I was supposed to accompany my mum to go to National Health Center for my sister's appointment. However, I was late in preparation and end up I didn't go instead. Went over to Riverwalk for the zone Manhood talk.
Well of course, I was late. Thank God that Ming Jing is still briefing about the NS issue which I think it was still ok to be miss. Don't really dare to walk into the room so I roam around the "center". When I heard them starting having Praise and Worship, I sneaked in quickly without being notice. Haha..
Overall, I would say that the meeting was very good, and I am convicted of how a real man should be like. However, I am not ready to take up the "challenge" yet as I am still not ready, emotional wise I am still very withdraw with people.
Went straight to Expo to report for ministry. I can say that this is one of the first few times I report for Chorus Board early. Hahaa.. Honestly, I felt very happy to be in this ministry as it was quite challenging and you won't be doing the same thing every week. You may be doing the same thing, but you would have come across different situations and you have to race the battle with the service. Haha... Kelvyn always want to rise me up in Side Board, so that Sasha can move over to Main Board, and new ministry members can also move on to Side Board. He wants me to be independent, to be able to handle the situation even if I am just alone. To be more daring to engage with the BVs to check song. (I was quite nervous as I don't want to go up to the stage to check the Korean song with them.) I walked to the very front of the hall but don't dare to go up. Thank God I still do it in the end. What makes me have the courage? (It's because of what Ming Jing share about taxi incident. Those who attend the Manhood Meeting will know why). Haha...
Kelvyn asked me if I wanna go over to JW. I was quite happy in doing so, however, I was asked to serve one location only, even though I wish to serve in both locations. Maybe I will wait till I rise up over at Expo first, and then see if I am ready to go over. If God wants me to serve over at JW, I will go over ba. (Tat will means that I will be free from ministry every alternate Saturday, which I don't find it a very good thing to turn out.)
After Service, I went to Bedok Simpang with my ministry frenzs for fellowship. One thing I learn today, never underestimated the power of Roti Prata. It may look small, but it can make you very full. Haha.. I thought that I will never be full for this meal, but I was very wrong. LOL.. Had the mutubak and tissue prata as well. Food was quite good over there, and it was worth the money to spent. =)
Overheard SiHui(from Chorus Board) telling Sasha something which I felt quite impacted. "You may be the smallest tree, but you can be the most fruitful one." I then asked Sasha what do she mean by this? Then she told me, "The bible wants us to be fruitful and multiply." SiHui begin to pause and thought what tree she wants to be. Then she begin to realise that it doesn't matter what kind of tree you are, as long as you are fruitful. Cuz a tree without much fruits doesn't bear much.
Amen to that... =)
For Sasha, Happy Birthday to you! :)
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
:: Trust In The Lord ::
"It is better to trust in the Lord, than to put confidence in man." - Ps 118:8
Thanks Tong Yan...
Thanks Tong Yan...
Thursday, April 17, 2008
:: Touch, Impacted ::
Had a good time of QT just now, and I feel much more better now. God spoke to me about a verse, and I was very impacted by it. "The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of our God stands forever." - Is. 40:8
As I was reading Tong's blog, I was quite shock because her entry is also related to what God spoke to me about too. God is hinting me to read His word again, because His words will bring peace and comfort to our soul. His word will renew our mind, to give us strength to move on in life, to have a breakthrough in our lives.
Of course, that doesn't mean that I will accept people quoting bible verses to me or start ranting away in their mouth preaching this and that. You have to see the situation before accessing your actions. If a member have done something wrong or unrighteous, don't start to open your mouth like a machine gun and tell the member that you should not sin against God, you should not grieve the Holy Spirit, the bible say that you must not have other Gods above Him, so on and so for. You should be concern of why he/she is sinning first, putting yourself in the person's shoes, and slowing, you move on and begin to explain. People share things with you is to get comfort, not for you to be mock at.
During Service and Cell Group, as we begin to hear Pastor or a CGL sharing the Word, it would be perfectly fine to listen to the preaching. The word is for everyone, and that is where you get the revelation from God, a touch from heaven. It's also the point where you think and how it can be applied in your life differently, in the various areas that you are struggling or having problems with. Get the point over here?
We may see the same problem over here, but however, the methods CANNOT be used by what the preacher did. When a person share with you, he/she expect that you understand, not for you to condemn with. You may not have that intention, but sadly to say, it will be hard for the person to share with you next time instead. Worst still, if every members start to condemn, one fine day that member will begin to wake up, and realise that maybe this is not the CG or the church that he/she belong to, and they will decide to leave for good.
As I was reading Tong's blog, I was quite shock because her entry is also related to what God spoke to me about too. God is hinting me to read His word again, because His words will bring peace and comfort to our soul. His word will renew our mind, to give us strength to move on in life, to have a breakthrough in our lives.
Of course, that doesn't mean that I will accept people quoting bible verses to me or start ranting away in their mouth preaching this and that. You have to see the situation before accessing your actions. If a member have done something wrong or unrighteous, don't start to open your mouth like a machine gun and tell the member that you should not sin against God, you should not grieve the Holy Spirit, the bible say that you must not have other Gods above Him, so on and so for. You should be concern of why he/she is sinning first, putting yourself in the person's shoes, and slowing, you move on and begin to explain. People share things with you is to get comfort, not for you to be mock at.
During Service and Cell Group, as we begin to hear Pastor or a CGL sharing the Word, it would be perfectly fine to listen to the preaching. The word is for everyone, and that is where you get the revelation from God, a touch from heaven. It's also the point where you think and how it can be applied in your life differently, in the various areas that you are struggling or having problems with. Get the point over here?
We may see the same problem over here, but however, the methods CANNOT be used by what the preacher did. When a person share with you, he/she expect that you understand, not for you to condemn with. You may not have that intention, but sadly to say, it will be hard for the person to share with you next time instead. Worst still, if every members start to condemn, one fine day that member will begin to wake up, and realise that maybe this is not the CG or the church that he/she belong to, and they will decide to leave for good.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
:: Day 106 ::
Day 106? Well, it refers that 106 days have pass since the start of the year? Fast huh? Time really flies, and it don't wait for people. People have to make used of the time to do the things that they want to achieve in their life, and not just sit down there rotting away. Of course, we have to spent some time to relax too, and not neglect our health and emotions.
Had a chat with Derek today, and I feel that our conversation were pretty good as we begin to pour out our hearts out to each other. We encourage each other and I really feel happy that I share with him about my stuff too, and we also talk about the times in W319. Somehow, I feel that we are going through the same thing, emotionally, and we just wanna be alone by ourselves.
I want to go to somewhere where nobody can find me, going to somewhere where I can find a place to get out of this hurting society, from workplace, friends, or even members. I want to go somewhere out of Singapore, probably a place where I can get to lie on the beautiful white sandy beach, with clear blue water washing against my legs. Closing my eyes to relax, hearing the waves crashing against the shore. At this silence moment, I will want to reflect about my life, reflect of the things that I am doing right now. Where should I go after NS? What do I want to be in future? What do I see myself as 10 years down the road? Why I still have not had a breakthrough for so many years even after counselling by Joanne and Sharon? (Please don't try to preach to me that I have to make a decision or whatever crap.)
I really hope that I can do this. I know that we can't depend on ourselves, and we need the support of frenzs sometime. However, I don't really want to open up myself to people, especially how someone have worsen my emotions instead of encouraging, quoting bible verses, preaching, instead of showing love. Thanks but no thanks, I don't need such encouragement, it may work for you but that doesn't mean that it will work for everybody in this world. You can help by just listening. God gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth, which means He want us to listen more than we do the talking.
Maybe, as what Derek have say, give the person who had hurt me some time to change. He's not perfect, and he need to be mould. I should at the same time, give time for my heart and let it heal, and to letting go instead of carrying hurting myself.
"God, mould my heart and heal it, change hatred into love."
Had a chat with Derek today, and I feel that our conversation were pretty good as we begin to pour out our hearts out to each other. We encourage each other and I really feel happy that I share with him about my stuff too, and we also talk about the times in W319. Somehow, I feel that we are going through the same thing, emotionally, and we just wanna be alone by ourselves.
I want to go to somewhere where nobody can find me, going to somewhere where I can find a place to get out of this hurting society, from workplace, friends, or even members. I want to go somewhere out of Singapore, probably a place where I can get to lie on the beautiful white sandy beach, with clear blue water washing against my legs. Closing my eyes to relax, hearing the waves crashing against the shore. At this silence moment, I will want to reflect about my life, reflect of the things that I am doing right now. Where should I go after NS? What do I want to be in future? What do I see myself as 10 years down the road? Why I still have not had a breakthrough for so many years even after counselling by Joanne and Sharon? (Please don't try to preach to me that I have to make a decision or whatever crap.)
I really hope that I can do this. I know that we can't depend on ourselves, and we need the support of frenzs sometime. However, I don't really want to open up myself to people, especially how someone have worsen my emotions instead of encouraging, quoting bible verses, preaching, instead of showing love. Thanks but no thanks, I don't need such encouragement, it may work for you but that doesn't mean that it will work for everybody in this world. You can help by just listening. God gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth, which means He want us to listen more than we do the talking.
Maybe, as what Derek have say, give the person who had hurt me some time to change. He's not perfect, and he need to be mould. I should at the same time, give time for my heart and let it heal, and to letting go instead of carrying hurting myself.
"God, mould my heart and heal it, change hatred into love."
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
:: God Is Good! ::
I was on the way to camp today and it started to rain heavily. I was still on the bus going towards the camp, and I was thinking that I will surely get wet even though I have an umbrella with me. Someone its the first day of the week and I have to get my uniform wet.
As I was approaching my camp site, suprisingly, there was no rain! My camp site have no rain at all, the ground was still dry and the sky was abit grey and blue! Really thank God for that, cuz I dun wish to used my umbrella as it serve no purpose at all. (Cuz my umbrella is rather small and I didn't really wanna spent money to get a new one.) Hahaa.. God is good, and I managed to reach the hangar clean and dry, not even abit of rain fall on me. . . =)
Saw a few SOT students on the bus 242, and I overheard them talking. It will be very good to have such classmates around as they are pretty positive and they dress quite smartly. I do hope that SOT will continue to conduct lessons at JW premises. Hahaa.. It's just 7 mins away from my home, and it feels like walking to school during our primary school days. (I used to walked about 15 mins to my primary school) Do hope that SOT students will continue to increase, so that Riverwalk couldn't contained their growth, and have to used back JW instead. Haha.. Hope that I can go SOT in 2010. =)
"God, teach me how to love him as I first meet him in the past."
As I was approaching my camp site, suprisingly, there was no rain! My camp site have no rain at all, the ground was still dry and the sky was abit grey and blue! Really thank God for that, cuz I dun wish to used my umbrella as it serve no purpose at all. (Cuz my umbrella is rather small and I didn't really wanna spent money to get a new one.) Hahaa.. God is good, and I managed to reach the hangar clean and dry, not even abit of rain fall on me. . . =)
Saw a few SOT students on the bus 242, and I overheard them talking. It will be very good to have such classmates around as they are pretty positive and they dress quite smartly. I do hope that SOT will continue to conduct lessons at JW premises. Hahaa.. It's just 7 mins away from my home, and it feels like walking to school during our primary school days. (I used to walked about 15 mins to my primary school) Do hope that SOT students will continue to increase, so that Riverwalk couldn't contained their growth, and have to used back JW instead. Haha.. Hope that I can go SOT in 2010. =)
"God, teach me how to love him as I first meet him in the past."
Sunday, April 13, 2008
:: Great Word ::
Today I went back to camp, for one purpose, to clear my extra. Haha.. Initially the work is to be end at 1p.m, but it end up till 4p.m. Was suppose to que up to book seats for my CG, but in the end I can't made it. Thanks Louisa for helping me to book, and those que-ing up in my absence as well. =)
Was very happy to have Ps. Kong back with us in CHC. I really love Ps. Kong as he's a great man of God. He dress so casual today, looks so youth, but he looks very smart and handsome. Haha.. Don't get the wrong idea, I don't fall for him. I love him as a brotherly love. Hahaha..
He shared a great word today, which really impacted me alot as it hits me. Well, my passion for prayer has drop again, and I have not been praying much for quite sometime. He mention about Jabez and Samson. Jabez pray for four things in his life, he prayed for his spiritual life to be blessed, he prayed that he will shine for God and to be a leader, he also prayed for God's presence and power to be with him, and lastly, he prayed to God to keep him away from evil and temptations.
On the other hand, Samson is a very talented person, but he did not have a good prayer life. He may be very influential in his marketplace, but however, he did not have a secret place with God, and thus, whatever things that he does is never good enough. His hair is very anointed, and when its cut away, the power of God is cut off from him, and he ended up living his life in a bad shape.
One thing Ps. Kong say was, Samson's hair can grow again, which means our passion for prayer can also grow again. Was quite impacted by this. (Some people might think that this is a good reason to find comfort to justify our emotions, but well, let it be whatever you guys wanna say. I don't mix with people like this) I am not perfect, but of course, that doesn't give me a license to do the things that I want to do. If you don't give room for people to make mistakes, make sure that you don't make either. No wonder such people are very selfish, cuz they don't want to share their room with others. (I find that I am quite evil to say such things. Haha.. ) But well, on the other hand, if people can say things to justify their thinking, what is the need of discipleship? It's something in our life that cannot be miss out. We need to trained up to be the future leaders of the church in this generation. Maybe, Ps. Tan sermon will come in at this point of time, the 9 principles that he have come out with. Anyway, back to topic...
Jabez had an unusual spiritual hunger for God, and that's why he can really shine for Him. He had a secret place with God. Having a secret place with Him and dwelling in His presence.. WoW..
Have set up a place specially in my room for QT. Maybe, I will upload the pics in my room soon. I have just finish "renovating" my room. Arrange some furniture and it look much more bigger, and had a special corner too, and that will be my secret place with Him. =)
Was very happy to have Ps. Kong back with us in CHC. I really love Ps. Kong as he's a great man of God. He dress so casual today, looks so youth, but he looks very smart and handsome. Haha.. Don't get the wrong idea, I don't fall for him. I love him as a brotherly love. Hahaha..
He shared a great word today, which really impacted me alot as it hits me. Well, my passion for prayer has drop again, and I have not been praying much for quite sometime. He mention about Jabez and Samson. Jabez pray for four things in his life, he prayed for his spiritual life to be blessed, he prayed that he will shine for God and to be a leader, he also prayed for God's presence and power to be with him, and lastly, he prayed to God to keep him away from evil and temptations.
On the other hand, Samson is a very talented person, but he did not have a good prayer life. He may be very influential in his marketplace, but however, he did not have a secret place with God, and thus, whatever things that he does is never good enough. His hair is very anointed, and when its cut away, the power of God is cut off from him, and he ended up living his life in a bad shape.
One thing Ps. Kong say was, Samson's hair can grow again, which means our passion for prayer can also grow again. Was quite impacted by this. (Some people might think that this is a good reason to find comfort to justify our emotions, but well, let it be whatever you guys wanna say. I don't mix with people like this) I am not perfect, but of course, that doesn't give me a license to do the things that I want to do. If you don't give room for people to make mistakes, make sure that you don't make either. No wonder such people are very selfish, cuz they don't want to share their room with others. (I find that I am quite evil to say such things. Haha.. ) But well, on the other hand, if people can say things to justify their thinking, what is the need of discipleship? It's something in our life that cannot be miss out. We need to trained up to be the future leaders of the church in this generation. Maybe, Ps. Tan sermon will come in at this point of time, the 9 principles that he have come out with. Anyway, back to topic...
Jabez had an unusual spiritual hunger for God, and that's why he can really shine for Him. He had a secret place with God. Having a secret place with Him and dwelling in His presence.. WoW..
Have set up a place specially in my room for QT. Maybe, I will upload the pics in my room soon. I have just finish "renovating" my room. Arrange some furniture and it look much more bigger, and had a special corner too, and that will be my secret place with Him. =)
Saturday, April 12, 2008
:: Friday's Voices ::
Just realised from CG today that Sharon has been reading people's blog recently. Wonder if she did read mine? LoL.. Anyway, my blog has been pretty dry and I has not been updating as much as I first started this blog. Maybe, I should get back the passion of blogging again, even if its just a short event that happen on the day.
Recently, I fail to perform duty during my camp and I was given 4 extras. In my vocation, we will tend to meet with different scenarios and we have to react according to the situation. However, on the particular fateful Wednesday afternoon, I had a first encounter with a different situation. Thankfully everything was good in the end but I had a good scolding from my Encik, and was given 4 extras.
I don't blame him for the punishment that he has given to me because I felt that I deserve it. I should have read up if I am not familiar with the knowledge that I ought to know. All along ever since he came to be my Encik, I have always been looking up upon him and respect him. Not because of the authority that he posses, but by the leadership skills that he had lead in my unit. Although he might be strict, but he still gain quite alot of respect from his man, and I really thank God that he is my leader in camp.
On the side note, I think he might be from CHC too. I saw him 2 years ago during Christmas Service at Expo. That time I just knew him not long only. Haha. . . Maybe before my ORD when I do my clearance, I will asked him this question. =)
Cell Group was great today and we have Hui Shan back with us. Was pretty happy to know from Si Hui that she will be coming for CG. Haha.. Specially made a trip down to CCK MRT Station to buy pies from Pie Kia. Get to know this brand from one of my Staff Sergeant in camp when she bought it to share with us, tasted one and I think its rather delicious although by that time I eat was pretty cool. Haha.. I was thinking, maybe I can share this food with W421 too. Meet up with Si Hui to get the pies as she was working nearby the area. Was late meeting her. Hahaa.. Anyway, we had some pause before buying the pies as it's not very cheap for CG Refreshments, but in the end we still buy it. Hahaa..
Word was good as it was an improvise from last week Sermon msg by Ps. Tan. Sharon came out with the Sermon herself. Hahaa.. Ps. Tan's Sermon never fails to motivate the congregation and I am sure alot of people have learn quite alot of knowledge by him, how to have an excellence thinking in our lifes... "Duty Vs Devotion", I will serve in my ministry as the primary purpose of a ministry, that is serving God and serving the church, the people, and not because I like to do the things that I love in my ministry.
During fellowshipping after CG, it was quite unusually quiet as we are always very noisy. Maybe just like what Sharon says, the Sunday CG has came alive. Haha.. Although I did not attend that CG 2 weeks ago on Sunday, but I heard that its pretty silence.
Went to my house nearby coffee shop to have dinner, a bowl of laska. The coffee shop is just beside the CHC Jurong West one. Haha.. Saw Jason and Desmond from our Zone one, think Jason is rehearsing for his wedding tml. Haha.. Congrats to the newly wedded couple.
Going to camp tml, can also take this opportunity to clear my extras. Nitez.. =)
Recently, I fail to perform duty during my camp and I was given 4 extras. In my vocation, we will tend to meet with different scenarios and we have to react according to the situation. However, on the particular fateful Wednesday afternoon, I had a first encounter with a different situation. Thankfully everything was good in the end but I had a good scolding from my Encik, and was given 4 extras.
I don't blame him for the punishment that he has given to me because I felt that I deserve it. I should have read up if I am not familiar with the knowledge that I ought to know. All along ever since he came to be my Encik, I have always been looking up upon him and respect him. Not because of the authority that he posses, but by the leadership skills that he had lead in my unit. Although he might be strict, but he still gain quite alot of respect from his man, and I really thank God that he is my leader in camp.
On the side note, I think he might be from CHC too. I saw him 2 years ago during Christmas Service at Expo. That time I just knew him not long only. Haha. . . Maybe before my ORD when I do my clearance, I will asked him this question. =)
Cell Group was great today and we have Hui Shan back with us. Was pretty happy to know from Si Hui that she will be coming for CG. Haha.. Specially made a trip down to CCK MRT Station to buy pies from Pie Kia. Get to know this brand from one of my Staff Sergeant in camp when she bought it to share with us, tasted one and I think its rather delicious although by that time I eat was pretty cool. Haha.. I was thinking, maybe I can share this food with W421 too. Meet up with Si Hui to get the pies as she was working nearby the area. Was late meeting her. Hahaa.. Anyway, we had some pause before buying the pies as it's not very cheap for CG Refreshments, but in the end we still buy it. Hahaa..
Word was good as it was an improvise from last week Sermon msg by Ps. Tan. Sharon came out with the Sermon herself. Hahaa.. Ps. Tan's Sermon never fails to motivate the congregation and I am sure alot of people have learn quite alot of knowledge by him, how to have an excellence thinking in our lifes... "Duty Vs Devotion", I will serve in my ministry as the primary purpose of a ministry, that is serving God and serving the church, the people, and not because I like to do the things that I love in my ministry.
During fellowshipping after CG, it was quite unusually quiet as we are always very noisy. Maybe just like what Sharon says, the Sunday CG has came alive. Haha.. Although I did not attend that CG 2 weeks ago on Sunday, but I heard that its pretty silence.
Went to my house nearby coffee shop to have dinner, a bowl of laska. The coffee shop is just beside the CHC Jurong West one. Haha.. Saw Jason and Desmond from our Zone one, think Jason is rehearsing for his wedding tml. Haha.. Congrats to the newly wedded couple.
Going to camp tml, can also take this opportunity to clear my extras. Nitez.. =)
Friday, April 11, 2008
:: Alleluia To Christ The Lord ::
I will lift my heart and sing
I will worship You my King
Earth and heaven now proclaim
Jesus Christ the mighty name
Through the storm and raging sea
I will never be alone
When my hope seems out of sight
I know You will shine your light
Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia
Alleluia to Christ the Lord
Dengan segenap hati
Ku menyembah memuji
Sampai seluruh bumi
Bersujud mengakui
Walau malam menepi
Tak akan ku sendiri
Kasih yang menerangi
Kau setia menanti
Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia
Alleluia Kau Allahku
I will worship You my King
Earth and heaven now proclaim
Jesus Christ the mighty name
Through the storm and raging sea
I will never be alone
When my hope seems out of sight
I know You will shine your light
Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia
Alleluia to Christ the Lord
Dengan segenap hati
Ku menyembah memuji
Sampai seluruh bumi
Bersujud mengakui
Walau malam menepi
Tak akan ku sendiri
Kasih yang menerangi
Kau setia menanti
Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia
Alleluia Kau Allahku
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
:: I Will Bless The Lord ::
I will bless the Lord with all my soul.
I will bless the One who made me whole.
For You alone my Lord
My heart will sing
I will bless the Lord with all my soul.
I will tell of all Your mighty love.
That pull me from the dark into Your light.
For You alone my Lord,
My heart will sing
I will tell of all Your mighty love.
Holy are You Lord,
My heart will sing out.
Mighty Son of God,
My soul will cry out.
Worthy Lamb of God,
My life will sing out
I will bless the Lord with all my soul.
God of all the earth.
God of all the earth.
God of all the earth.
Jesus
This song is by True Worshippers! It's one of the best praise song by them after the song "Shine Like Stars". Well. . . Maybe I only know two of their praise songs? Hahaa.. Anyway, the worship song that we sang during service "Alleluia" is also produce by them. I love this song too. Very special type of music. Sound so chinese. . . Cuz probably of the background music ba. Haha.. Well done True Worshippers! =)
I will bless the One who made me whole.
For You alone my Lord
My heart will sing
I will bless the Lord with all my soul.
I will tell of all Your mighty love.
That pull me from the dark into Your light.
For You alone my Lord,
My heart will sing
I will tell of all Your mighty love.
Holy are You Lord,
My heart will sing out.
Mighty Son of God,
My soul will cry out.
Worthy Lamb of God,
My life will sing out
I will bless the Lord with all my soul.
God of all the earth.
God of all the earth.
God of all the earth.
Jesus
This song is by True Worshippers! It's one of the best praise song by them after the song "Shine Like Stars". Well. . . Maybe I only know two of their praise songs? Hahaa.. Anyway, the worship song that we sang during service "Alleluia" is also produce by them. I love this song too. Very special type of music. Sound so chinese. . . Cuz probably of the background music ba. Haha.. Well done True Worshippers! =)
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
:: Updates ::
I am still alive and kicking, just very tired and lazy to update my blog. I hope that I will carry on my desire of blogging, and not giving up halfway just as my previous blog that went dead.
Well, life has been pretty good recently. I have "buck up" in my spiritual walk with God as compare to the past where my prayer life is consider as zero. I have started to pray daily, although its not every night, but I did try and make an effort to pray. I don't want to do this as a religious duty, but I want to spent time with God, builting up a relationship with Him. Really thank Ming Jing for the touch during Prayer Meeting, it really changes part of my life. =)
Last Saturday, I had an bad experience during my Ministry. I was doing the last praise song(Run To You) and I did some mistakes. Thank God that Kang Wei, who was leading the congregation to sing at the time did not sing wrongly. I was suppose to flash Verse 2 but I flash Verse 1. I pray that I will not make this same mistakes for Easter next week. Really need alertness and more songs to capture in my mind.
Ps Phil. service was pretty good too, and I had a few revelations in his service. He talks about Holy Spirit, and it really bless me alot. We have to depend on Holy Spirit in our lives, and even Jesus depend on Holy Spirit too. It's a channel that connect us to God. In work, ministry, every part of our life, Holy Spirit cannot be missing in it. He talk abit about hunger too. Who should we hunger for? For food, for God, for who?
Hui Shan. . . I am so glad that you are discharged. I pray that you will have a speedy recovery and that you will be able to catch up with your studies. Pray for complete healing upon you and that you will have the joy of the Lord everyday. =)
Easter is here, and this year, we have a total of 11 services! As a whole church, we will have 17 services all in all. Amazing! However, this is a good opportunity to reach out to the lost, and I pray for my camp mate Darren, will go for the Easter drama and he will get touch by it. =)
Well, life has been pretty good recently. I have "buck up" in my spiritual walk with God as compare to the past where my prayer life is consider as zero. I have started to pray daily, although its not every night, but I did try and make an effort to pray. I don't want to do this as a religious duty, but I want to spent time with God, builting up a relationship with Him. Really thank Ming Jing for the touch during Prayer Meeting, it really changes part of my life. =)
Last Saturday, I had an bad experience during my Ministry. I was doing the last praise song(Run To You) and I did some mistakes. Thank God that Kang Wei, who was leading the congregation to sing at the time did not sing wrongly. I was suppose to flash Verse 2 but I flash Verse 1. I pray that I will not make this same mistakes for Easter next week. Really need alertness and more songs to capture in my mind.
Ps Phil. service was pretty good too, and I had a few revelations in his service. He talks about Holy Spirit, and it really bless me alot. We have to depend on Holy Spirit in our lives, and even Jesus depend on Holy Spirit too. It's a channel that connect us to God. In work, ministry, every part of our life, Holy Spirit cannot be missing in it. He talk abit about hunger too. Who should we hunger for? For food, for God, for who?
Hui Shan. . . I am so glad that you are discharged. I pray that you will have a speedy recovery and that you will be able to catch up with your studies. Pray for complete healing upon you and that you will have the joy of the Lord everyday. =)
Easter is here, and this year, we have a total of 11 services! As a whole church, we will have 17 services all in all. Amazing! However, this is a good opportunity to reach out to the lost, and I pray for my camp mate Darren, will go for the Easter drama and he will get touch by it. =)
Sunday, March 2, 2008
:: Great Service ::
Service today was never the same before. It was so wonderful and great to have F.I.R with City Harvest. Yes, you didn't see wrongly. It's F.I.R! We have Fei Er & Ah Qing singing to us, and their new album total rocks my world! Hahaha.. Oh ya, they propose to each other too. Not in church, but sometime ago.. Haha.. Yeah.. I am slow.. =P
They also share their testimony with us, and how God has change them, and how different they were before and after they become Christians. It greatly impacted me and its so touching to see how Fei Er was desperately in love with God. They are also making a huge difference in Taiwan Media Industry too.. Wow.. God is indeed amazing!
After Service, I joined W421 for fellowship after Chorus Boarding, and it was quite surprising to see how Pascale's connect group have so much frenzs! I had a shock when I bump into them. I never imagine so much frenzs in a normal service before. Well, today's service is not really normal, but as in big days like Easter or Christmas. Hahaa.. Well done Kelvin and Aaron. Great job you have done. I believe this CG5 is going to grow, and I believe my CG2 is going to be the same too!
I have to confess that I have not been a good Connect Group leader, and I want to bring revival in this small group. It's not by my own will and might, but by the power of the Holy Spirit. Let it start with me first! =)
I also thank God that my parents have reconcile again! I was sharing this testimony during Cell Group yesterday.. Only to realise that I have wrote something on the offering envelope during last Saturday's Service, and that is, to hope that my parents will found their first love for each other again. Few days ago, they started chatting and they even sit together to have dinner, to watch TV. It's amazing, cuz just a week before, they have been having cold wars since 2 weeks before CNY. It was the longest battle ever declare in my family, and I am glad that God did something in this family.
Just an issue that I want to ask you all. If you are sleeping halfway and you were awaken by a call for some urgent and serious issue, only to found out that the other party was just joking, will you be angry? Well, this thing happened to me last Friday morning. I was sleeping halfway and I received a call at 8 plus, and my frenz say that my Sir is angry and ask me where I am. I was quite puzzle because I am suppose to attend a function at Sentosa on that day, so I can be excuse and I need not go camp. I keep saying that I have been told to go and my Shift I/C has know about this matter. After some talking, he then start to joke that he was just lying. What the crap right? His intention for calling me was to ask if I want to go for day off because I can be excuse and need not to attend the function anymore. After some thoughts, I say that I will want to go for day off instead.
Later on, I SMS my frenz, and tell him that this thing is not funny, and I told them that if they want to play, go play among themselves. Another guy call me, instead of apologising, he blame me instead. Say that I cannot take jokes. Bla Bla Bla.. Pushing all the blames to me instead. -.- I SMS him later, apologising for spoiling his mood early in the morning, explaining things that it was not a right timing, and that I can take jokes too, and can be quite crappy sometimes. He didn't reply.
I admit that my action could be too rash. However, not everyone will have the same character right? He may be able to take such craps, but definitely not for me, especially when we are being disturb by sleep and you received such jokes at a very wrong hour. If people were to do this to you, will you be happy?
Anyway, I can say that I have let go of this issue le, just pray that I will not received anymore such pranks again. Well I guess in life, pranks will be play on you once in awhile, but there have to be a limit yeah?
Bringing you a song item by F.I.R.. It's one of my favourite.. =)
They also share their testimony with us, and how God has change them, and how different they were before and after they become Christians. It greatly impacted me and its so touching to see how Fei Er was desperately in love with God. They are also making a huge difference in Taiwan Media Industry too.. Wow.. God is indeed amazing!
After Service, I joined W421 for fellowship after Chorus Boarding, and it was quite surprising to see how Pascale's connect group have so much frenzs! I had a shock when I bump into them. I never imagine so much frenzs in a normal service before. Well, today's service is not really normal, but as in big days like Easter or Christmas. Hahaa.. Well done Kelvin and Aaron. Great job you have done. I believe this CG5 is going to grow, and I believe my CG2 is going to be the same too!
I have to confess that I have not been a good Connect Group leader, and I want to bring revival in this small group. It's not by my own will and might, but by the power of the Holy Spirit. Let it start with me first! =)
I also thank God that my parents have reconcile again! I was sharing this testimony during Cell Group yesterday.. Only to realise that I have wrote something on the offering envelope during last Saturday's Service, and that is, to hope that my parents will found their first love for each other again. Few days ago, they started chatting and they even sit together to have dinner, to watch TV. It's amazing, cuz just a week before, they have been having cold wars since 2 weeks before CNY. It was the longest battle ever declare in my family, and I am glad that God did something in this family.
Just an issue that I want to ask you all. If you are sleeping halfway and you were awaken by a call for some urgent and serious issue, only to found out that the other party was just joking, will you be angry? Well, this thing happened to me last Friday morning. I was sleeping halfway and I received a call at 8 plus, and my frenz say that my Sir is angry and ask me where I am. I was quite puzzle because I am suppose to attend a function at Sentosa on that day, so I can be excuse and I need not go camp. I keep saying that I have been told to go and my Shift I/C has know about this matter. After some talking, he then start to joke that he was just lying. What the crap right? His intention for calling me was to ask if I want to go for day off because I can be excuse and need not to attend the function anymore. After some thoughts, I say that I will want to go for day off instead.
Later on, I SMS my frenz, and tell him that this thing is not funny, and I told them that if they want to play, go play among themselves. Another guy call me, instead of apologising, he blame me instead. Say that I cannot take jokes. Bla Bla Bla.. Pushing all the blames to me instead. -.- I SMS him later, apologising for spoiling his mood early in the morning, explaining things that it was not a right timing, and that I can take jokes too, and can be quite crappy sometimes. He didn't reply.
I admit that my action could be too rash. However, not everyone will have the same character right? He may be able to take such craps, but definitely not for me, especially when we are being disturb by sleep and you received such jokes at a very wrong hour. If people were to do this to you, will you be happy?
Anyway, I can say that I have let go of this issue le, just pray that I will not received anymore such pranks again. Well I guess in life, pranks will be play on you once in awhile, but there have to be a limit yeah?
Bringing you a song item by F.I.R.. It's one of my favourite.. =)
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
:: Love ::
What is love?
- Love is desire to give, without expecting the other person to give back.
- Love is accepting people for who they are.
- Love is a wonderful feeling.
- Love is selfless.
- Love is forever.
Why do I talk about love in this entry? Well, basically I find myself that I have not been having the spirit of loving recently. Due to a particular incident happen in my camp last Friday, I have been quite angry with that guy. On Saturday after Service, I share with Wei Jian about this. Initially, I don't really want to open up, but still, I share with him. I told him that I don't hate that guy, but I dislike him. What confuse me was, he said that isn't the same? Can I love a person but dislike him/her at the same time? Someone please counsel me. . .
I still did not let go completely, letting go bit by bit, until today, I feel better when I bump into that guy in camp. We still got laugh abit during our conversation. Strange huh? Just a few 48 hours ago I treat him like a enemy but today was quite different. Maybe, I have choose to let go of this incident. Firstly, he does not know God, that's why he don't know where to seek for comfort when he's hurt, where to seek for "attention", to get people to know him. Everybody needs attention, just that he choose the wrong way to get.
All changes my mind because of this verse...
This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another.
- 1 John 3:11
Well, it doesn't really helps when people talk to me how we should love everyone, especially when you are seriously hurt. We should care for the person first, and not just preach how we should do this and that, how we should not do this or that. Well, every Christians know that they have to love, because that is what the bible says and that is what God expect us Christians to do so. However, as what the Pastor always say, "People don't care how much you know, until they know how much you care!".
Not trying to pin point anyone out there. It's just that I feel that we should learn to care for people in a right manner. Maybe in a right place, right timing, and of course, the right words! Hahaa..
Thanks Pearly for what you wrote on your blog too. It help me to open up my mind more to God's love... =)
On another side... I bump into Q on Sunday evening.. Q was my secret lover.. Hahaa.. I was shy and I look down.. Well, that was not a real genuine love.. But, my heart and mind just keep on thinking about Q, I think God is jealous.. Well.. Hahaa.. I should really let go of some "love" too, not just letting go of pains.. Hehee.. =P
- Love is desire to give, without expecting the other person to give back.
- Love is accepting people for who they are.
- Love is a wonderful feeling.
- Love is selfless.
- Love is forever.
Why do I talk about love in this entry? Well, basically I find myself that I have not been having the spirit of loving recently. Due to a particular incident happen in my camp last Friday, I have been quite angry with that guy. On Saturday after Service, I share with Wei Jian about this. Initially, I don't really want to open up, but still, I share with him. I told him that I don't hate that guy, but I dislike him. What confuse me was, he said that isn't the same? Can I love a person but dislike him/her at the same time? Someone please counsel me. . .
I still did not let go completely, letting go bit by bit, until today, I feel better when I bump into that guy in camp. We still got laugh abit during our conversation. Strange huh? Just a few 48 hours ago I treat him like a enemy but today was quite different. Maybe, I have choose to let go of this incident. Firstly, he does not know God, that's why he don't know where to seek for comfort when he's hurt, where to seek for "attention", to get people to know him. Everybody needs attention, just that he choose the wrong way to get.
All changes my mind because of this verse...
This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another.
- 1 John 3:11
Well, it doesn't really helps when people talk to me how we should love everyone, especially when you are seriously hurt. We should care for the person first, and not just preach how we should do this and that, how we should not do this or that. Well, every Christians know that they have to love, because that is what the bible says and that is what God expect us Christians to do so. However, as what the Pastor always say, "People don't care how much you know, until they know how much you care!".
Not trying to pin point anyone out there. It's just that I feel that we should learn to care for people in a right manner. Maybe in a right place, right timing, and of course, the right words! Hahaa..
Thanks Pearly for what you wrote on your blog too. It help me to open up my mind more to God's love... =)
On another side... I bump into Q on Sunday evening.. Q was my secret lover.. Hahaa.. I was shy and I look down.. Well, that was not a real genuine love.. But, my heart and mind just keep on thinking about Q, I think God is jealous.. Well.. Hahaa.. I should really let go of some "love" too, not just letting go of pains.. Hehee.. =P
Saturday, February 23, 2008
:: Thoughts ::
I wonder if I should include how hurt or how angry I feel in my blog. Firstly, its not really a nice thing to remember. By writing down in my blog will let me remember the pain again when I read them in future. Sounds reasonable? I guess so. Therefore, whatever hurts I have in future, I will not write the exact details of what happen. It's all for a good cause. Anyway, I should learn to forgive and forget. However, such things especially that hurts you alot is impossible to forget. So, this is one of the way to prevent me from getting hurt in future.
Well, of course, I do not live a perfect life. By not writing all this down, it doesn't reflect that I am showing others I have a perfect life, and everyday that I pass by is happy. Especially during this period, when I am still in NS.. Some things are rather sensitive and I cannot just anyhow say out. No matter how angry I feel towards some of the people in my camp, I will just remain silence. This is one of the way to respect them, by not saying things about them, especially since technology are so advance and anyone could be reading your blog.
Anyway, I am pretty excited looking forward to my ORD date. The people in camp should be rejoicing too. Why do I say that? Cuz they are always complaining how badly we perform, how we shouldn't do this and that. When we are officially ORD, they will not longer have such problems. Get the idea over here? It's indeed a win win situation. Nothing to talk about. =)
My plans for now is to probably to take a break after I ORD. I might enrolled in the second batch of the year in the private university. Since I can't really decide where I want to go, and I don't want to make a quick decision. It's better for me.. Since I regret choosing DECC when I was in poly when I dislike engineering at all. I don't want the same thing to happen again. . .
Service tml.. Pastor Ulf Ekman.. Loving his teaching!! Hahaa.. =D
Well, of course, I do not live a perfect life. By not writing all this down, it doesn't reflect that I am showing others I have a perfect life, and everyday that I pass by is happy. Especially during this period, when I am still in NS.. Some things are rather sensitive and I cannot just anyhow say out. No matter how angry I feel towards some of the people in my camp, I will just remain silence. This is one of the way to respect them, by not saying things about them, especially since technology are so advance and anyone could be reading your blog.
Anyway, I am pretty excited looking forward to my ORD date. The people in camp should be rejoicing too. Why do I say that? Cuz they are always complaining how badly we perform, how we shouldn't do this and that. When we are officially ORD, they will not longer have such problems. Get the idea over here? It's indeed a win win situation. Nothing to talk about. =)
My plans for now is to probably to take a break after I ORD. I might enrolled in the second batch of the year in the private university. Since I can't really decide where I want to go, and I don't want to make a quick decision. It's better for me.. Since I regret choosing DECC when I was in poly when I dislike engineering at all. I don't want the same thing to happen again. . .
Service tml.. Pastor Ulf Ekman.. Loving his teaching!! Hahaa.. =D
Friday, February 22, 2008
:: Back! ::
Been quite busy and tired for the past few days. Stay in camp till midnight yesterday and I clock the latest hour stay in camp ever, 2-3 plus in the morning. Never in my life I have stay till so late before. The only time I stay that late was probably when I was still in Tekong ba. Hahaa..
How am I doing? Well, I could say that my emotions are not doing so good. I didn't really enjoy this year Chinese New Year as my parents have some cold war between them, and it affected me quite a bit as I was looking forward in celebrating together happily as a family. However, it did not happen as I wanted it to be. Till now, they still have not been talking to each other. This could be the longest war ever declare in the family.
All I hope for was love to be restored in this family, especially between my parents... God, I pray that my parents will fell in love with each other again. Let nothing divide this family.
I have also not been doing good in my spiritual walk with God too. Lazy, Distraction, Battles in my mind are the reasons. Just getting better this few days, and it could be better. I hope that I can really do what I have set in the beginning of the year, and I don't want to make empty promises, especially to God. If I can't do a simple thing for God, how can I do it for others?
I will update more in future & I hope that I can really make it happen. Going off to sleep soon. Tomorrow is going to be a long day, and I am looking forward to the Overnight Prayer Meeting!
How am I doing? Well, I could say that my emotions are not doing so good. I didn't really enjoy this year Chinese New Year as my parents have some cold war between them, and it affected me quite a bit as I was looking forward in celebrating together happily as a family. However, it did not happen as I wanted it to be. Till now, they still have not been talking to each other. This could be the longest war ever declare in the family.
All I hope for was love to be restored in this family, especially between my parents... God, I pray that my parents will fell in love with each other again. Let nothing divide this family.
I have also not been doing good in my spiritual walk with God too. Lazy, Distraction, Battles in my mind are the reasons. Just getting better this few days, and it could be better. I hope that I can really do what I have set in the beginning of the year, and I don't want to make empty promises, especially to God. If I can't do a simple thing for God, how can I do it for others?
I will update more in future & I hope that I can really make it happen. Going off to sleep soon. Tomorrow is going to be a long day, and I am looking forward to the Overnight Prayer Meeting!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
:: Will Be Back! ::
Been a long time since I blog. Will update soon! =) Meanwhile, do enjoy this song. I find that its a very nice song although the language is foreign! Hahaa.
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