:: Update ::

Sometimes, things are just too much for me to bear that I wish that I can sleep peacefully six feet underground. God, strengthen me, mould me and I believe that one day I can tell you with joy, "God, I have overcome it. Thank You"

The God I know, 

Strengthens the weak.

HaPpy ChiNeSe NeW yEaR to aLL my frienDs!

:: Ministered ::

When I read Andrew's blog on "Random", I was being ministered by what he said. The way that he blogged never fail to surprise me sometimes. There's just something special about this guy. 

Whenever he blogged, he did not showed off how great he know about God and the Word. Whenever I read his entries, I will feel ministered, I will feel that I am "eating and drinking" spiritually. His entries are simple and yet it carries an anointing to bless others, to build up other believers in the Kingdom Of God. Sometimes the entries that he wrote may provoked you, but yet he does not tear your spirit apart. He may be harsh, but yet he can managed to minister to a stubborn person like me.

His relationship with God are not just merely God as his Lord and Saviour, not only a Father, not only a friend, but a very close friend, like an intimate couple. =)

I am really glad and bless to have a frenz, a brother in Christ like him. =) May God use this strong man to continue to be a blessings to others in the Kingdom of God. 

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:: Wish to be alone ::

Sometimes. . . I feel that I am a strange guy. When I wish to be alone, I would wish people to talk to me. When people talk to me, I will not want to talk to them. Now, I am going through this stage. . . Weird me. . .  

Chinese New Year is just ard the corner, however, I do not really look forward to it. The only thing I look forward to CNY is to get Ang Baos. Haha.. I love the season more during the Pre-CNY where I get to clean the house, getting excited with the shopping of goods and during the eve Reunion Dinner. As soon as the clock hits the CNY Day 1, I will look forward for the next year Pre-CNY again. Another weird point of me. =.=

2009 is the year of cow, and its "my year", and which means I am 24 this year. 12 years ago(The year of cow), I am taking PSLE! Haha.. If I can and if there's a chance, I will wish to go back to retake my PSLE, studying harder, going to Express stream and going into JC. 

If another 12 years were to pass by again, I will be in my mid-thirties le. Gosh.. So old, where will I be I wonder? What house will I get to stay in? Will I be married? How many kids will I have? 

Thanks for your SMS Pascale. =) Really appreciate that you are not just a listener who listen and forget, but a listener who listen and encourage. ^^ 

:: Nothing ::

I wish that . . . . . . . . 

:: Lost ::

:: First CG of 2009 ::

The first CG of the year. One word to describe - Awesome! I believed that great things are going to happened this year for W421 as we began to tithe the first 15 minutes to God by praying in the spirit. Sharon begin to speak, and asked us to visualize the areas of our life that we want to see a breakthrough in. I see my family staying happily together. I see good results that I will get in my school. 

The sermon was very good. I felt that it was for me. Before I came to CG, my mind was wondering elsewhere, I feel lost, I feel like straying away from God, I feel like doing some things that God will not be pleased of, I feel that I feel unloved by people.

To me, love is like an oxygen to me. However, I have always get the wrong source of oxygen. I did not think of the main source of oxygen - Love from God. When I feel unloved by my friends, to me, it's like the world coming to an end, and I have been trapping in the world, because I have been blinded and I have failed to see God's love.

Open up my eyes to the things unseen, 

Show me how to love, like you have love me.

Praying by the ten commandments is really powerful. =) The message not only talks about teaching us the right way to pray, but the hidden message behind it, the little details reveal to me that I have been wrong all the while. The little details reveal to me that God wants me to put Him as my main source. =)

Well, I can easily talk about this. However, its another thing to live it, and another thing to last it, not just for a few days or weeks, but being a footprint in our heart. I may talked about this, but few months down the road, the same thing might happen again. 

However, thinking of that issue again. I will think, "What route should I choose?" 

:: I Wish I Wish I Wish ::

I NEED FINANCIAL BREAKTHROUGH!

(If only heaven could rain down money on earth, how great will it be, but I know, this is just my dreams.) 

Dreams are my reality.

The only kind of reality.

I dream of loving in the night.

And loving seems alright.

Although it's only fantasy.

If only such dreams can be a reality. . . Now, open up your mind and imagine. . .

- Millions of $1000 notes falling down in the CBD area.

- People snatching and catching the fallen notes.

- People who have caught a great harvest of notes return to the office and start firing their bossy boss.

- The bosses are speechless.

- Second day, the same thing happen again.

- This time round, the boss start to catch the fallen notes.

- However, will their harvest be as great as their previous workers?

- NO! It's because the workers are always working hard and the bosses are always ordering the workers around.

- Therefore, the bosses can only suck their thumb and return to their office with a few notes.

- All the workers decided to left because they have a great catch.

- The workers leave the office and they live happily ever after.

- The poor bosses live sadly ever after.

THE END

Haha.. I wonder if I can be a script writer? Maybe I can write dramas as great as "The Little Nonya" and movies as great as "Titanic"? Haha.. So thick-skinned me. =P

In heaven one day. . . 

God: "SW Tan, so where's the 2000 dramas and 500 movies that you have written?"

Me: "God, this are the accounts that I have audit on earth. Would you show the heaven's balance sheet? So that I can help out in the accounts as well."

God: ". . . "

Haha.. I was just wondering, God is a God of infinity. His riches are uncountable. I wonder the accountants in heaven need many digit of calculator. Hahaha.. A huge calculator in the middle of heaven. Maybe just by pressing one amount will take 5 years. Hahaa.. Well, I hope that one day I can find out what's my calling that God has written for me. ^^ 

As you can see, I am getting abit crazy here and there. Hopefully, I won't end up like Yu Zhu being tied up in the hospital. . . 

:: School Life ::

I have not been studying since March 2006, except for Bible Studies. So how's school life to me? First day was good. Second day was okay. Third day was below average. :'( I don't understand what cher talking. (Can't use singlish? Okay.. Let me rephrase) I don't understand what the lecturer is teaching. :'( I think I will need a interpretation headset. Wonder if my school provides it?

The lecturers also asked us to read newspaper, to read about the happenings around the world. Hmm.. Too bad, I only have the habit of reading chinese newspaper, and the teacher today asked us not to read them. This wife of mine very picky. Ms Accounting, I never knew that you are such a complicated person! Are you a "les"?? If you are, den I am a "more"! Hahaha.. No lah, just kidding with you. Ms Accounting, since I choose you, I will follow you, because I believe in my vision. Haha.. Ms Accounting, I think your name very long leh.. I think I give you a new name. Hmm.. Take after my surname ba, Mrs Tan. ^^

Mrs Tan, I wonder if I have enough time for you in the future. I have to work, perhaps you will not feel the love from me. How can I show my love to you? By hugging you to bed every night? By having quality time with you? What's your love language so that I can show my love to  you better? =) Mrs Tan, would you please lend me your ears by coming closer to me? Mr Tan just whispered into Mrs Tan ears: "Nothing in this world can take me away from you, our love goes on and on" (HUgx) ^^

:: Eve Before My Marriage ::

Surprise? Yeah.. I am getting married tml! WOoHOo!! Been waiting for this day for so long. I have not tell anyone about who am I getting married to, only some know. Shhh!! Dun tell them, wait they will give me a face if I never invite them to my wedding. No choice, times are bad. I can't afford to hold many tables in the hotel and I can't possibly hold it in a coffee shop.

I first knew the person in August. When this person caught my attention, it just drew all my spirit away from me. I was totally captivated by this gorgeous person. Man. . . I am the luckiest guy on Earth. Though I may be poor, but Pastor Kong says "You may be poor today, but if you follow God, you will not be poor all your life" Haha. . . Yeah, and I believe that it will come to pass. =)

During the first night of Asia Conference, I slipped away after my afternoon elective to meet this person without my members knowing. I went to Somerset and meet my love. I knee down my knees in front of CentrePoint. I ignore the stares from the passer-bys, as if I owned the whole street without any fear. I gave the person my heart and I propose to her, and the reply was "Yes!"

A week later, we went down to ROM to register our marriage. I was late to meet and I even cabbed down! Cost me $20. =( However, to meet my love, I won't mind even sacrificing my life. Haha. . .

Tml is my big night, 06/01/09. Go and buy 4D! 0601! Haha.. No lah. Dun ok? =) Anyway, it will be a night that will marked down inside my heart for the next 50 years on Earth with my lovely wife. She promised me that she will give me half dozen of children. Just like my family, 3 boys and 3 girls. Hopefully, I have twins. =) 

Now, I shall introduce formally my wife for all of you, and her name is .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .   .ACCOUNTING!

Hahaha. . . Dun throw things at me! Ouch... Ouch!! Stopped pls! Opss!! Ouch!! :'( Okok.. Dun crap le.. =P 

Haha.. Why do I say marriage? It's because I will be spending my life with accounting for the next phase of my life. I have no knowledge about accounting at all, and once I start to let it flow inside my life tml night, it will become part of my life. No matter I hate it or love it in the end, it will still be inside my memory. =) So, I will want to love accounting with all of my heart, I don't know if I can, but I promise that I will try. 

Why do I say some of the events above? Let me explain. =)

- August is the period where I get to know ACCA.

- First night of Asia Conference is where I attend the talk, and I like it. 

- A week later is when I went down to register, and YES, I took a cab to Orchard!

Hopefully I can do well in school. Last chance for me, because I fail to do so in my primary all the way till poly. Last chance to study, last chance in school, last chance in my life. ^^ Jia You Wei Ming!! 

Sometimes, I am really glad that there's an angel in my CG, and yes, that's non-other than Louisa. I am really glad to receive encouragement from her, and I believe that the other members will feel the same way too. Really thank God for such a wonderful person in my life. =) Jia You Louisa! I believe that God has see what you have sown and I believe that you will reap with joy! ^^

:: The Journey To 2009 ::

31/12/2008, Wednesday

After my work end, I took a walk ard Raffles Place for a sight-seeing, before I say goodbye to my workplace. It was really a beautiful sight. =) However, I was quite tired physically and I dun know where can I sleep, and I was wondering if I could just hide inside the toilet cubicle for a short nap. LOL.. I didn't of course. Haha.. After which, I meet up with Samuel, Terence, Derek at Junction 8 for a walk and to buy some snacks. Pascale joined us after that and we have some dessert. It was really delicious! Haha.. Thanks Terence and Derek. =)

After which, we walk to Tong's house. She stays in a really beautiful house and I had fun with the Ex-Zone members playing ard. We played Werewolf and it was really fun! Haha.. Had a great time talking to Aaron and Kelvin, and both of them are just so funny.

Wei Ming: So when will you be going to Taiwan?

Kelvin: Should be ard 10th April.

Wei Ming: Wah.. I think tat's very near Easter.

Kelvin: Ya.. I think so too.. How ah? I am gonna to miss the drama.

Aaron: Haha.. Den you just remember Easter and your days in Taiwan will be shorten.

Kelvin: Haha.. Yeah. I just imagine myself as Jesus carrying the Cross(Kelvin's fieldpack) and walk the 72km. Looks very alike hor? Haha.. 

(Aaron pretend to hold a whip and he began to whip Kelvin and he started singing the Easter song where Jesus get whip. "They shouted crucify. . . ." Kelvin was pretending to ouch here and there)

What a funny combo of brothers. LOL..

Soon.. We all gather for a countdown and we hold the sparkles! Thanks to Kelvin and Catherine for the contribution. Haha.. A joy to spent time with them in the very first moment of 2009!

01/01/09, Thursday

I spent most of the time fellowshiping with my bed. My best buddy of 2009! Cuz I'm really sleepy as I have lack of sleep. Called Kelvin and SMS Joseph before they flew off. Haha.. Look forward for both of you to come back. 

02/01/09, Friday

Last day of work in Munich Re. Really miss working with them. They took care of me very much. Some treated me like a son, and some joked that I can be their son-in-law. Haha.. I think I am not really to be any relationship with in-laws, cuz I never take law as a degree. Haha.. Miss you guys!

Chorus Board dinner at CHIJMES. It was fun. Haha.. I didn't talk much as it was quite a big gathering from both JW and Expo, and there were alot of unfamiliar faces. Really hope to know all more. =) 

03/01/09, Saturday

Serve at JW Service 1. This Service rocks man. Haha.. I couldn't go for Expo Service cuz I wanna cook for my mum as it's her birthday today. Happy Birthday Ma Ma! All dish that I cook are okok, except for the chicken wings, it's not cook properly. Haha.. I also realised that I use the wrong flour to fry. Haha.. No wonder it's not crispy enough. =P

Starting school soon! Really hope that I can do well in this school. =)