:: Re-Calling Back The Past ::

I saw Joseph at the first night of Asia Conference. The Joseph I am talking about is not the one from W372, but he is my secondary school friend. We catch up abit and he was in a hurry back home with his friend, so we didn't really talk much.

Actually, few weeks back, I have notice him in Service 2, but I am not sure if its really him because we have not been seeing each other since 2002 after we graduated from secondary school. I was in a hurry to the toilet that time and I though I may say "Hi" after I come back, but he's not at his seat already, so I didn't really think too much about it anymore.

We have been in the same class since Sec 2. Back then, I have a classmate - Dwight, and he share about Christ with me. Every time during recess, Dwight will approached me and he will shared the gospel with me, giving me bible studies, etc. However, I didn't go to his church as my mum is strongly against it. Soon, when my other classmate knew that I am a christian, I was being "laugh" by some of my classmates, and I remember Joseph saying, "Why you become a christian? You see all christian white white one". Haha.. Well, I was quite tanned that time because I was in a uniform group - SJAB while my christian classmate is really fair skin one. Haha. . . Dwight decided to give me a christain name - Daniel. When I used it, I was being "scolded" by the girls. =.= Reason being "Daniel" is used by handsome guys, and their idol is Daniel Chen Xiao Dong. Haha.. Well I guess we were all kids back at those days.

Now, he has been attending church, I am not sure if he has been integrated to his friend's CG. Besides, he is not fair and he's quite tanned too. Haha.. Indeed, salvation is here. Hope to catch up with Joseph Tan more. =)

:: Asia Conference 2008 ::

This is the most exciting conference that I have ever attended! The 5 intensive days is just jam packed with people from 72 countries and a total of more than 20,000 delegates, plus our church membership of 24,000 ppl. It's really amazing.

I did a very "bad" thing during the first night of the conference. Hmm. . . Not really a bad thing, but I was just not tactful with my words, and it happened during the 5 minute conversation with our neighbours. My neighbour is a local delegate from a church in Singapore, but she will attend Service 2 every Saturday in Expo, (I am in serious trouble), and she will attend her own church Service on Sunday.

Our conversation goes on, until it came to this part, which I say something wrong.
Me: "So how long have you been a christian?"
Her: "Oh. . . For a very long time already"
Me: "Oic.. Since you were a youth?"
Her: "Ya.. My frenz brought me to church back then"
Me: "Wow.. That's so long ago"

She was silence when I say that. My mind was in a blank too. Then I realised that what I just say is trying to say that she is very old. =.= (Most woman are very sensitive about age)

God, I pray and I pray and I pray that I won't bump into her in Service 2. God, I pray that You will speak into her heart and move her to go over to Service 1 in Jurong West! I pray this in Jesus most precious name, Amen!!

I was sharing this "humour" with Samuel the following night, and he was half smiling, and I guess half surprise. Haha.. We were at Hall 10 when I share this to him, just then, the LED screen show the video of Tips and Stuff and the title was "How to have a good conversation", and it was just about 1-2 minutes after I shared with him! Both Samuel and I was just laughing away. LOL. . . And Samuel to me, "This is for you." LOL.. And I think I say "Amen". =.= (I think the video crew of Tips & Stuff can consider my example to produce it. Hahahaha)

God, forgive me, for I don't know what I say.

I love the new song "Elevate", "The God I Know", "Heaven", etc alot. I wanted to get hold of the CD!! However, it stopped me because my savings are really depleting and I don't think it can last me till December. I am still jobless and I wonder should I go to Changi Village to earn a living. Haha.. No lah, I was just kidding and I won't do such things. I believe that God will provide for me. =)

Among all the night sessions that I have attended, I enjoyed the last session the most. Not really because it is a beautiful night with a grand closing, but its because what Dr A.R Bernard preach and I can catch the most among the rest of the preachers. Haha. . . I'm not saying the rest of the preachers don't know how to preach, its I don't receive it well. Thankfully, I received the Word the most at the last session, although it might not directly apply for me for now. =)

Some things happened and it set me into thinking. Something is pulling me away, something is drawing me back. What will happen to me in the end? I don't know. I guess I shall soon find out an answer. Something is happening. . .

:: Updates ::

Had an interview with Keppel Shipyard this morning. Haha.. This is the first time I had a proper interview. The other time I had interview with Singapore Power was a very simple one, I was just being inform of my job scope and I was being hired the next day. (They need people urgently cuz of the system upgrading) Haha..

I could say that I did my best ba. Well, I am not a man of many words. :'( So, when the lady interview me, I didn't express myself very well. Never mind. Whether I am hired anot, its another thing. =) At least, I gained an experience of having interview. Haha..

The environment is not those very high class working environment. Alot of workers with helmet can be seen walking around, with super huge ships, etc. The environment is just like the Channel 8 drama few years ago, "最高点" by Christopher Lee and Dawn. Haha.. It will be quite a good experience if I work there. So in my life, I would say that I have deal with F16 and ships before. Haha.. =D

I was just browsing through the hardware zone about MLM . Well, I am NOT surprised by alot of negative comments about them. Well, it may seem suitable for some people, but definitely not for me. In my past experience working with a company somewhere in Shenton Way in 2004, I had a super bad experience with them. I was quite excited about this company when I initially joined. Haha.. Soon, I realised that its not what I really want. My upline will always say why I have no friends and will force me to bring friends. (Of course lah, if I bring friend, they earn money mah) I remember there are about 2 guys who share "testimony" of how this company has change them. The tone that they use has betray them. They change because they want to prove to others of what they can achieved in life, but their character seems to be the same anyway. It's the character that will bring you far in life, not by the achievements in life. Your attitude determines your altitude. They will always asked me to go down to to learn new things. Haha.. Do I apply them in life now? I have already long forgotten what I learn. Most of my uplines has already quit for good. (About more than 5 ba, but that's 4 years ago. Could be more than this figure by now) I really thank God that I am no longer dealing with such "business". =)

I would still prefer to earn money by the skills that I have contributed to the company, not by calling people down to the company to listen to some crap. Call me old fashion or what, I don't care. =)

P.S: Hey my friends, I am not targeting anyone when I am blogging this. :) If you are in MLM line, you are still my friend. Just don't keep bugging me to listen to your company's stories. :)

I am trusting God for His provision. =)

:: Back from BS ::

God grant my desire today. I have always been complaining how bored I am at home. (I did search for jobs, but the doors seems to be shut.) By faith, I believe that I should be receiving good news this 2 weeks! Anyway, because of the desire for the borness to be filled, there are activities that kept me occupied from Wed to Sun. Haha.. I request Jian for me to be excuse on Thursday as I don't want to go out everyday as my mum won't like it, but I will still be going to Jurong Point to buy Printer from Harvy Norman tml as my mum needs it. =.=

Learn about "Discerning Balance" today. The bible says that we should walk the narrow way, and at the same time, we have to be beware of Antinomianism and Legalism. We cannot always think that God's grace are cheap and keep sinning and keep thinking that God will keep forgiving us. Yes, God will forgive us for our sins, but we cannot take it for granded. God has emotions too. =) It's quite fearing when Jeremy talks deep about this lesson. No saying that Jeremy cook up story to scare his students, but its from the bible.

“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’
- Matt 7:21-23

Bringing it on to the other end, we should not be like the Pharisees. They like to major on the minor and minor on the major and come out with man-made laws. Haha. . . When Jesus performed healing on the Sabbath Day, the Pharisees make noise. (Imagine like the typical Ah Bengs and Ah Lians in a typical neighbourhood school disturbing the class) Haha.. No lah, just kidding. The Pharisees asked why Jesus was working on the Sabbath Day, but was being shoot back. (Serve them right. Haha.. =P) Imagine a man who is going to die and you say, "Oh... I cannot save you today. Because today is the Sabbath Day", and you watch the man die painfully and slowly? So the Pharisees have miss out the whole point over here. The people will worship God on that day, so is there anything wrong with the man who receive healing from God? God is omnipresent. He did not just appear on weekdays and disappear on weekends. Our God is a true and a living God who is 24/7 available. How great is our God! =)

Meet Derek after BS at Central. After that, we go walk walk around the shops along Singapore River. It's really a beautiful sight with different colours of lights reflecting on the water, the beautiful lights along the street. Haha.. See, light attracts people. Therefore, Christians have to be the light of the world. Haha.. It is really a romantic sight. . . (Wei Ming is dreaming of falling in love) Haha.. Don't get the wrong idea. We are not gay couple. Nothing wrong with two guys walking down a beautiful street together. LOL.. =P

That's all for today. Going to sleep and off to Jurong West for Prayer Meeting. =)

:: Morning Prayer Meeting @ JW ::

A good morning to start with to pray. =) Really wanna thank the church for having such prayer meetings. Haha... The auditorium was filled with people and the atmosphere was good.

God answer one of my prayers! Haha.. An unusual thing happened when I pray for this particular thing regarding about my family on Monday, and I was abit surprised when the "someone" in my family actually talked to me, although it's just one sentence. - "If you want to eat, you can take it." Haha.. That "someone" has actually declare a cold war to almost all of my family members, and will only talked to us when required any help. Sometimes when I talk to that "someone", is as if I am talking to a wall. Although the situation did not turn out to be completely good, but at least God is doing something in my family. =)

When I prayed last time, my mouth will just say and my mind will not focus on what I am praying. After Pastor Kong share about the fourth dimension and Sharon talk about prayers, my thinking about prayer change. The new revelation of prayer comes when Sharon asked us to pray for those members who are not here in CG, and to focus on them. I believe that its really powerful.

"For as he thinks in his heart, so is he."
- Pro 23:7

As we begin to think while we pray, God say "so is he". Therefore, when the words that proceed from our mouth plus the thoughts from our heart, I believe the prayer that you just pray is very powerful. Haha.. So, I am gonna to focus what I prayed now, focusing on the outcome of what God will do, and not just the problems itself. Very often, if you focus on the problem, most of the time, it will still be a problem, because that is what you focus when you pray. So, let's just focus on the victory, the breakthrough, and VISUALISE that God has already did it for us! Haha.. Haha.. My favorite vocabulary is "VISUALISE" for now. =)

I just realised that it's my blog birthday today! Pls send it your wishes for him! =D Happy Birthday buddy! Do you know where your name came from? It's blog is actually named after an inspirational worship song "God of My Forever". Haha.. Nice blog name right? =P

:: A Touch From God ::

As the previous blog that I have mentioned, some things happened during the end of the fellowship yesterday and I was grieved. Well, McFlurry doesn't help me for long, because I am just like numbing my feelings for a short while. It came back to me again. So I decided to go to the House of God - City Harvest Church @ Jurong West, Service 4 to experience something, a healing of my heart.

I was late for Service. By that time, the congregation were already in the midst of worship, singing "Worshiping You". Still, I managed to get a good seat and I worshiped God. Tears begin to flow down as two unhappy incident kept coming into my mind. I kept pouring out my emotions, as I want God to heal my hurts, my doubts and a certain relationship. Beside coming to God in church, I have no other way of expressing my hurts to God during that time. I want to ran to a place to hide, and that's church. If I continued to stay at home that time, I don't know what will happen to me.

Whenever I go for double service - Sat Expo and Sunday JW for serving, I will had a clearer message about what Pastor preached. Yes, I will do the unusual so that I can see my life being manifested! Haha. . .

Hmm.. Although I feel the touch of God during that Service, but my feelings are still much affected, but not as much. =) Back home, I couldn't take it again. I ran to my room to cry. I asked God to show me, asked God for an answer. I just kept crying and crying.

I saw Kelvin online, and I had a chat with him. Man, he was really a good listener and very sincere. Thinking back, I have rarely share with him much about my life. After sharing with him, he ask if I have any other prayer request, and I just share with him. And blam! I really feel very very much better. - I think he had just prayed for me! Hahaa.. And I have "No More Tears". (Johnson & Johnson Baby Shampoo) Haha.. Things started to change when I asked him if its okay if I SMS the members to join in to pray for him. (Louisa knows the outcome. . .) Haha.. This whole afternoon, I really see how God heal my heart. The healing may not be instant, but it will come for sure. =)

I also shared with him alot of my stories. How my English names - Simon, Daniel came about, how I used to have alot of other English names, and some other stuff. I never knew Kelvin is someone who will "bother" to care one. Haha.. Really, I feel so bless this afternoon. =)

Of course, love is not just about receiving, its about giving too. Even though I may not be loved back, I will still want to try to love others, because that is the DNA of my Father in heaven. =)

I also had a good chat with Louisa just now. Haha.. Louisa, don't worry about me k? I will learn to guard my heart, protect my spirit and don't let other people problems affected it. ^^ Thanks so much. Lastly, thank You God, for placing me in such a wonderful family in CHC, and in W421. =)

:: Arise & Build ::

Great service! This year Arise & Build is very very different from the previous campaign. The atmosphere is very different and the way Pastor flow with the Service also change. Haha.. Well, it was really good. =)

Fellowship was very good with W421 at T3, and we bump into Ruyi! Haha.. So "qiao" right? She didn't join us for fellowship as she was with her study friends. Hmm.. Looking forward for you to join us wor.. ^^

Went over to viewing gallery to fellowship and we saw a big CG there. Haha.. Our secret spot is not longer secret anymore. =.= Still, it was good and it was a good time chatting, and with Louisa's greatest tutor - Samuel that joined us. Haha.. So "qiao" his brother is a CGL in MJ Zone. Haha. . . So many "qiao".. Is God showing us that our CG will have a new member call Qiao Qiao? =P

Anyway. . . Something happen towards the end of the fellowship while we are leaving the airport and I was quite grieved. :'( Haiz. . . Hopefully all things will turn out well in the end. I pray that I will be more tactful in my words in future. Or maybe, I will just keep my mouth shut and be as quiet as a mouse.

There are so many things that I want to write here, but I can't as it's rather sensitive. Anyway, all things will turn out good for those who love Him. =) Get myself a Mcflurry ice-cream to numb myself, and it helps. =)

NS guys, do Jia You wor.. =) Aaron, Yan Qiu, Kelvin, Terence & Derek. - You guys will be always in our prayers! A song dedicated for you...

"Everyday I live I know You're my God,
I lift my face and look to You my God.
Even when I am being screamed and pumped for no reasons,
I'll stand with You, my Jesus take my all."

Joseph, you are not forgotten too. ^^ I pray for your 10 days adventure in Tekong shall be a great one.

"My God reigns,
His love will never me.
My God reigns,
He's ruling over all.
All my life,
In every situation I know.
My God is greater,
My God is over all"

I pray that in every situations that you go through in Tekong, you will face it strongly and confidently. God is always greater than all the situation that we go through. =) Keep trusting. . .

:: 100th Post ::

Wooo.. This blog has gone through, stay with me for almost a year le. And I am celebrating its 100th post today! Haha. . . Sorry blog, no birthday cake for you, simply because its not your actual birthday and you can't eat the cake unless I smash the cake on the laptop screen. =P

Why blog? Well, interesting question. Pastor always mention that people will tend to forget what they learn if they never copy down notes. However, I couldn't write down what happen in my life, so I just blog lor. . . But sometimes I will purposely left out those incidents which are not so good to remember one. Since I have the gift of STM(Short Team Memory), therefore I exercise my faith in using that gift for this purpose, so that I won't remember what happen to me. Haha.. Yeah, I'm talking crap now. Haha.. If you have attended FF1 Lesson 3 which talks about Discerning Truth, you will know that the gift that I have is fake!

And yepx.. I have been attending FF1 for 3 lessons now. It was conducted by Jeremy, a ZS in Service 3. (He introduced himself that way in Lesson 1) A pretty interesting teacher and his lessons are never boring. (Of course right? How can an interesting teacher teach boring lesson?) =.= Haha.. So anyway, it was a good step as I have not been attending BS lessons for ages. My ex-BS teacher cum ZS is the same person. Haha.. I miss those times man, especially his laughter. Hahaa... Oh yeah, I saw him at Riverwalk Toilet on Wed, and he can still remember my name. So touch.. Haha.. Cuz the other time he only remember I am from Sharon's CG. =D

It's Arise & Build this weekend! I have an amount already, but the faith inside of me isn't too strong. I believe that as I begin to give, God will do something good in my family. (Yeah, my family is going through some kind of problems now, but it's much better now compare to the blog sometime ago, but it can be BETTER!) Areas like my breakthroughs, healings, career, studies, etc. It's machiam like a turning point in my life. =)

Do pray for me yeah? I looking for a job now and I hope that I can save up enough money for my course fees in ACCA(its not a CCA, its ACCA), Driving Course(not very passionate about it but will still want to go since I have pass my Basic Theory), Guitar(maybe its time for me to learn guitar? I wanna to have guitar to blend in with my QT. Sharon also ask who want to learn guitar a few times. Haha.. Actually I kind of interested lah.. But hor, dun wanna take a step of faith to buy, plus its $$$), transportation, bills, tithes, offerings, and endless of buying this and that, etc. Haha.. So, money is really important, but I have to guard my heart, and not to let it rule over me. ^^

God, in You I trust. I surrender my all to You, in exchange for all of You. =)

:: The Boon Lay Friendship ::

I meet up with Joseph this morning to have breakfast together. It was a great time of fellowship and a time of catching up with each other lives. =)

I get to know Joseph earlier this year in May outside Marina Square on one of the Saturday nights after Service through Louisa. At first, I didn't really know him well because we didn't have each other contacts. Haha.. Very detail and precise right? =P It was only until after his BMT and before his OCS we started to hit off the friendship as we have each other's contact. Firstly, we are of the same zone (as of May 2008) and secondly, we stay at Boon Lay too. Travelling to Expo from Boon Lay was one of the most boring journey ever since CHC shifted there, so I will divided it into three stages. From Boon Lay to Redhill - Stage 1 (Before Tunnel). From Tiong Bahru to Lavender - Stage 2 (Inside Tunnel). From Kallang to Expo - Stage 3 (After Tunnel). Haha. . . So I thought, "Hey, maybe the journey to church won't be bored anymore." But so far we haven travel together, but soon it will.. Haha. . .

I want to treasure this friendship alot cuz he is someone who is very different from the people that I have known in church. He have this character in him that really draw friends to him, and I just couldn't explain it. Haha... He's one of the main reason why I look forward for my breakthroughs. Haha.. Is he so impactful in my life? I would say, "Yes". =)

Hearing his NS stories, I would think, I am really bless that I didn't go through this tough times during my NS. Some might say, "So are you trying to say that God love you more than Joseph?" Of course no man. =) God has a different purpose for us when He place His people. God never intend to make him suffer in OCS, but I believe that it is to make him to have a stronger character and a greater leadership. Really feel so him because it's not an easy journey to go through, if I am inside, I wonder what will happen to me. . . Haha. . . As I was blogging, it just remind me of one verse in 1 Cor 10:13 - "He will keep the temptation from becoming so strong that you can't stand up against it." Similarly, God will not made us suffer what we can't take it. It is through this that will break us, mould us, shape us to be a great leader in God's Kingdom. Amen? =)

Joseph, you must Jia You k? =) Looking forward to address you as LTA Joseph in June 2009! Kelvin, you are included too.. ^^

All the best in your OCS Joseph, and a toast to our friendship!

:: Updates ::

I would like to thank everyone, especially my beloved CG, W421, so giving me a surprise on the day before my birthday! Haha.. This is one of the greatest gift that I have ever receive in my entire 23 years of my life! It's made with love, and I was just overwhelmed by the gift. Haha.. Really so touch, and I tell God, "God, I don't deserve such gifts and love from them."

Not forgetting people like Joseph, Catherine, Si Hui(Chorus Board) Robert, Gen, Paul, Wilfred, YiLin, Thomas, Elfie, Aldrich, Yik Hoe, Afiq and Roger who send me their wishes. Especially Joseph, who call to wish me even thought he is very busy inside camp, really appreciated all of you guys, I feel so love. (I am flying.. I am flying.. - Rose, Female Lead Actress in Titanic)

And how can I forget my another wonderful family in CHC? Haha.. I am so touch by Chorus Board when they celebrated my birthday! Haha.. Especially the speech Meng Wei, Jacelyn and Rosa. Rose keep challenging me to visualise what are the achievements will I get for my next birthday, and its quite stressful. Haha.. Cuz I have to be very precise for my wish! (Maybe she just graduated from SOT this year, that's why she is a very very detail person) Hahaha..

Gifts I received from both my CG and Chorus Board, includes T-Shirt, sweets, lamp, pillow and a awesome CD by CCC. I am just so blown away by the gifts! I have been wanting to buy a CD badly for my QT, but I keep stopping myself from buying cuz its too expensive. Haha.. Thank you very much guys! =) Now, I can also use the lamp from my CG to do QT, to imagine myself in the Holy of the Holies when I switch of the lights. Hehe.. =P

Recently, I heard from one of my close friends that he/she just lost a very close friend of his/hers. I do not really know the reasons why they break off this friendship, but it is his/her friend who wants to break it off. They use to be very close, but due to some other commitments, they seldom contact le. Sad huh?

You see, we are only close with the circle of friends of our influences, for me I have my CG, church, workplace, etc. We are close with them because we are seeing each other for almost every day or every week. For my poly, sec, pri school friends, I have seldom contact with them le, but does that make them strangers? NO! Of course NO! I just don't understand why his/her friend have such concept in his/her mind. I never contact the person means I don't friend that person? What a childish and selfish thinking, only wants people to love them and not taking the ownership of the friendship. Friendship is a two way thing, Period!

As we get older in age and progress in life, our circle of friends will change for sure, however to maintain the friendship, both parties have to take the ownership of the friendship. We will be busy in our lives, our studies, careers and sometimes we may not be as close as before, but still, we have to be make an effort to be interested in their lives, and not waiting for people to be knocking on your door to ask about you, etc.

Of course, if your friends have hurt you, you have to try to forgive them, but you can don't trust him/her completely. It doesn't mean that if you don't trust the person means you don't forgive them. I have some friends that I don't really trusted already, giving up hopes on them, but that doesn't mean that I don't forgave them or they are no longer my friends. =) (I did blog about a particular friendship that I have given up hope sometime back, but I guess I should forgive ba, but of course, trusting is a not a overnight thing, I think it will take a very long time for me to trust this person again)

:: Updates ::

Emo is the best word to describe me few hours ago, but I am pretty okay now after I share some stuff with Louisa after Service. Erm. . . Not really something very serious or bad, but something which everyone would long to have in their lifetime, not a bf/gf in this case, not something very big like our visions and dreams, but rather something simple - Friendship.

Friendship is the key which draws everyone together, like a group of atoms forming a molecule, the stronger the bond, the stronger the friendship. Sometimes I wonder, do I have a best friend in church? I would think for a very long time, but it seems that I just couldn't find the answer. (I need a brother to be my best friend because one of my love language is Physical Touch, so I would like to have a hug sometimes)

W421 are a group of very good friends that I have in church definitely. They are the best group of people to hang out with and fellowship with. However, somethings seems to be lacking between us. Maybe, I just haven found out any common topics that I would easily talk to them. Sometimes, I couldn't really catch the language they were talking about, and I feel so out of the world.

Dancing? Err.. No bah, the sun will rise from the west if Wei Ming likes dancing. K-boxing? Err.. Not really bah.. Wei Ming have no courage to sing. (Last time I sing with them machiam like talking to the mic) Haiz. . . Well, the only thing I think of is the common interest with Glenn and Louisa, because the 3 of us likes to make cards and gifts for CG while Louisa and I are more of having the "welfare" for the CG. We would be calling up each other to discuss what should we do for who, what surprises should we give, etc.

Louisa share with me that best friends need not to be find outside of CG, but it can be found within our CG itself. Si Hui and I talks quite easy too, but its the difference in gentle that set us apart(Not bias against sisters). I need time to understand Sharon better, because most of the time I look up to her as my CGL, like students looking up upon teachers in school. I can tell that she can be a very good friend, but I need more time to understand her. Hmm.. From what I know, she likes Smurfs, Soft-toys, Mango, Redhill Market Ice-Kachang? Also, I need more time to be close with Wei Jian, although we can talk easily to each other, but he's more of I look up to him as a spiritual brother to share things with and a counsellor. Hmm.. he love designing and have passion for youth? (However, that's not enough, I need more time to understand more of members' character and their language, not just their likes and dislikes)

You can see that I keep saying, more time, more time and more time, but hey, I have been in this CG for almost 2 years! We have been seeing each other for 52(weeks) x (2 - 1 CG, 1 Service) x 2 years already. That's about we have been seeing each other for about 208 times!! Isn't that more than enough time?? So when will it be? Till the second coming of Jesus Christ? Till our CG multiply and we don't really understand each other and wait till the next CG multiply and the cycle goes around again and again??

Set me into deep thinking, but will I do it? That's the other question. Is there a difference between understand members and having a best friend, I wonder?

Maybe, I shouldn't pin too much hopes of having a very best friend in church. Higher expectations will lead to a perfect friendship which is very impossible, because no one is ever perfect. Sometimes, we will do face disappointments from people if they didn't meet our needs, especially for a very sensitive person like me. Of course, I don't expect every single friends to meet all my needs, I am not some big shot of what, even Jesus Himself, not all His needs are meet by His disciples during His ministry days. I got to learn to give, to learn to take.

Wei Ming is gonna make an effort to understand his members now. =)

:: Crazy Mission ::

Decided to train my body as it has not been properly being maintain since I ORD. So, I decided to went for a jog. =)

Previously when I jog, I will always run the usual route around my house. However, this time round, I decided to take a challenge. I run along a road that I have never run before, and I reach SAFTI Military Institute! Haha.. Crazy right? Well, it's actually quite near to my house, just that it's not a common route that people will take to jog, so I decided to be a joker to jog. Haha. . .

Actually, I quite like the route that I jog because it's new, although its along the road and there are cars and lorries passing by. Haha. Well, I am not sure if OCS is located inside the camp, but I am quite sure that it could be inside, although I have not been to OCS before. So, I begin to start praying for the OCS guys, especially for Kelvin and Joseph. Not sure if it works, but I remember Chloe did this for her Marsiling Sec kids, so I decided to try it out too. Hahaa.. =P

I will be running more often this few days, more of the crazy route that I have chosen, to train for my IPPT. =)

Just to side track abit. How should you react when the birthday guy ask you if you were to celebrate birthday for him? Well, I experience that last Thursday. I was happily preparing myself to go out when this guy call me. I was stunned, lost of words, don't know what to say. Haha... So, I just encourage him to come for the meeting, but he say he consider first. Well, in the end, he did come.

Sometimes, I would desire the wisdom from God, so that I can really speak in a right way. =)

I stumble upon this photo when I was cleaning up my room just now. Man, it just bring back the memories of the good old days. . . . .

This photo was taken in 1950. Back den, I was still a young and strong 18 year old man. A happy go lucky guy, no worries and leading a carefree life. I came from a well to do family and money isn't a problem for me.

One day, I was bored and decided to go to the nearby river to catch some fighting fish to fight with my friends. Upon reaching the river bank, I was careless and I fell into a deep pit, it was so dark, very very dark. . .

When I woke up, everything was different, and I realised that I have come into the year 2003. From then on, I start my life new. No one knows my past, until now, the photo which I have shown you. . . I really miss my family and friends badly. . .

:: Loneliness ::

Although I can have a good rest at home, but I am pretty lonely. Yawn. . . How I wish that I could find something to do, to make myself useful. How I wish that I could SMS my friends all day long, but I couldn't possibly take out their time for the whole day. How I wish that I can go out, but I can't because I have to start saving money for the upcoming Arise & Build.

Submitting my resume for a final check before I submit to the company. Hopefully I can get the job as an application consultant. =)

:: Updates ::

Service was great, had a better revelation when I attend Service 4 during serving. =)

Brother Poh is back in leading praise again! So happy to see him leading and the whole church echo as well.

I was serving side board at Jurong West today. I went back to Main Hall to do side board, and I made plenty of mistake. Flashing the wrong verse, wrong bridge. LOL.. =P Thank God that the musicians didn't sing wrongly, or else you will see my head roll. HaHa.. I was being commented by Annabell. Well, not a very positive comments of course. But she was kind and forgiving, and she didn't scold me like a tigress. Hahaha.. Of course, I welcome any reprimand because I made the mistake. In ministry field, it's very important to have the spirit of excellence, because you are not just doing your job, you are serving God and basically the people, or the whole church. One mistake made can damage the atmosphere and the spirit of the whole congregation. Cheering myself on, especially when Arise & Build and Asia Conference are drawing near. =)

Jia You to my friends who are in OCS, BMT and in the army. =)

:: Freedom ::

I have been waiting for this moment for a very long time. Indeed, the sufferings, scoldings, unhappiness are finally over. Haha.. Just kidding, it's not as bad as what I have just mention above, but rather, I can reward my poor body who has been "physically abuse" by work. =)

Wait a minute. Don't get the wrong idea. I am not into any prostitution in the past. It's just that I am not a very morning person, so I don't like to drag myself out of the bed early in the morning. That's why I say I am being physically abuse. Haha.. Okay, I should use mentally abuse instead.

I will be applying for another soon. It's related to some admin stuff. Well, I just love doing admin stuff. Haha... Although it might sounds boring, at least it's not as challenging as programing and other kind of work. =)