second Service at JW was delayed, thus I requested my ministry leader if I can leave early to go Expo. She allowed and she asked Jia Bin, one of my ministry frenz to replace me. I reached Expo around 7.10p.m and that's the worst feeling that I have ever experience, because for the first time in my life attending CHC, I was being turned away for Service! How disappointing can that be? 

Thousands of people were queueing up outside Hall 8, all the way to Hall 7, or even Foyer 3, I don't know, because I was stuck in between Hall 7. When my ZS, Jimmy told the crowd to leave, alot of people are very disappointed. I saw groups of families leaving, new frenzs that have come also leave. Inside my heart, I was very sad because I rushed all the way down from JW! My heart feel very sorry for the people because they could be the ones who walked down the altar call. The people leave with unhappy hearts. Even they gave us the "priority letter" to enable us to have the seats first for the next few services, but somehow, it's just very different. 

Even when the people plead the ushers to let them in, saying that their bags are inside, saying that the frenzs will be flying off the next day, they die die don't let us in. Initially, I want to abused my Ministry Pass, but I don't want to, as I feel that it's not a very nice thing to do. I miss both romantic candlelight services with W421. That's so sad. . . :'(

There are still people who insisted queuing even thought we were told to leave, and I was one of them. Jimmy made a funny statement, "Hello everyone, thank you for your persistence in queing, but the hall is already 100% filled and there's no more seats for you. . . . . I am telling you the truth, and the truth shall set you free." =.! It's not CHC who don't allow us into the Hall, but they have to stick to the Expo fire safety regulations, if they exceed the capacity of crowd, they have to shut down the service. I think it's because of the candlelight Service bah, if not we can squeeze more people in. Hopefully by 2011 we can have our own building! We can have 15,000 - 18,000 ppl also no problem! Haha. . . 

So during the altar call, I finally get inside to the Hall. =.! I joined my CG for fellowship. It was really a joy to spent time fellowshipping with W421. We went to Bugis MacDonald's to makan, after that, we walked to Esplanade. It was a fun time of laughter! Haha. . . Murderer was the favourite, and we never get tired of it. Haha.. I went over to Derek's house to stay over. Two man in a room having S. . . . Hmm. . .  Haha.. No lah, we never do anything against the law. Haha.. Hmm.. Two man in a room having a sleep, separately. Thanks Derek, you are a very nice host to me. ^^

Thank you W421, Sharon, Pascale, Louisa, Terence and Jacelyn. =) Thanks Sharon and Pascale for trying to get me in. Thanks Louisa for your SMS, it really make feel love and not alone. Thanks Terence for trying to get me in. =) I am sorry that I have interrupted you in the midst of drama. Thank you Jacelyn for your SMS. "Just think that you have given up your seats for someone who walk down to the altar call". =)

I was serving at JW today again. Actually, I SMS my leader yesterday if I could attended the 12.30p.m Service @ Expo with my CG, but I can't because it's too late for her to find replacement. I actually wanted to go because in Expo they have the angels to fly during the drama, and I was thinking of spending time with my CG too. I decided to obey my leader and I serve. Inside my heart, I was thinking this could be the worst Christmas that I have, but it's not until . . . . . .

After giving Alison, the vocalist to sign the evaluation form(Some forms for the BVs to grade on us how we flashed the songs for them to see), I was about to take the lift to level 4 when Jacelyn, my ministry leader called me. She called me to went over to the stage so I went. 

I have never visualized myself taking photos with the drama team! Haha.. What a awesome privilege! It really brighten up my Christmas just having to take photos with them, with the lovely angels that fly in Expo that I yearn to see, but now, we were as a huge team in a photo! Haha.. Indeed, God sees! Hahaa.. Thank You Jesus! =)

I also try putting on the lovely wings and it was a dream come true. I was serving and I saw the group of angels on the choir stage, and I was thinking in my mind, "How I wish that I can be one of the lovely angels" Hahaa.. Thank You Jesus, for making my dream come true! Happy Birthday! =)

:: Love ::

Recently I have not been doing well spiritually, I didn't pray often and my mind was occupy by things which is not correct before God. It was like a journey to hell. I can choose to react differently, however I choose the latter. All because I was let down by someone, I feel lost, I feel disappointed, and I hurt God in the end. I blame the person in my mind, blaming him/her that I choose this path is because of what he/she do to me. I know some might say, "Why did you hurt God? God didn't make you sad what? Why must you hurt Him? It's your friend who have hurt you!"

True.. Many a times we hurt God in the end for the things He did not do. People backslide because of some unhappiness in the church, people leave church because he/she was let down by some leaders or members. But have they(including me) know that God is really innocent? He is not part of the unhappiness and argument. Why do they choose this path? 

This morning when I woke up, I was reminded by a powerful word, "Love". I didn't think too much about it, and I just hurried off to work. I just thought of how and what should I do? My mind was drifting in the sky, finding some place to land. . .

I was asked to go to Ministry Of Manpower to run some errand during lunch hour today. Therefore, I didn't settle my lunch near my office. I came across this place call "Breakthrough Cafe" and I decided to settle my lunch there. When the food arrived, I notice this piece of paper on the table, and then I get to know that this cafe is special because all the workers there are ex-offenders. They were given a second chance through a christian ministry that helps them back to re-integrated back to the society, to be the salt and light in the workplace. The people there are very friendly and they served the customers with a smile. 

I look around the shop as I was quite curious. I have never been to a christian cafe before. (I once work in a cafe in NUS. It played Future and Cross album by CHC but its not a christian cafe at all. Haha..) Anyway, I love the atmosphere at the Breakthrough Cafe and I took my time to enjoy the coke that I ordered. 

I saw this painting on the wall, and this is what the painting says. . . 

"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength, and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself"

- Luke 10:27

I was surprised when I see this painting. Is God trying to tell me something? I believe that God is trying to speak to me about loving Him all over again. . .

From this verse alone, we can see that loving God is not just merely but what you confess or by what you say. Once we make a decision to follow Jesus and to love Him, God requires four things from us. 

#1) All your heart

#2) All your soul

#3) All your strength

#4) All your mind

He wants our heart, soul, strength and our mind. Notice that God speaks about "All". All means 100%. It means everything of us. He didn't say 50% or a partial of our heart, soul, strength and mind. He wants our All.

Meaning to say that even when I am . . .

- Being disappointed or let down, He still wants All of my Heart.

- Feeling lost or don't know what to do, He still wants All of my Soul.

- Tired or having no energy to do anything, He still wants All of my Strength.

- Being occupied by the busyness of life, He still wants All of my Mind.

Let this be a test to us if we really love God. Of course, there are some other things which require to keep in our mind too. Such as keeping His commandments, etc. However, I believe that this is the basic requirements that God has for us to love Him, because of the decision we make at the altar call. =)

Special thanks to Shing who share about "A Pure Heart". Go to her link 

http://shingology.blogspot.com to read more. It's really awesome! =) Some of her things that she share came to let me have this revelation too. 

Hope you are bless! =) Off to do something! ;)

:: Christmas Party ::

On Friday, my workplace has a Christmas party. Haha.. Well, I thought its too early to celebrate but my workplace started to have it. Haha.. The food is really good! We have food from Old Chang Kee, Delifrance, Sakae Sushi, Pizzas and they serve wine. Haha.. However, I didn't drink wine because I don't like the taste at all. Haha.. If I drink, it's just for fun for maybe I just want my body to have some benefits from the good side of wine. ^^

Basically, I am just like a office boy in this company. =) Though its sort of a low class status in the company but I love doing the job. Sometimes I would have to run errands here and there, but I don't mind. I am also the youngest in the department! Haha.. The big jie jie(sisters) address me as Ah Boy. Haha.. Feel so happy when they called me by that name. Got one lady say I don't look like 23, but some 18-19 year old boy. Haha.. I am just like Clyde in W421, youngest in the company although I am the oldest in the CG. Haha.. How I wish that I am the youngest in the CG tooo. . . ^^

I once know this group of people and I followed them to go clubbing at XXXXXXXX to celebrate one of the guy's birthday. Haha.. It's not some sex club, but I can't really remember the name le. That was in the year 2004 ba. I was the youngest in the click too. Haha.. Feel so bless in a way wor. Haha.. During that time, I didn't really enjoy myself much because I feel that the environment is very noisy. They are very generous in the music but yet they created noise pollution at the same time. They saved money on the lights and they have to use different colors of spotlight to shine here and there, instead of having a proper light to light up the whole room. LoL.. That's the view of a person who don't appreciate the value of clubbing. =P I don't think I will go to such places in future unless for any good strong reason, like supporting Glenn in his band. Haha...

I'm so excited for next week CG on Sunday. It's gonna be a great time as we celebrate Christmas. WooHooo!! Going to sleep le, serving tml at JW! =)