I love this song. =) I love songs, music which are smoothing to ears, calming to the spirit and soul. I don't really like those heavy metal music, techno which are deafening to ears, more of noise pollution to me. Haha... No offense to those techno music lovers. =P But of course, church music may seems loud but they are very different, because you know what you are singing and the atmosphere is different. I'm not the type of "high" people, therefore, I don't like to go clubbing and all sort of activities, not because I want to act "holy", but its just me lor. Haha.. We're created all differently, aren't we? =)
Bought a copy of Straits Times on Saturday and I will be looking through for job opportunities later. =D It's a time to say goodbye to my current workplace in a month's time when contract ends. 1 month will fly past quickly, just like how 2 years of NS flew past me. I will not forget God's provision for me in this 2 months, indeed, He have bless me with some experience in work that I will never forget. Thank You God for helping me in this 2 months in work.
James 1:5
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Saturday, August 30, 2008
:: Stress ::
Maybe, I am not suitable for this. I don't have the capacity to handle such stress and the capacity to contain the heavy workload. Not exactly heavy, but it's quite alot for me. People say that you don't look how big the problem is, but look at how big God is and there's nothing that He can't do for us if we have the faith and ask for it. It's quite true, but I feel that it's giving me unnecessary stress.
Today Cell Group message was very good. It really spoke to my heart. Everything that I own belongs to God, and I shouldn't "complain" that why God gave others more than what He gave me. God gave everyone something, but He cannot give everyone everything. If He does, people will not see the point of having God in their lives, because they themself can do without God.
I will start to look for better job opportunities soon. Although I love the working environment, the workload is a heavy burden to me. I can't really handle it well. What's the point of staying when my heart seems to be miles apart? Looks like my heart has come out to a final conclusion.
28 more days...
Today Cell Group message was very good. It really spoke to my heart. Everything that I own belongs to God, and I shouldn't "complain" that why God gave others more than what He gave me. God gave everyone something, but He cannot give everyone everything. If He does, people will not see the point of having God in their lives, because they themself can do without God.
I will start to look for better job opportunities soon. Although I love the working environment, the workload is a heavy burden to me. I can't really handle it well. What's the point of staying when my heart seems to be miles apart? Looks like my heart has come out to a final conclusion.
28 more days...
Monday, August 25, 2008
:: Monday Blues ::
It's a Sunday midnight, or rather, you can call it early Monday morning. Not really looking to work as I want to have more rest. But, I shall confess that I am looking forward to it cuz if I have the "Sianz" spirit, my work will be very "sianz", but if I have the positive spirit, my work will be a delight! Thanks Simon for your 3'P' and the big G. "Patience, Perseverance & Persistence". The big G, refers to the Big God. =)
2 more weeks, Aaron & Yan Qiu will be sending forth to Tekong. I will really miss them, their fellowship. I really pray that they can adapt well in a whole new environment over there. Thinking back of how I first enter into a complete new world in 2006, tears flow down when I lie on my bed the first night. No one sees it, no one hears it. Inside my heart, I really wish to be with my family members, my friends. I don't want to be there, neither I want to be confine. The feeling was really down. Sleeping with 10 complete strangers in a room for the first few nights, how can you excuse yourself where Singapore is so near yet so far away? Where can you find the familiar faces, the brotherly embrace, a listening ear at night? A bed that you have been sleeping for the past few years, a room that have watches you grow up, they are no longer with you. This is a terrible stage that I have to go through during the period.
Maybe, this is the feeling that I have gone through during that period of time, and that's why I feel so much for them. Of course, they need not to have the same feeling with me, but I pray that God can really bless them with good section mates, commanders and officers, or at least a christian in their section, and they can share and build each other up during the trainings, etc.
For Kelvin, more or less he's getting used to the lifestyle, but his happiness is gone. He's no longer smiling as he used to, the laughter that he used to joke with the TP guys in our CG. A stage whereby boys turn to men, has cause so much unhappiness to men. I pray that one day the joyful spirit will return in him.
If you were to ask me to go through the stage in BMT again, I would surely have the same feeling as I used to when I have back in BMT, although I just ORD in June. Maybe, I have seen more skies than the trees and have gotten used to them, that's why green doesn't sound appealing to me.
Let the spirit of joy always be with the NS guys, forever and ever more. Amen.
2 more weeks, Aaron & Yan Qiu will be sending forth to Tekong. I will really miss them, their fellowship. I really pray that they can adapt well in a whole new environment over there. Thinking back of how I first enter into a complete new world in 2006, tears flow down when I lie on my bed the first night. No one sees it, no one hears it. Inside my heart, I really wish to be with my family members, my friends. I don't want to be there, neither I want to be confine. The feeling was really down. Sleeping with 10 complete strangers in a room for the first few nights, how can you excuse yourself where Singapore is so near yet so far away? Where can you find the familiar faces, the brotherly embrace, a listening ear at night? A bed that you have been sleeping for the past few years, a room that have watches you grow up, they are no longer with you. This is a terrible stage that I have to go through during the period.
Maybe, this is the feeling that I have gone through during that period of time, and that's why I feel so much for them. Of course, they need not to have the same feeling with me, but I pray that God can really bless them with good section mates, commanders and officers, or at least a christian in their section, and they can share and build each other up during the trainings, etc.
For Kelvin, more or less he's getting used to the lifestyle, but his happiness is gone. He's no longer smiling as he used to, the laughter that he used to joke with the TP guys in our CG. A stage whereby boys turn to men, has cause so much unhappiness to men. I pray that one day the joyful spirit will return in him.
If you were to ask me to go through the stage in BMT again, I would surely have the same feeling as I used to when I have back in BMT, although I just ORD in June. Maybe, I have seen more skies than the trees and have gotten used to them, that's why green doesn't sound appealing to me.
Let the spirit of joy always be with the NS guys, forever and ever more. Amen.
Monday, August 18, 2008
:: Plans ::
SIM are finally open for registration. Looking at my current state, do I like office work? Yes, I like. However, I feel that if I were to apply for Human Resource Management course, I cannot progress very far in this career, as young, pretty and handsome people will overtake and snatch the rice bowl. Am I right to comment that, I wonder?
Should I go for designing? Well, I like designing too, but I don't have the creative cells in me. I feel that it's not enough to fight with others based on the simple things that I have created. Maybe, I have too much expectation of myself or either, I am right.
So, where should I go? I have been dragging about my life time decision for a long time, since I enter NS.. That was 2 yrs ago.. O_0.. Alot of things that I have consider to pursue before.
#1) Chef - I rejected because I don't want to sacrifice my weekends. Looking at how strict the master chef is on TV, I better think twice for a weak heart of mine.
#2) Designing - I have consider of going with NAFA or LASELLE before. Considering the facts that I have to produce a port folio, I can't do that, plus lacking of creative cells.
#3) HR - The rice bowl won't last for long. Young people are always in demand, and you can't be remain young forever.
Other options includes Home designing, full time ministry in Chorus Board, etc. So many things, what should I choose? A path that I take by choices, or when opportunity arises, which one should I choose?
God, lead my way. . .
Should I go for designing? Well, I like designing too, but I don't have the creative cells in me. I feel that it's not enough to fight with others based on the simple things that I have created. Maybe, I have too much expectation of myself or either, I am right.
So, where should I go? I have been dragging about my life time decision for a long time, since I enter NS.. That was 2 yrs ago.. O_0.. Alot of things that I have consider to pursue before.
#1) Chef - I rejected because I don't want to sacrifice my weekends. Looking at how strict the master chef is on TV, I better think twice for a weak heart of mine.
#2) Designing - I have consider of going with NAFA or LASELLE before. Considering the facts that I have to produce a port folio, I can't do that, plus lacking of creative cells.
#3) HR - The rice bowl won't last for long. Young people are always in demand, and you can't be remain young forever.
Other options includes Home designing, full time ministry in Chorus Board, etc. So many things, what should I choose? A path that I take by choices, or when opportunity arises, which one should I choose?
God, lead my way. . .
Sunday, August 17, 2008
:: Serving @ JW ::
It was good. It could be the first time that I do the Main Board in a service. The last time that I do could be during PM @ JW, or either @ Expo. (Most probably abt a year ago) I am glad that I have move on, and I had set ahead of my goal that I have set starting this year in ministry wise. =)
Although I only do one song, "Perfect Love". I was glad that I was given the opportunity to do the song. When my team leader ask me, I hesistate for quite some time, but then, I decided to give it a try, its now or never. Looking forward to do more worship songs and praise songs in JW!
Hopefully by end 2009 or early 2010, I can move on to do annoucements, offering verse, sermons, etc. It's a challenge as you have to be alert, sharp in the spirit, and to flow with pastors. Ohh.. Still trying to get use of the huge LED screen @ Expo. Haha.. Chorus Board has gone up to a higher level so fast, in terms of the new LED screen, the graphics, etc. That's why maybe Rev. Dr. C. Peter Wagner are invited to CHC to preach, to slow things done. Hehe.. =P
Although I only do one song, "Perfect Love". I was glad that I was given the opportunity to do the song. When my team leader ask me, I hesistate for quite some time, but then, I decided to give it a try, its now or never. Looking forward to do more worship songs and praise songs in JW!
Hopefully by end 2009 or early 2010, I can move on to do annoucements, offering verse, sermons, etc. It's a challenge as you have to be alert, sharp in the spirit, and to flow with pastors. Ohh.. Still trying to get use of the huge LED screen @ Expo. Haha.. Chorus Board has gone up to a higher level so fast, in terms of the new LED screen, the graphics, etc. That's why maybe Rev. Dr. C. Peter Wagner are invited to CHC to preach, to slow things done. Hehe.. =P
:: Tired ::
Service today was quite different. We had a 2 min conversation with our "neighbours" and I get to know a guy call Lawrence. He's from SOT and he's anchor in JW service. Quite a friendly guy and he is only in church for 1 yr plus, coming Christmas is his 2 yrs. A cool looking and a mature christian. Though he may be young in the Lord, but he has grew so much in faith, so much on fire for God. A amazing testimony to younger christians that the young can be mature, not just for the older christians.
I was quite surprise when he told me that. I though that he could be grow up from Children Church, or be in church for quite sometime already. Haha. Well, so what if you have been in church for 5, 7 or even 10 years? You could be there physically, but your hearts may not be with God. (Something that I need to do. . . . . .)
I want to sleep for much, and I almost felt asleep during Service. So tired physically and mentally as I did not have a proper sleep for the past few nights. How I wish that I can just stay at home and sleep. Sleep and sleep and sleep.
I was quite surprise when he told me that. I though that he could be grow up from Children Church, or be in church for quite sometime already. Haha. Well, so what if you have been in church for 5, 7 or even 10 years? You could be there physically, but your hearts may not be with God. (Something that I need to do. . . . . .)
I want to sleep for much, and I almost felt asleep during Service. So tired physically and mentally as I did not have a proper sleep for the past few nights. How I wish that I can just stay at home and sleep. Sleep and sleep and sleep.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
:: Angry ::
I am so angry with this particular girl. You should know who you are. If you think that you still have a heart, please do what you are suppose to do. Unless your heart is being eaten up, I have nothing else to say. This is not the first time that it has happen.
I advise you to take a look into a mirror, what to you see? If you are in my position as a friend and you were to see your reflection, how would you think of this friend? Unless you never treat me as a friend at all, well, I would be more than happy to end this friendship and buried it 6 feet underground in a cemetry where nobody know.
I advise you to take a look into a mirror, what to you see? If you are in my position as a friend and you were to see your reflection, how would you think of this friend? Unless you never treat me as a friend at all, well, I would be more than happy to end this friendship and buried it 6 feet underground in a cemetry where nobody know.
Monday, August 11, 2008
:: I'm back (Part 2) ::
Last Sat is a National Day, and I am required to work. I was pretty happy because in just a day, my pay cross over $100. Haha.. It was really a joy to have abundance in my bank, not yet banked in but soon. Haha.. Of course, money is always not enough. Well, not because I am greedy, but there are alot of things that I need to buy. Sometimes I wish to bless people too. =)
Service was great with Pastor Tan @ JW today. I love hearing his stories of how he started serving in Sound Ministry, following by taking part in Inter-Church Sports day, and how he started to serve in dance ministry in Easter drama, and then that's how he get into creative arts and then he get to know Pastor Kong & Sun. Through that, he take up driving license and then he will drive Pastor around. Cool right? I never knew that my No. 2 man in church, Pastor Tan can dance. Haha.. Oh ya, the whole congregation was shock too I guess, cuz he look so "Si Wen".. Laughter roar across the whole auditorium and everyone applause for him. Haha..
My dad's birthday is today. My siblings and I went to do some shopping at JP and we work together and cook a dinner for him. This is the first year we buy a cake for him too, and he was very happy. He smiled! Haha.. In the past, we didn't buy for him cuz he always say he don't want a cake. Well, this year, we just buy. It's not abt the cake I guess, but it's about honoring. He always work so hard for the family, and it's not easy to bring up 6 kids. Next time, I really hope that I can have the capacity to bring him to a restaurant to eat. =)
It's going to a tiring week this week. Work starts @ 8.30a.m and end till 6p.m or 8p.m. Tired but happy. =) Maybe if I can, I will go to Heart of God Church for the morning prayer meetings, cuz travelling to my workplace will be easier and I can reach on time. Well, maybe next week when my work starts @ 9a.m.
Good Night...
Service was great with Pastor Tan @ JW today. I love hearing his stories of how he started serving in Sound Ministry, following by taking part in Inter-Church Sports day, and how he started to serve in dance ministry in Easter drama, and then that's how he get into creative arts and then he get to know Pastor Kong & Sun. Through that, he take up driving license and then he will drive Pastor around. Cool right? I never knew that my No. 2 man in church, Pastor Tan can dance. Haha.. Oh ya, the whole congregation was shock too I guess, cuz he look so "Si Wen".. Laughter roar across the whole auditorium and everyone applause for him. Haha..
My dad's birthday is today. My siblings and I went to do some shopping at JP and we work together and cook a dinner for him. This is the first year we buy a cake for him too, and he was very happy. He smiled! Haha.. In the past, we didn't buy for him cuz he always say he don't want a cake. Well, this year, we just buy. It's not abt the cake I guess, but it's about honoring. He always work so hard for the family, and it's not easy to bring up 6 kids. Next time, I really hope that I can have the capacity to bring him to a restaurant to eat. =)
It's going to a tiring week this week. Work starts @ 8.30a.m and end till 6p.m or 8p.m. Tired but happy. =) Maybe if I can, I will go to Heart of God Church for the morning prayer meetings, cuz travelling to my workplace will be easier and I can reach on time. Well, maybe next week when my work starts @ 9a.m.
Good Night...
Sunday, July 27, 2008
:: I'm back! ::
It has been a pretty long time since I blog. Maybe about 2 weeks? My flesh has been physically tired due to work, and there will be more to come for the next 2 - 3 weeks. This is due to more work load that is coming up, and I will also be working on National Day. Well, I am pretty happy because firstly there's no service on that day and it won't affect my church timing and my pay is double! Haha..
I have decided to let go on certain areas that I am struggling for a long time. There would be times when I face temptations, but I don't wish to hurt God's feeling anymore. He has been so good to me, so good. . . I can't depend on my own strength to have a complete breakthrough, and I want to cling on His strength. There might be times when I go through the cycle again, but I want to run to Him even more, because there's no one else above God to seek the source from. (I pray that this will be crave in my heart and my mind always)
Service was really good. I really need to repent because I . . . . (Si Hui will know). During Prayer Meeting, I apologise to God and I asked for His forgiveness. I pray for a word that will come in season that will really touch my heart, and so it did. =) Pastor Derek gave an altar call for those who feel weary, and I went forward with Louisa. I can really feel God's touch when one of the Pastor lay hands on me, either Pastor Tan or Pastor Aries. When I fall onto the ground, my face was hot, but I don't know why. When I fall onto the ground, my shirt was lifted up and thus my stomach was being EXPOSED! Not totally but about 1/4 of it. I was really embrassed and I don't know how should I react. Thankfully the ushers or the security cover it with a towel. (I always thought that is only meant for sisters!) Maybe I am the first brother in the whole CHC history to use it. O_O
W421 is experiencing a growth. Our total membership have hit above 15 and it was really a good sign for more growth. Wei Jian brought a new frenz, Bernard, for service today, and he is only sec 1. Quite a cute but playful boy. Hahaa.. We went over to Terminal 3 for a time of fellowship. Was quite glad to have Kelvin back with us and he look really different! It's really not easy for him as he was in the enhanced batch, so everything was like very rush for him. Kelvin, stay strong k? Will keep you in prayers. =)
CG will change back to Friday as there's no house available to use on Sunday, thus, it's back to Friday CG again and I'm glad that this arrangement is make as I can continue to serve at JW again. I am really happy to serve over there because I felt that I grow together with the service. From the starting week that I serve in JW, the Powerhouse section was not really filled. Slowly, it kept on adding people, and 2 weeks ago, it was really jam pack all the way to the back! It's just an ordinary service, no special speakers! It's really a joy to see Service 4 growing although I am not anchor in that service, but it's a sign that hitting 30,000 is happening real soon.
Having a outreach later on at Holland V. Pray that frenzs will be really impacted by the fellowshipping of the saints, and members will greatly enjoy the fun! Good night! =)
I have decided to let go on certain areas that I am struggling for a long time. There would be times when I face temptations, but I don't wish to hurt God's feeling anymore. He has been so good to me, so good. . . I can't depend on my own strength to have a complete breakthrough, and I want to cling on His strength. There might be times when I go through the cycle again, but I want to run to Him even more, because there's no one else above God to seek the source from. (I pray that this will be crave in my heart and my mind always)
Service was really good. I really need to repent because I . . . . (Si Hui will know). During Prayer Meeting, I apologise to God and I asked for His forgiveness. I pray for a word that will come in season that will really touch my heart, and so it did. =) Pastor Derek gave an altar call for those who feel weary, and I went forward with Louisa. I can really feel God's touch when one of the Pastor lay hands on me, either Pastor Tan or Pastor Aries. When I fall onto the ground, my face was hot, but I don't know why. When I fall onto the ground, my shirt was lifted up and thus my stomach was being EXPOSED! Not totally but about 1/4 of it. I was really embrassed and I don't know how should I react. Thankfully the ushers or the security cover it with a towel. (I always thought that is only meant for sisters!) Maybe I am the first brother in the whole CHC history to use it. O_O
W421 is experiencing a growth. Our total membership have hit above 15 and it was really a good sign for more growth. Wei Jian brought a new frenz, Bernard, for service today, and he is only sec 1. Quite a cute but playful boy. Hahaa.. We went over to Terminal 3 for a time of fellowship. Was quite glad to have Kelvin back with us and he look really different! It's really not easy for him as he was in the enhanced batch, so everything was like very rush for him. Kelvin, stay strong k? Will keep you in prayers. =)
CG will change back to Friday as there's no house available to use on Sunday, thus, it's back to Friday CG again and I'm glad that this arrangement is make as I can continue to serve at JW again. I am really happy to serve over there because I felt that I grow together with the service. From the starting week that I serve in JW, the Powerhouse section was not really filled. Slowly, it kept on adding people, and 2 weeks ago, it was really jam pack all the way to the back! It's just an ordinary service, no special speakers! It's really a joy to see Service 4 growing although I am not anchor in that service, but it's a sign that hitting 30,000 is happening real soon.
Having a outreach later on at Holland V. Pray that frenzs will be really impacted by the fellowshipping of the saints, and members will greatly enjoy the fun! Good night! =)
Sunday, July 6, 2008
:: Updates ::
Wednesday
Work starts! Did I mentioned that I am working at SP Services? I am currently working as a backroom admin and I am processing customers request on termination of the utilities services, such as people moving out of the unit or offices, etc. It quite a good working environment as I love office work, and the 8 - 5 office jobs. Although my interest is very much in F & B, but I don't like to sacrifice my weekends. Weekends are meant for church and my rest time. =)
Thursday
Second day of work. It was good to be attach around to various department. Quite a good experience as I get to know more about the company. They have their own food court too, and I am amazed that the prices are cheap! In Orchard area where can find food cheap as the normal coffee shop at our HDB estate? Thank God for such surprises! I had a Xiao Wan Mian as my lunch and it only cost $3! Haha.. The soup base is really delicious and the noodles portion are quite generous as well. Haha..
Went over to Suntec later for Prayer Meeting. Walk from Orchard to there. Since I knock off at 6p.m and it only start at 7.30p.m, why not I take my own sweet time to go there instead of taking MRT? Haha.. Save $$$, and it's also a good form of exercise. (You will see that it's really a good form of exercise as I explain further)
From Somerset, I walk and walk. Past by our affiliated church, Heart of God Church. Walk past Dhoby Ghaut MRT, walked past SMU, etc. To save money, I decided to go to the "Four Horse Road" (Direct Translation from chinese) market to have a light dinner. To my dismay, it is close for upgrading. Went over to the temporary set up market, it's still not open yet. Walk for so long, and to find out that. No choice but to go to somewhere and eat, so I settle my stomach with one $2 double cheese burger at the Bugis McDonald's. Meet my budget. =P
Well, so it was yet another long walk from Bugis to Suntec City, but I don't mind. As long as I can find my way there, even though I have to climb up several mountains, I will still go. Haha.. =P I just love our church office. It was just so good to be there, especially when we pray together, and I could really feel God's presence when we pray, and it's so good. Haha..
Friday
Another day that I am looking forward to. Start to get a hands on experience and it was good. =) My mentor was quite a nice and patient guy in teaching me. The other staff who is doing the same job as me are quite friendly people too, and I really thank God for such wonderful people. Need more time to get to know them more as I am the person who don't really open up to people. So, hopefully by end of Sep I can get to know them even better, not just by their names.
Went to CG after that. Had a quick dinner at Sharon's house downstairs. Thank God for another $2 meal. All target meet. Haha.. CG was good as Sharon talks about relationships. Hmm... Well, sometimes, we got to learn to handle our emotions well even when others will mistreat us, we got to be honest with our feelings, and not try to hit it. Eventually, your hurts will come out one day, and that day might be too late le.
Saturday
Work till 1p.m and then head down to PS to get presents for Kelvin and Hui Shan. Bought a cake from Secret Recipe and I think that it could be quite delicious. Haha.. Had a hard time searching for cards as some wordings are not so nice one. After some time of searching, manage to find something which is ok. The cards are quite $$$. Prices shall not be reveal here as Kel and Shan might read. Haha.. Anyway, there's a cute winnie the pooh that caught my attention with a red colour specs. I fall in love with it when I saw that, and I guess that it might be a good present for Shan, so I bought that too.
Went to the John Little Mega Expo sale after that. Meet up with Aaron and Yan Qiu to go shop around. The prices that are still ok. Bought myself a grey colour office wear which cost $14. Walk around the hall till legs are aching. Same comments go for Aaron and Yan Qiu too.
Service was wonderful with Rev Mike Connell. He is such a Fatherly person and I really like the way he laugh. It's just so loving. =) Many people are set free in the service and it was good. We celebrate Hui Shan's birthday after that and I am glad that she likes the Pooh Bear. So comparable with her when she put the small little cute bear beside her. Hahaha.. Ops.. We also appreciate Kel as he will not be around for 2 weeks, hope that he can really be strong in NS. Jia You Kelvin!
Fellowship at Bedok after that. Food was nice and I order myself a Mee Pok. Great time eating with the brothers in the same table. =) Glad to have Glenn joining us for dinner as well. Jia You for your studies Glenn Kong Kong!
Work starts! Did I mentioned that I am working at SP Services? I am currently working as a backroom admin and I am processing customers request on termination of the utilities services, such as people moving out of the unit or offices, etc. It quite a good working environment as I love office work, and the 8 - 5 office jobs. Although my interest is very much in F & B, but I don't like to sacrifice my weekends. Weekends are meant for church and my rest time. =)
Thursday
Second day of work. It was good to be attach around to various department. Quite a good experience as I get to know more about the company. They have their own food court too, and I am amazed that the prices are cheap! In Orchard area where can find food cheap as the normal coffee shop at our HDB estate? Thank God for such surprises! I had a Xiao Wan Mian as my lunch and it only cost $3! Haha.. The soup base is really delicious and the noodles portion are quite generous as well. Haha..
Went over to Suntec later for Prayer Meeting. Walk from Orchard to there. Since I knock off at 6p.m and it only start at 7.30p.m, why not I take my own sweet time to go there instead of taking MRT? Haha.. Save $$$, and it's also a good form of exercise. (You will see that it's really a good form of exercise as I explain further)
From Somerset, I walk and walk. Past by our affiliated church, Heart of God Church. Walk past Dhoby Ghaut MRT, walked past SMU, etc. To save money, I decided to go to the "Four Horse Road" (Direct Translation from chinese) market to have a light dinner. To my dismay, it is close for upgrading. Went over to the temporary set up market, it's still not open yet. Walk for so long, and to find out that. No choice but to go to somewhere and eat, so I settle my stomach with one $2 double cheese burger at the Bugis McDonald's. Meet my budget. =P
Well, so it was yet another long walk from Bugis to Suntec City, but I don't mind. As long as I can find my way there, even though I have to climb up several mountains, I will still go. Haha.. =P I just love our church office. It was just so good to be there, especially when we pray together, and I could really feel God's presence when we pray, and it's so good. Haha..
Friday
Another day that I am looking forward to. Start to get a hands on experience and it was good. =) My mentor was quite a nice and patient guy in teaching me. The other staff who is doing the same job as me are quite friendly people too, and I really thank God for such wonderful people. Need more time to get to know them more as I am the person who don't really open up to people. So, hopefully by end of Sep I can get to know them even better, not just by their names.
Went to CG after that. Had a quick dinner at Sharon's house downstairs. Thank God for another $2 meal. All target meet. Haha.. CG was good as Sharon talks about relationships. Hmm... Well, sometimes, we got to learn to handle our emotions well even when others will mistreat us, we got to be honest with our feelings, and not try to hit it. Eventually, your hurts will come out one day, and that day might be too late le.
Saturday
Work till 1p.m and then head down to PS to get presents for Kelvin and Hui Shan. Bought a cake from Secret Recipe and I think that it could be quite delicious. Haha.. Had a hard time searching for cards as some wordings are not so nice one. After some time of searching, manage to find something which is ok. The cards are quite $$$. Prices shall not be reveal here as Kel and Shan might read. Haha.. Anyway, there's a cute winnie the pooh that caught my attention with a red colour specs. I fall in love with it when I saw that, and I guess that it might be a good present for Shan, so I bought that too.
Went to the John Little Mega Expo sale after that. Meet up with Aaron and Yan Qiu to go shop around. The prices that are still ok. Bought myself a grey colour office wear which cost $14. Walk around the hall till legs are aching. Same comments go for Aaron and Yan Qiu too.
Service was wonderful with Rev Mike Connell. He is such a Fatherly person and I really like the way he laugh. It's just so loving. =) Many people are set free in the service and it was good. We celebrate Hui Shan's birthday after that and I am glad that she likes the Pooh Bear. So comparable with her when she put the small little cute bear beside her. Hahaha.. Ops.. We also appreciate Kel as he will not be around for 2 weeks, hope that he can really be strong in NS. Jia You Kelvin!
Fellowship at Bedok after that. Food was nice and I order myself a Mee Pok. Great time eating with the brothers in the same table. =) Glad to have Glenn joining us for dinner as well. Jia You for your studies Glenn Kong Kong!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
:: Tuesday ::
Financial Blessings have come to past!!
On Monday, which is yesterday, my dad bless me with $50.
On Tuesday, which is today, the government bless me with $200.
On Wednesday, which is tomorrow, will I get a $800 blessings? Haha..
Really thank God for His provision throughout this dry season of mine. It's really a miracle for me that I am able to have financial blessings when things seems impossible to me. Where would the money come from?
On top of that, I have been selected to work! I will be starting work tomorrow, and I have to report at 8.45a.m. Haha.. The job payment system also works in a very good way, which means I will get paid 2 times per month, but it will take another week to process. Anyway, what more can I asked for? God is really a good God. =)
I just signed up for MySavings Account through POSB. I think that this would be a good way to help me to save money. I "pledge" to save $50 every month and it will be deducted on the 25th of a new month. It's really pathetic to see my current bank account fall less than $500, which is suppose to be the amount inside or $2 will be deducted.
I will also be starting to have a personal book of my expenses for every month starting July. Every dollar and every cents, I will pay attention to it. This is a good way to keep track where my money go, and in which area I should cut down my expenses. It will mainly be tithe, handphone bills, transportation allowance, food, and some miscellaneous items such as refreshments for CG, stationery, etc.
Hopefully, through all this steps, I can see a financial breakthroughs in my life. =)
On Monday, which is yesterday, my dad bless me with $50.
On Tuesday, which is today, the government bless me with $200.
On Wednesday, which is tomorrow, will I get a $800 blessings? Haha..
Really thank God for His provision throughout this dry season of mine. It's really a miracle for me that I am able to have financial blessings when things seems impossible to me. Where would the money come from?
On top of that, I have been selected to work! I will be starting work tomorrow, and I have to report at 8.45a.m. Haha.. The job payment system also works in a very good way, which means I will get paid 2 times per month, but it will take another week to process. Anyway, what more can I asked for? God is really a good God. =)
I just signed up for MySavings Account through POSB. I think that this would be a good way to help me to save money. I "pledge" to save $50 every month and it will be deducted on the 25th of a new month. It's really pathetic to see my current bank account fall less than $500, which is suppose to be the amount inside or $2 will be deducted.
I will also be starting to have a personal book of my expenses for every month starting July. Every dollar and every cents, I will pay attention to it. This is a good way to keep track where my money go, and in which area I should cut down my expenses. It will mainly be tithe, handphone bills, transportation allowance, food, and some miscellaneous items such as refreshments for CG, stationery, etc.
Hopefully, through all this steps, I can see a financial breakthroughs in my life. =)
Monday, June 30, 2008
:: Me ::
It's been quite sometime since I blog. Maybe just like Pascale, I have lost the interest in blogging. Maybe, it could be due to my emotion that I am going through, I don't really feel like talking, I feel that it's hard for me to open up to people. I wish that I can share what I am going through with people, but it's just too hard for me.
Last Saturday, my zone have a meeting at Riverwalk. I was suppose to reach there by 0930 for training for catcher, but I overslept. The actual meeting starts at 1130. I was thinking of going for the meeting anot, because my ez-link card value is depleting, and I have no money to top up, nor to have a proper meal. It's either I don't have money to top up, or I don't have money to eat. I hesitate for a very long time, then I decided to go. I have a quick bath, because my dad can fetch me to Boon Lay MRT before he go to work. He was actually outside having breakfast with some of my siblings. However, I was about to finish drying myself and he came back. He was not able to wait for me as he was in a hurry. I came out of the toilet, it was 1035. Actually, I was thinking of borrowing money from him first, but I didn't have a chance. I don't know what to do, I was in a loss, I felt emo. It's just so hard for me to go out. Should I just skip Expo service and go for Jurong West service for a time being? It's just a 7 min walk from my house. Can save up to $5 of transportation fees from my house to Expo, and from Expo to my house.
Maybe, I was just going through what Henry is going through after he ORD. No money for travelling, and that's why sometimes it's really hard for him to join us for dinner. You watch people eat and you don't. Maybe, it's good to have blessings from the members once in awhile, but if every week that happens, you won't really feel good at all.
My main concern now is to get a job and save some money. I will be going for a interview tomorrow at Somerset. Hopefully I am able to get the job, although I will miss the chance to go for Saturday zone prayer meetings in future. I couldn't wait anymore, this could be one of the best opportunities for me to earn money. Anyway, I can still go for CG, Service 2, and able to serve in ministry, so it won't be any big issue.
Emotion dying, verge of going insane. . . . .
Last Saturday, my zone have a meeting at Riverwalk. I was suppose to reach there by 0930 for training for catcher, but I overslept. The actual meeting starts at 1130. I was thinking of going for the meeting anot, because my ez-link card value is depleting, and I have no money to top up, nor to have a proper meal. It's either I don't have money to top up, or I don't have money to eat. I hesitate for a very long time, then I decided to go. I have a quick bath, because my dad can fetch me to Boon Lay MRT before he go to work. He was actually outside having breakfast with some of my siblings. However, I was about to finish drying myself and he came back. He was not able to wait for me as he was in a hurry. I came out of the toilet, it was 1035. Actually, I was thinking of borrowing money from him first, but I didn't have a chance. I don't know what to do, I was in a loss, I felt emo. It's just so hard for me to go out. Should I just skip Expo service and go for Jurong West service for a time being? It's just a 7 min walk from my house. Can save up to $5 of transportation fees from my house to Expo, and from Expo to my house.
Maybe, I was just going through what Henry is going through after he ORD. No money for travelling, and that's why sometimes it's really hard for him to join us for dinner. You watch people eat and you don't. Maybe, it's good to have blessings from the members once in awhile, but if every week that happens, you won't really feel good at all.
My main concern now is to get a job and save some money. I will be going for a interview tomorrow at Somerset. Hopefully I am able to get the job, although I will miss the chance to go for Saturday zone prayer meetings in future. I couldn't wait anymore, this could be one of the best opportunities for me to earn money. Anyway, I can still go for CG, Service 2, and able to serve in ministry, so it won't be any big issue.
Emotion dying, verge of going insane. . . . .
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
I Surrender All - True Worshippers
Thank You for the cross that You have paid
For all my sins You’ve sacrificed Yourself
I am nothing Lord without Your grace
You were there to lift me when I failed
As I lift my hands
Pour Your mercy O God
Longing for Your presence now
I surrender all and I will follow You
I surrender all and bring my life to You
I surrender all and live my life for You
I surrender all, I surrender all
To You Jesus
For all my sins You’ve sacrificed Yourself
I am nothing Lord without Your grace
You were there to lift me when I failed
As I lift my hands
Pour Your mercy O God
Longing for Your presence now
I surrender all and I will follow You
I surrender all and bring my life to You
I surrender all and live my life for You
I surrender all, I surrender all
To You Jesus
Thursday, June 19, 2008
:: Internet Breakdown ::
Internet or modem have emotion? Yes they do. :'( A lightning cause a loud strike and my modem was terrify, thus causing him to shutdown. So, please don't bully your modem. Let it have some rest yeah?
Right now, I am attaching to another Internet source near my house there, Uheaven. A place that is set up quite some months ago or a year ago. Although the place is not really built up so nice, but at least it still have Internet access.
I promise about blogging the BIGBANG Camp. Somehow, I have lost the interest le. =P All I can say is, I really enjoyed this camp alot although I miss the Pulau Ubin trip due to having a dental appointment at NUH in the morning. Anyway, its really cool to be in the camp. My house is Amplified, and my team is Ai-Chong! Haha..
I would like to thank Wei Jian specially. Thanks for standing by me all this while and encourage me to go to camp. Although there were many times I am tempted not to go, but still, I went for it. Thank you so much. Not forgetting Sharon, you have been my emotional support. =) Lastly, all glory goes up to Jesus for keeping me safe throughout the camp! =)
Right now, I am attaching to another Internet source near my house there, Uheaven. A place that is set up quite some months ago or a year ago. Although the place is not really built up so nice, but at least it still have Internet access.
I promise about blogging the BIGBANG Camp. Somehow, I have lost the interest le. =P All I can say is, I really enjoyed this camp alot although I miss the Pulau Ubin trip due to having a dental appointment at NUH in the morning. Anyway, its really cool to be in the camp. My house is Amplified, and my team is Ai-Chong! Haha..
I would like to thank Wei Jian specially. Thanks for standing by me all this while and encourage me to go to camp. Although there were many times I am tempted not to go, but still, I went for it. Thank you so much. Not forgetting Sharon, you have been my emotional support. =) Lastly, all glory goes up to Jesus for keeping me safe throughout the camp! =)
Friday, June 13, 2008
:: Back from Camp!! ::
I'm back from BigBang Camp! The 3 days and 2 nights was a fun one. =) Shall blog more when I'm free! =)
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